IF you get more than 30 you're paranoid.
If you get 10 or less you're fearless.
People who don't have any are dummies who want people to think they are tough stuff.
I Fear...
[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[x] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces or closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] black cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ]spiders, ticks and/or other insects
[ ]driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] flowers or other plants
[x] being touched
[x] fire
[x] deep water
[x] just the jelly fish and other lurkers of the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightn
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/gir
[ ] my boyfriends/gir
[ ] mice/rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] cotton balls
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] diseases
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[ ] being blind
[ ] being deaf
[ ] being old
[ ] monsters under my bed
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
-9-
I enrolled in a school called full sail for my game developers bachelor degree,the total cost of the course is 61,000 dollars and im currently in a bit of a bind trying to pay for it.im moving out to orlando on my own to start on september 25th and i still havent figured out how to pay living expenses plus 6,000+ dollars a month for tuition.Well today i had an interveiw with a marine recruiter that offered that i join the reserve and delay college for a few months while i train.once out of training i can attend school regularly and have all expenses paid off by the marines.it seems like a simple enough choice but ive already paid for enrollment and what not and im not sure how much more it will cost to delay the start date,plus i have pressure from the family to consider.any advice?
3 days without sleep so far x_x; refer to the video in my previuos entry.with the events of today and the huge lack of energy that accuratly depicts me
I have made now 3 attempts to sleep,my third one just failed becuase the phone kept fucking ringing every 5 seconds!!!!hol
Me right now trying to sleep: http://www.you
Jacking this from coppie out of boredom
There's.a.hole
http://www.ste
you.download.N
a remix of the other video using deleted scenes.
http://www.you
got a new video up,unlike the test one done over a week ago this one is meant as an actual project which requires comments and criticism.
enjoy.
http://www.you
ATTENTION!
I am currently looking for a room mate to move with into Orlando,partic
thank you for any help given,
Alex
http://www.you
Please take a look and comment,its me experimenting with recording and editing software and one of my favorite games Battlefield 2.not really meant to entertain,just to make sure i can get stuff to work
It's 2 am and i have been trying to sleep for 2 hours now..but i cant..random thoughts of different places and people,who i am,who i was,and who i will be flood my mind and keep me awake.rolling side to side in my bed and closing my eyes as tight i can these day dreams only get louder as they scream into my head and drill into my subconciuos slowly driving me mad.
I'm so tired....so incredibly tired...and no matter how much i sleep it is never enough...every passing day i slip a little more into that black hole in the back of my mind full of lost hopes and dreams,confusi
There is this dream...Were im standing in a feild..maybe a slight bit older then i am..I just stand there smiling under the sun and luaghing,as if i dont have a care in the world..then i grow slightly older..maybe between my 30's and 50's...i stand infront of a large white house standing on a cliff looming over a rocky beach..All i can do is stare off into the peaceful cloudy dark evening sky and listen to the sound of the ocean,and i couldnt feel any more peacefull..the
It has been like that for a very long time now...the same dream or odd variations of it amongst many other visions of gritty dark clouded cities and raining,being alone fighting with myself and some unknown force,crying uncontrollably for no reason and stricken into weakness with my own sorrow..and then...i dream of an open grassy feild that stretches for miles and miles across grassy hills..or being on the beach cliff...those dreams i am in a weird state of calm and what i can only call psuedo happiness...
I dont know what it all means..and i wish it would all go away...all i know..is that im tired...god am i so tired...but sometimes i wonder....if i ever woke up...
Man,i need a drink...or 5...or 10...life's a bitch ya know?dont take your time in highschool for granted,enjoy it all to hell,the real world brings you a little more freedom,but you quickly lose it again when your bogged down by a social system based around the almighty dollar,long gone are the days of adventure,disc
there is no way to end it,no way to break free,take head,for you are all doomed to an eternity of disappointment
why do i write all this?i dont know,maybe i had one of those lapses,the ones everyone gets,were for a split second,we get a taste of what it is like to be a human again.for thousands of years its slowly been repressed into non-existance except for that glimmer of a second were we can feel total bliss and true happiness in our own sunny feild in our mind,a vast land were we make our own destinies and every day is a new adventure.but then you wake up,and you realize every day is the same routine,there are no feilds,just wirling roads that lead you to your worthless task to continue the cycle and ensure the schedule of the next day.fight against the system and die,live with the system and your not much more alive anyway.
the point of this all is for you folks getting ready to hit the real world,those who are already here,and those far away from it.learn this truth soon,and maybe it wont hurt as much when you actually arive...
well guys,i got the job!i now work as a representative salesman of knives and other cuttery tools for hunting,sporti
dear god,its 10:51 and im getting ready for that interview at 12.I HATE WEARING BUSINESS CLOTHES!!!they are so friggin tight and uncomfortable,
a friend of mine got me a job interview for tomorrow,good pay,doing sales and such.most importantly they have offices in orlando which is a must for when i move out of the house in september.wish me luck guys,this one is pretty important.
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
....btw, yes I actually asked becca "do you get tigers in Flordia?"
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
I was very tired.
Shadow says:
XD!!
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
very..very...t
Shadow says:
we dont get tigers,we get ligers
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
ooo
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
wait
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
-kicks-
Shadow says:
XD
i told you guys something was up with disney!
http://video.y
You watch too much anime when....
[things i have done or still do are in bold]
1.) When your clothing shows your fav anime.
2.) You call your dog Shinji.
3.) You perform a canon ball dive into a pool while yelling "Spirit Bomb!"
4.) Your house has an anime room.
