I sometimes wish for a special blade
Something that'll make everything fade
Because this pain I cannot take
With every breath I wish I'd break
Waiting for a sleep so deep
To stop the pain and cease to weep

I am so sad. I hate my life. Why was I born gay? Better yet why was I born into a homophob sociey? I live in a small fucking town where like 80% of the people are homophobs I'm tired of pretending to be who I am not.

I met someone on elfpack. He's cute. I think I'm falling for him. I need to come out. I need to let people know who I really am. If any of my friends are reading this get rid of your social lives so you can talk to me 24/7 on elftown. J.k. I went to a website on depression and I had like 7 out of 9 of the symptoms oh well.

Tonight was lots of fun. I almost forgot what fun was until tonight. I'll never forget tonight.