Suicide= A way of telling God, "You can't fire me! I QUIT!"

my solution to everything.

if
By: Jackie Ruble

if you knew the pain i feel,
maybe you'd understand.
if i showed you all my bruises,
you'll see why i can't.

if you knew the torture i endure,
maybe you would care.
if i were to tell you,
you wouldn't want to be there.

if you found a way,
through my pain and strife,
you would want to know why
i am how i am. God, i hate my life.

cry
by: Jackie Ruble


you may think that I'm alright
so why do I cry myself to sleep at night?
the reason is clear, for me anyway.
I can't take the pain I'm enduring every day.


you might know that I'm fragile,
you may know that I've been like this for a while.
you don't know much about me,
but all that you think that you see.


I cut my wrist,
Knowing i must do this,
I try to stop the lies,
For I'm the one full of denies.


I'm outside of your window,
Reading my vow of sorrow,
Wishing I could die,
But I'm making a lie.


I'm not sure how i feel,
Making one last deal,
I won't be free,
now i'm dead, you see.

Torture
By: Jackie Ruble


I'm lost with the pain you left me.
I can't take the fear that surrounds me.
I know not what to do.
So I'm fearing for you.


I torture myself
Hoping you'd notice.
But you just stand there,
So I keep doing this.


I'm not immortal to these wounds
So help me as i cry.
But now is too late,
And I decide to die.

Am I
By: Jackie Ruble


Am I more to you
Than you wish to show?
Am I any use to the world
That you'd with to know?


Am I more than a girl in black
Who loves to cry?
Am I more than a true emotional
Who really wants to die?

if i cry
you can't deny
that you wont be there.

if i die
you'd know that i
am the only one you care about.

if i wait
will you say
that you love me?

if i say that i love you
will you believe that it is true
and stay with me?
Or leave?

my something
is something
that something
does something
to something
that something
is something

By: Jackie Ruble

Ah, love feels sooo good. Making out feels so much better.

Kissing is fun, but frenching is so much better.

Frenching is fun, but licking is soooo much better.

Licking is fun, but sucking is way better.

Sucking is exciting, but Fucking is better.

Fucking is fun, but once you got a kid, you life is hell.

lol.



wait, love is waaaaaay better. i love you, eric.

..... WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! omg i am sooooooooooooooo HYYYYYPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRR!

my gerbil says hi. see?


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