this one i wrote about 2 weeks ago to my best friend, Mackie, right after we broke up.

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All i want to do is try to help you out
buy yet you push me away
me intentions are good but yet you doubt
every word that i say

I try to find ways to blame you for this
but i cant because there are none
i still want to feel you and taste your kiss
yet again wot is done is done

they say listen to your intuition but mine is alwayz wrong
or maybe i just dont have one
i have found that your one of the few places i belong
but i've brought this upon myself and cant run

and now your pretending that everything is fine
but it isnt or else i would be crying
im wishing you were still mine
and without you it feels like im dying

i wish i could take back everything i said
and tell you that i love you still
now im wishing i was dead
but ashley is the one i want to kill

another friendship has been lost
two hearts left broken
i didnt know this decision would cost
as words are left unspoken

you dont want to see me for fear of returning love
but im happy you talk to me at all
for being my best friend i thank God above
without you i would fall

before i met you i lived in a dark place
that i had dug by myself alone
i was that of the depressed race
but you brought me from out of that hole into my home

i wish i could go back and make this right
but of course there is no hope for that
i dont think i can sleep tonight
im lost again and i dont know where im at

please tell me how to make it be like it should
i dotn want to hurt you anymore
if you just tell me how to fix this maybe i could
make myself get up off the floor

i want you and need you cant you tell?
i do screw up everything dont lie
ive made my own life a living hell
God, why cant you let me die?

baby, your my life support and the air that i breathe
i hate to be away from you as much as i am
and i swear ill never leave
and to get you back ill try all that i can

i need you desperatly - no joke there
i wouldnt have done this but common sence is wot i lack
i still love you and ill always care
baby, can you take me back?

(just to let everyone know we arent back together but we are still best friends no matter wot.)

this one is unfinished.

This seems so wrong
Its like I'll never belong
but when im with you its like im finally home
i know im pretty crazy
and even sometimes lazy
and i dont like to be alone.

well i guess ill write my poetry and songs here since im not the kind of person to remember to write in a diary. anywayz, if yall dont like my style or wot i have to say dont say anything at all. but if u like it thats fine if you comment.