[Life-Hope=Me]'s diary
I'd rather be loved for who I am, rather than who i'm not.
If you don't love me... Oh, well, I don't think that anyone really does love me... (of course, there's Eric, and Ashley... but that's different!)
I'll Be Sure
[To Carve]
Your Name
[On The Bullet]
So You
[Will Be The]
Last Thing
[That Goes Through]
My Mind
[When I Shoot]
The Gun.
*~*~*~*WARNING
Knife
By: Jackie Ruble
Oh, wonderful knife.
The, I adore.
Make me happy
With blood and gore.
Oh, knife that I sleep with;
So pointy and sharp.
Kill me so i'm happy.
Stab me in the heart.
You may think I'm crazy.
You may think I'm nuts.
Go ahead and think that,
While I count my cuts.
You may know me as a person;
In love, but not that happy.
And it's only you I love;
Although it sounds sappy...
~*~You and Me~*~
By: Jackie Ruble
Think what you can.
Think what you may.
I can only help you
If you're willing to stay.
Dream what you wish.
Dream what you dare.
You can't belive
I'm the only one that will care.
Leave what you want.
Take what you need.
I am blind
Because you're all that I see.
Stay if you want.
Stay if you care.
I am left here
Because I wouldn't go there.
Leave if you hate.
Leave if you loath.
Do I love you and me?
I cannot love both.
Hate if you love.
Love if you hate.
But don't love me,
If it's me you hate.
Peanut Butter Jelly
IT'S PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME
where he at
where he at
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where he at
now
there he go
there he go
there he go
there he go
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
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where he at
where he at
where he at
where he at
now
there he go
there he go
there he go
there he go
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY!
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Suicide= A way of telling God, "You can't fire me! I QUIT!"
my solution to everything.
if
By: Jackie Ruble
if you knew the pain i feel,
maybe you'd understand.
if i showed you all my bruises,
you'll see why i can't.
if you knew the torture i endure,
maybe you would care.
if i were to tell you,
you wouldn't want to be there.
if you found a way,
through my pain and strife,
you would want to know why
i am how i am. God, i hate my life.
cry
by: Jackie Ruble
you may think that I'm alright
so why do I cry myself to sleep at night?
the reason is clear, for me anyway.
I can't take the pain I'm enduring every day.
you might know that I'm fragile,
you may know that I've been like this for a while.
you don't know much about me,
but all that you think that you see.
I cut my wrist,
Knowing i must do this,
I try to stop the lies,
For I'm the one full of denies.
I'm outside of your window,
Reading my vow of sorrow,
Wishing I could die,
But I'm making a lie.
I'm not sure how i feel,
Making one last deal,
I won't be free,
now i'm dead, you see.
Torture
By: Jackie Ruble
I'm lost with the pain you left me.
I can't take the fear that surrounds me.
I know not what to do.
So I'm fearing for you.
I torture myself
Hoping you'd notice.
But you just stand there,
So I keep doing this.
I'm not immortal to these wounds
So help me as i cry.
But now is too late,
And I decide to die.
Am I
By: Jackie Ruble
Am I more to you
Than you wish to show?
Am I any use to the world
That you'd with to know?
Am I more than a girl in black
Who loves to cry?
Am I more than a true emotional
Who really wants to die?
if i cry
you can't deny
that you wont be there.
if i die
you'd know that i
am the only one you care about.
if i wait
will you say
that you love me?
if i say that i love you
will you believe that it is true
and stay with me?
Or leave?
my something
is something
that something
does something
to something
that something
is something
By: Jackie Ruble
By: Jackie Ruble
Her lonliness was not a secret, in which she wished to hide.
Every waking moment, her heart became alive.
All she dreamed about, and wished about she tries to forget.
Reviving those dreams and thoughts, she now tries not to regret.
Those perilous, painful thoughts in her mind, revived by the thought of you.
So, she sits there all alone, as if none of it is true.
By: Jackie Ruble
thyself is making you turn into who you are not.
hell is coming for thyself; i heard it feels hot.
you may want to be like that, but i don't think you should.
sliver my wrist into things of ending, if i only could.
everlasting pain that will never, ever end.
letting you do this is too much for me.
forget everything and everyone you see...
By: Jackie Ruble
A breeze blowing chills me,
Hopefully it kills me.
I want to fly away from this place,
And see a smile upon one's face.
I cannot fly, for I have no wings.
I can only fly within my dreams.
Then, and only then, I can fly high,
But my dreams come only at nigh.
I could fly higher than any mountain,
And see any a fountain.
Who says love cannot prevail?
But it is mine, that cannot fail.
I know that I am but a youth,
But I know more than the truth.
This I know, is more than true,
You love me, and I love you.
Ah, love feels sooo good. Making out feels so much better.
Kissing is fun, but frenching is so much better.
Frenching is fun, but licking is soooo much better.
Licking is fun, but sucking is way better.
Sucking is exciting, but Fucking is better.
Fucking is fun, but once you got a kid, you life is hell.
lol.
wait, love is waaaaaay better. i love you, eric.
..... WHEEEEEEEEEEEE