Well,i suppose i should let you guys know whats going on (as i may have crossed the line and snapped at a few of you).these last 3 days have been the most trying in my life.ever.

It started for a multitude of reasons,basiclly my mom,who is a total control freak,went haywire when i decided i wanted to join the marines.she was oh so shocked that i could actually think and make decisions for myself that she started a personal war against me for the next few weeks.there were plenty of things that built up until saturday when she finally kicked me out of the house with nothing but a pocket knife,10 dollars,and the clothes on my back in my name.

So i walked,starting at 12 am,to 6 pm.i covered about 15 miles distance before i realised i was going in the wrong way towards drakkars house.i broke down at that point both physiclly and mentally and just sat there,luckily my comrade came through and him and his mom picked me up.he was kind enough to give me a roof over my head and some food in my stomach for the night and i cant put into words how grateful i am for that,especially when all my other friends turned their backs on me.

the next day my dad that lives in new york managed to convince my mom to give me 30 days to stay with her until i can get to bootcamp,otherwise im permenantly out of her house.she wouldnt give me a ride back home,so comrade drakkar gave me 7 bucks and one of his umbrellas to aid me as i made the 8 mile walk back in heavy rain,from 4 pm to 8:40 pm to get back home,when i arrived i got the usual harassment and was later left alone in my room to lie on the floor trying to get my legs working again.

so now ya know the short version of why im a little upset right now,this weekend,along with some happenings of the week in whole,have made me a very bitter person right now.

me and emylee discussing our dreams last night XD

T_T what a way to fucking wake up.some cock head just broke into our car and a few others on the street at 5 am and we chased him off with a rifleman in a truck.good riddance,shoulda nailed the fucker in the head.

Nymphetamine Girl. says:
my tummy hurts
Nymphetamine Girl. says:
and I've been up for 24 hours
Shadow says:
-rubs it-
Nymphetamine Girl. says:
and my vagina is bleeding
Nymphetamine Girl. says:
T_T;
Shadow says:
_>
Shadow says:
YOU GOT YOUR PERIOD!YAY
Nymphetamine Girl. says:
o_o
Shadow says:
atleast your not knocked up ^_^
Nymphetamine Girl. says:
yeah, but the midget in my womb would like to come out now
Shadow says:
_>
Shadow says:
-grabs a ice cream scoop-stand still
Nymphetamine Girl. says:
........-dies inside-
Shadow says:
XD
Nymphetamine Girl. says:
kay it stopped
Nymphetamine Girl. says:
<_<
Shadow says:
XD!!

Jacques Chirac, The French President, was sitting in his Office wondering what kind of mischief he could perpetrate against the United States when his telephone rang.
"Hallo, Mr. Chirac!", a heavily accented voice said. "This is Paddy down at the Harp Pub in County Sligo, Ireland. I am ringing you inform you that we are officially declaring war on you!"

"Well, Paddy," Chirac replied, "This is indeed important news!

How big is your army?"

"Right now," said Paddy, after a moment's calculation, "there is myself, me cousin Sean, me next door neighbor Seamus, and the entire dart team from the pub. That makes eight!"

Chirac paused. "I must tell you, Paddy, that I have one hundred thousand men in my army waiting to move on my command."

"Begorra!" said Paddy. "I'll have to ring you back!"

Sure enough, the next day, Paddy called again. "Mr. Chirac, the war is still on. We have managed to get us some infantry equipment!"

"And what equipment would that be, Paddy?" Chirac asked.

"Well, we have two combines, a bulldozer, and Murphy's farm tractor."

Chirac sighed, amused. "I must tell you, Paddy, that I have 6000 tanks and 5,000 armored personnel carriers. Also, I've increased my army to one hundred fifty thousand since we last spoke."

"Saints preserve us!" said Paddy. "I'll have to get back to you."

Sure enough, Paddy rang again the next day. "Mr. Chirac, the war is still on!" We have managed to get ourselves airborne! We've modified Jackie McLaughlin's ultra-light with a couple of shotguns in the cockpit, and four boys from the Shamrock Pub have joined us as well!"

