well i am doing a little better since the last entry but hey you can never recover quickly from this stuff. jake i miss you!!!! any ways my sister is pregnant and my grandma is like pushing me to go back to college but i cant because i shared the dorm room with one of my friends that hung themselves and my exs dorm room is right across the hall my college is so packed that they cant change my room and they want to give me a new room mate i dont think i can handle it. sorry for the deppressing news every entry but hey what else am i going to write.

my life is really bad right now but hey i am making it  my ex boyfriend just hung himself on accident yesterday they say he didnt mean too but you never know his sister said he was trying to figure out how two of our friends did it  all i can say is i have to go on because they would all want me too. well R.I.P. MARC CANFORA CHRISTINA GREENAWALD   RYAN BULGER  AND R.I.P. MY DEAR COUSIN AND BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD GRANT SMITH  AND R.I.P. MY BABY MY FIANCE THAT DIED IN A CAR ACCIDENT  ARTHUR JAY COSSIN JR.