I can't stop thinking about him I can't get him out of my mind. Why must I be so ignorant and useless. I feel so very weak. I feel as if I don't have the power to do a thing. I feel as if I can't even if I were to be so nieve as to try. I wish that life were a lot easier. I wish that I knew what was going to happen right before I did/do it. I wish that I were like that little girl off of "The 4400" that can tell the future. That would be awesome. Or to be like the two sisters off of the book "T*witches" and be able to read other peoples minds and see into the future. Oh well I guess I'm ment to be lousey and pathetic. G-night.

Aie. My diary is not sad and empty any more. ;-P