Chirac was silent for a minute and then cleared his throat. "I must tell you, Paddy, that I have 100 bombers and 200 fighter planes.
My military complex is surrounded by laser-guided, surface-to-air missile sites. And since we last spoke, I've increased my army to two hundred thousand!"

"Jesus, Mary, and Joseph!", said Paddy, "I'll have to ring you back."

Sure enough, Paddy called again the next day.
"Top o' the mornin', Mr. Chirac! I am sorry to tell you that we have had to call off the war"

"I'm sorry to hear that," said Chirac. "Why the sudden change of heart?"

"Well," said Paddy, "we've all had a long chat over a bunch of pints, and decided there's no foo-kin way we can feed two hundred thousand prisoners. "

Well folks,its that time,tomorrow i am making my final decision weither or not to join.tomorrow,if i choose to go through with it,i will be sworn in and signed on,and shortly after ill be heading to parris island north carolina.

woot,minimum score for passing the marines ASFAB exam is 33,i passed with a 47!that test was effin weird >_>

minimum physical requirements for the united states marine corps:
3 pull ups
1.5 mile run in under 13 minutes and 30 seconds
44 sit ups in under 2 minutes.

I haved talked with my recruiter,and now i have 3 days to come up with my decision on weither or not to join the marines.so far its looking like im joining.

IF you get more than 30 you're paranoid.
If you get 10 or less you're fearless.
People who don't have any are dummies who want people to think they are tough stuff.


I Fear...


[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[x] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces or closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] black cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ]spiders, ticks and/or other insects
[ ]driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] flowers or other plants
[x] being touched
[x] fire
[x] deep water
[x] just the jelly fish and other lurkers of the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] mice/rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] cotton balls
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] diseases
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[ ] being blind
[ ] being deaf
[ ] being old
[ ] monsters under my bed
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs


-9-

I enrolled in a school called full sail for my game developers bachelor degree,the total cost of the course is 61,000 dollars and im currently in a bit of a bind trying to pay for it.im moving out to orlando on my own to start on september 25th and i still havent figured out how to pay living expenses plus 6,000+ dollars a month for tuition.Well today i had an interveiw with a marine recruiter that offered that i join the reserve and delay college for a few months while i train.once out of training i can attend school regularly and have all expenses paid off by the marines.it seems like a simple enough choice but ive already paid for enrollment and what not and im not sure how much more it will cost to delay the start date,plus i have pressure from the family to consider.any advice?

3 days without sleep so far x_x; refer to the video in my previuos entry.with the events of today and the huge lack of energy that accuratly depicts me

I have made now 3 attempts to sleep,my third one just failed becuase the phone kept fucking ringing every 5 seconds!!!!holy fuck im going insane not so much becuase im tired but becuase all the failed attempts at sleep!!

Me right now trying to sleep: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CwuS_VACBvQ&mode=related&search=

http://youtube.com/watch?v=y0Jc6q5bdZw&;search=portal%20trailer

Jacking this from coppie out of boredom

There's.a.hole.in.the.sky;from.which.things.can.fly.

http://www.steampowered.com/index.php?area=roFreeWeekend

you.download.NOW!!!!BASK IN THE GLORY!!!

a remix of the other video using deleted scenes.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v-VDDxZmhzI

got a new video up,unlike the test one done over a week ago this one is meant as an actual project which requires comments and criticism.

enjoy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SvHKh5eAxlY

ATTENTION!
I am currently looking for a room mate to move with into Orlando,particurly around the winter park area,within walking/biking/driving distance to My college,Full sail.If you or someone you know lives in that area or is moving into that area and looking for a room mate,please contact me by message,or phone me at 904-535-9906.

thank you for any help given,
Alex

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2wGgoIKGLgQ

Please take a look and comment,its me experimenting with recording and editing software and one of my favorite games Battlefield 2.not really meant to entertain,just to make sure i can get stuff to work