5.) You and your friends flash peace signs and take girlish poses when you are happy. (though it wasnt started by anime,i always do the little peace sign salute off the corner of my forhead when saying goodbye)
6.) You get an anime tattoo. even though you're scared of needles. (getting a full metal alchemist tatoo)
7.) Your walls are covered in wallscrolls and posters from your favorite series.
8.) you use the term 'Kawaii' to describe everything. (There was a point...)
9.) You try to convince your girlfriend/boy
10.) You can sing songs from your favorite shows, in Japanese, even though you dont speak Japanese...
11.) You have legally changed your name to that of your favorite charcter. (my call sign in real life is the same as my ET name,minus the alpha part.though it isent from any show or game,it holds its own private meaning no one but myself and scarlet knows)
12.) You wear a necklace and fall down everytime someone says "sit boy".
13.) You insist on having an entrance that includes spotlights, music, and raining cherry blossoms (while you hold a rose if you're a guy). (i imagine this everytime i walk into a room XD)
14.) You play an instrument and you nick name it Inuyasha
15.) For valintines day you buy a stuffed dog and make up your own japanese name for it
16.) If you get mad at your teacher and draw a picture of her as a anime demon cat.
17.) You always have your hair covering your left eye and always fliping it so you look like a anime character.
18.) You think that falling flat on your back with your legs in the air is a normal reaction to big news.(i swear i have done this a few times)
19.) You shave a cresent moon onto your cats head, dye the cat purple, then take it to school and insist it's Luna, your talking cat.
20.) You go around town trying to eat donuts and act all crazy-like, all the while saying you're Vash the Stampede.
21.) To resolve a conflict, you insist in a duel.(me and drakkar go through this everytime were at each other's house XD)
22.) The employees at Gamestop know you, and tell you when you walk in if they've gotten a new shipment of anime DVDs.
23.) You waste countless amounts of hair gel to get that "Goku look"(dont ask)
24.) You believe it is possible for a person to be severly beaten in the head with a large hammer, stick, etc...and still come out alive.
25.) You have a moment of confusion whenever you go to school because there are no girls in those tiny little skirts that come with their school uniform. (doesent matter,they were all ugly bitches anyway)
26.) You yell out 'Baka hanyou Inu-Yasha!' at your birthday party and everyone (except your parents) knows you're talking to your boyfriend.
27.) You tell your parents you need to stay out past curfew to save the colonies.
28.) Each time you see a stray animal, you turn your hat sideways and throw one of those plastic Pokeballs Burger King was giving out in their kids' meals yelling, "POKEBALL, GO!"
29.) You add "no da" to the end of all statements you make
30.) The majority of your CDs are Japanese or the English version of a Japanese soundtrack or the English soundtrack of an anime that just decided that it would use English in its songs.
31.) You misplace your manga and someone at school you don't even know gives it to you saying they knew it was yours.
32.) You incorporate Japanese, somehow, into every class.
33.) You use random Japanese words such as baka, kawaii, and hentai.
34.) You try to read every book from right to left
35.) You take a break from watching anime to go to your computer (nicknamed Lord Conti) to download anime (for previewing purposes only! ;) ), while visiting your favorite anime forum, while listening to Japanese webradio...
36.)You call your parents Oka-san and Otou-san
37.)You'll risk grounding to get a good new fanfic.
38.)You insist on chopsticks for everyday use.
39.) Your bookshelf is filled with anime boxed sets and no books
40.)You stop listening to the radio because english makes no sense to you anymore and it's your first spoken language
41.) You call yourself "otaku."
42.) All of your family portraits have been altered to the proper super large eye size.
43.) Your dreams are animated.
44.) You hold your eyes really wide all day trying to make them stay big
45.) You run out of space on your computer because the hard drive is taken up by hundreds of anime pics, mp3s, midis, and music videos.
46.) You spend all night trying to figure out how many people you can get to go in with you on buying the complete collection of Sailor Moon episodes in Japanese.
47.) You spend your whole spring break working on an anime webpage.
48.) You expect to see a teardrop over someone's head when they get embarressed.
49.) You start to speak with an odd accent.
50.) You can watch two animes in the same room at the same time and still have the TV off.
51.) You know your favorite character's bloodtype.
52.) You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to anime.
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
... I just saw a white boy with your orange and black ears >_>' .. well not YOUR ears, but some that look like them.. and suddonly, orange and camo doesnt look bad
Shadow says:
heheh
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
I mean look http://elftown
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
you made that look.. non-retarded
Shadow says:
its all going according to plan
Shadow says:
me and tj noticed that after we started wearing tails at school,it was only a month or two before everyone started to do so as well
Shadow says:
now the ears are becoming possible.if all goes as planed we shall have nekos by 2020
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
o_o
Shadow says:
phase 1:make everyone get interested in nekos
Shadow says:
phase 2:make everyone convinced that we need to create nekos
Shadow says:
phase 3:
Shadow says:
phase 4: profit
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
create?
Shadow says:
XD
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
...... why do I feel, I'm going to be conned into phase 3
Shadow says:
i havent even thought of phase 3 yet XD
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
......I have
Shadow says:
o.o;
Shadow says:
porn
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
take a female egg and put it in a dish, then mix it with male cat sperm >_>
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
test tube neko
Shadow says:
XD
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
then spawn from there
Shadow says:
then profit
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
^_^
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
.... why did I think of this?
Shadow says:
everyone shall want a pet catgirl
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
<_<
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
I get the first working one
Shadow says:
NIEN!!!MIEN!!
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
I have a feeling the first couple are going to... die..
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
.... I thought i was your little catgirl ... T_T
Shadow says:
you are,but i need an extra for whenever your on your period or dont feel like giving me a bj or anal >_>
永久に || Anti-Freeze. says:
T_T;