My Prayer Of Suicide

As I lay me
Down to sleep.
I pray my soul
Within crow's beak.


Let my knife break through my skin.
Let it find my heart within.
And if I live unto the next day,
I'll try to die in every way.


Now as I lay
Within my bed
With devious voices
Inside my head.


The devious voices
Tell to me,
"Kill yourself,
You're dead you see."


If I live
When dawn wakes
I'll cut myself
Watching the blood of which it makes.

If I die
Before the break of dawn
I will call
This war won.

THE END

As I lay me
Down to sleep.
I pray my soul
Within crow's beak.


Let my knife break through my skin.
Let it find my heart within.
And if I live unto the next day,
I'll try to die in every way.


Now as i lay
Within my bed
I hear devious thoughts
Inside my head.

say hello my child...

i love you

by: jackie ruble

i'm not sure if you still care

i don't know if you'll be there.

i'm sure if this is still true...

i love you.


i don't care if you don't love me

it'll just hurt, you see.

i don't care if you don't believe it is true.

i love you.


i know you don't want to hear it

i don't really give a shit.

even if i don't stay with you

i will always love you.


you may not want to know what i have to say

but i'll say it any way.

please make my dream come true

where you love me, and i love you.


by me. NO STEALING. AT ALL. I WILL REPORT YOU IF YOU DO STEAL IT!

I'd rather be loved for who I am, rather than who i'm not.


If you don't love me... Oh, well, I don't think that anyone really does love me... (of course, there's Eric, and Ashley... but that's different!)

I'll Be Sure
[To Carve]
Your Name
[On The Bullet]
So You
[Will Be The]
Last Thing
[That Goes Through]
My Mind
[When I Shoot]
The Gun.

*~*~*~*WARNING!: I don't really sleep with a knife! ... well, any more*~*~*~*

Knife
By: Jackie Ruble

Oh, wonderful knife.
The, I adore.
Make me happy
With blood and gore.

Oh, knife that I sleep with;
So pointy and sharp.
Kill me so i'm happy.
Stab me in the heart.

You may think I'm crazy.
You may think I'm nuts.
Go ahead and think that,
While I count my cuts.

You may know me as a person;
In love, but not that happy.
And it's only you I love;
Although it sounds sappy...

~*~You and Me~*~
By: Jackie Ruble

Think what you can.
Think what you may.
I can only help you
If you're willing to stay.

Dream what you wish.
Dream what you dare.
You can't belive
I'm the only one that will care.

Leave what you want.
Take what you need.
I am blind
Because you're all that I see.

Stay if you want.
Stay if you care.
I am left here
Because I wouldn't go there.

Leave if you hate.
Leave if you loath.
Do I love you and me?
I cannot love both.

Hate if you love.
Love if you hate.
But don't love me,
If it's me you hate.

Peanut Butter Jelly

IT'S PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME

where he at
where he at
where he at
where he at
now
there he go
there he go
there he go
there he go

PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!

peanut-butter-jelly
peanut-butter-jelly
peanut-butter-jelly with a baseball bat
peanut-butter-jelly
peanut-butter-jelly with a football cap

where he at
where he at
where he at
where he at
now
there he go
there he go
there he go
there he go

PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!

peanut-butter-jelly
peanut-butter-jelly
peanut-butter-jelly with a baseball bat
peanut-butter-jelly
peanut-butter-jelly with a football cap

Suicide= A way of telling God, "You can't fire me! I QUIT!"

my solution to everything.

if
By: Jackie Ruble

if you knew the pain i feel,
maybe you'd understand.
if i showed you all my bruises,
you'll see why i can't.

if you knew the torture i endure,
maybe you would care.
if i were to tell you,
you wouldn't want to be there.

if you found a way,
through my pain and strife,
you would want to know why
i am how i am. God, i hate my life.

cry
by: Jackie Ruble


you may think that I'm alright
so why do I cry myself to sleep at night?
the reason is clear, for me anyway.
I can't take the pain I'm enduring every day.


you might know that I'm fragile,
you may know that I've been like this for a while.
you don't know much about me,
but all that you think that you see.


I cut my wrist,
Knowing i must do this,
I try to stop the lies,
For I'm the one full of denies.


I'm outside of your window,
Reading my vow of sorrow,
Wishing I could die,
But I'm making a lie.


I'm not sure how i feel,
Making one last deal,
I won't be free,
now i'm dead, you see.

Torture
By: Jackie Ruble


I'm lost with the pain you left me.
I can't take the fear that surrounds me.
I know not what to do.
So I'm fearing for you.


I torture myself
Hoping you'd notice.
But you just stand there,
So I keep doing this.


I'm not immortal to these wounds
So help me as i cry.
But now is too late,
And I decide to die.

Am I
By: Jackie Ruble


Am I more to you
Than you wish to show?
Am I any use to the world
That you'd with to know?


Am I more than a girl in black
Who loves to cry?
Am I more than a true emotional
Who really wants to die?

if i cry
you can't deny
that you wont be there.

if i die
you'd know that i
am the only one you care about.

if i wait
will you say
that you love me?

if i say that i love you
will you believe that it is true
and stay with me?
Or leave?

my something
is something
that something
does something
to something
that something
is something

By: Jackie Ruble