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[Drive Faster Boy.]'s diary

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Written about Saturday 2006-01-07
Written: (6894 days ago)

Today is January the 7th.

Its still a little hard to say, Whats going on.
My parents got back from shopping.
You step a little closer each day.
I have tummy cramps.
I wish you could cuddle my face off.
I'de like that.
I'de like a date with you.
You know, I'de like pretty much
Anything with you.
Sometimes I cant help but feel lonely,
But I dont want to go out.
I'm not really a
GRAWR PEOPLE PERSON.
I like it.
But sometimes I cant helpt but feel lonley I guess.
Especially when my father
comes home in the weekend because then its
Me Vs Family.
But I'm shy.
I dont really like that sometimes :$
Sometimes i wish i could just stand up
and tell the people
who I love that I love them.
And tell hte people I dont love
That i want to eat their fucking brains.
But im shy,
So I dont know,
I guess thats a good thing.
I'm never really "your type"
Not completely anyway.
Theres always something that isnt good enough.
Cept for that one.
Cept for that one over there.

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Written about Saturday 2006-01-07
Written: (6894 days ago)

Me: Hey Ben
Bert: Hi ben
Ben: Whos this
Me: Mally
Ben: were u
Me: ...Huh?
Bert: WTF? HHAHA
Me: do you mean where am i?
Ben: no it means the same thing.
Bert: lmao wtfff
Me: Im at home.
Ben: whos msn u on?
Bert: HAHAHA. Ben, this is mally, do you know who mally is? She is on her account at her house. is that okay?
ben: brb
Bert: LMAO
Ben: ok so iz the pink writing mally and the brown writing bertie?
Bert: WTF MY FONT IS PINK TOO BEN.

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Written about Saturday 2006-01-07
Written: (6894 days ago)

I cannot cry.
Because I know its
weakness in your eyes.

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Written about Saturday 2006-01-07
Written: (6894 days ago)

I'm Standing On Air.
With
NOTHING
HOLDING.
ME.
And I Hang
Like A Star.
Fucking Glow-In-The-Dark
For All Those Starving Eyes To See. ♥

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Written about Saturday 2006-01-07
Written: (6895 days ago)

Its so hard to do.
And so easy to say
But sometimes,
Sometimes,
you have to walk away.

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Written about Saturday 2006-01-07
Written: (6895 days ago)

Why does my dad even talk to me? I dont like him. He does'nt like me, So why? Its almost as if he is waiting for me to say one thing. One thing. One wrong thing. So then he can let it all out. And then it just keeps coming and coming. He's such an asshole.
Your the best.
Im wearing really nice clothes today. I like clothes. I like wearing jeans like shorts above my knees and wearing tights underneath it. They make me look taller. Im short.
I started my period for this month today. It was awesome. So, Im having a great time.

<3 I dont really have any plans for tonight, if you want to do something?

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Written about Saturday 2006-01-07
Written: (6895 days ago)

And who am I?
To give you what you need?

Today I woke up and went to some shop to buy things for my school trip to boston in Febuary.
Snowboarding.
I got home and I looked at myself in the mirror.
I like what im wearing today.

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Written about Friday 2006-01-06
Written: (6895 days ago)

Adventures Of The Stoned.

Me: *staring at the street lights* That is so beautiful. Oh My gosh, I just love nature.
Izzy: What? A Street light?

Me: Oh My GOD. Look at the streetlights.
Bertie: Yeah, if you squint your eyes they look like Jesus stars.

Bertie: Ohmygod I dont know how to take it in properly.
Me: *Totally seriously* Just like.Put it into your mouth and like Breathe in. Just like Drink it.
Lauren: What the FUCK. Did you just say "drink it?"

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Written about Friday 2006-01-06
Written: (6895 days ago)

I Miss Your Love So Much
And I, Cant Keep On Living This Way.
Its Hard For Me.

Im SO SLEEPY.

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Written about Friday 2006-01-06
Written: (6895 days ago)

And I Hang
Like A Star.
Fucking Glow-In-The-Dark. ♥

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Written about Friday 2006-01-06
Written: (6895 days ago)

Well.
Pot is OldSchool.
But Oh-so-Fucking-Good.

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Written about Thursday 2006-01-05
Written: (6896 days ago)

After we argue,
I always want to Smile
Because we both look so;
Flustered.
And I smile.
And He Smiles Back.
And Suddenly, Its okay.

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Written about Thursday 2006-01-05
Written: (6896 days ago)

Doctor;; I dont know what im going to do.

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Written about Thursday 2006-01-05
Written: (6896 days ago)

Yeah Um,
your surgery.
Might not be the key.

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Written about Wednesday 2006-01-04
Written: (6897 days ago)

HI, MY NAME IS FACE.

Ian and I almost DIED today from a [GASLEAK].
I hope you all are reminded how lucky you are,
To have us here with you tonight.
You see, we entered the form room after
RE
And Ian pointed out the
STRANGE SMELL OF GAS IN THE AIR.
I agreed. I am his SYPHALIS.
Lmao, Side kick.
They just sounded alike.
Anyway, we were joking about
not to turn the light on
or to remove your coat
incase it caused a spark
and we all died from like,
SPARKCOMBUSTION.
Which is a real word.
Thanex very much IanMeister.

Anyway, on the way out
We found a sign on the light switch saying:

Do not put the light on as there is a FIRE HAZARD.

I sort of scared and ran away.
He followed.
WE COULD HAVE DIED. GEEZ.

WHY DONT YOU JUST GO RUB BUTTER OVER YOUR BREAST. <---Placebo. As ian taught me.
Okay

/BYE.

Edit.
Because Ian gave me a "few" (Two) pointers.

Your breasts dont really get big from rubbing butter on them.
But I think they do.
And When I do, they look bigger.
Even though they dont actually get bigger.

This is a Placebo.
I hope thats okay.

Ian likes thinking of that kind of stuff.

I also spelt "Syphilis" wrong.
Sorry.

Ian is not a pervert.

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Written about Wednesday 2006-01-04
Written: (6897 days ago)

You dont even look at me anymore.
Don't hold back the Moments.
Because they are the most
Special moments, I've ever experienced.
With no one but you.
With no one but you.

I miss the way you looked at me,
With those pretty eyes.
Those Beautiful eyes.
I know we cant look at this the same.
But its everything to me.
Its everything to me.
I just dont know how to let it go.
I dont know how to let everything go.

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Written about Wednesday 2006-01-04
Written: (6898 days ago)

I miss you.

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Written about Tuesday 2006-01-03
Written: (6898 days ago)

Not Worth It.

I guess sometimes Life's Biggest lessons come from Experience.
Well, Fuck that, Because I hate it :'(
Because after everything,
Your left with the biggest heap of Nothingness,
Infront of you.
And you have to ;; Rebuild.

Just to think of all the shit.
Just for this.
Just for the biggest Nothing, I have ever known.

What a waste.
What a waste of tears.
What a waste of hurting.
What a waste of everyfuckingthing.
Because I couldnt stick with PERFECTION.

</3/3/3/3/3/3/3/3
I'll Be Your Best Kept Secret & Your Biggest Mistake.

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Written about Tuesday 2006-01-03
Written: (6898 days ago)

Grrrawwwrrrr.

I had enough.
POOP.

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Written about Tuesday 2006-01-03
Written: (6898 days ago)

Although Im Here without you, Baby.
Your still on my Mind,
I think about you, Baby,
And I dream about you all the time.

Im here without you.
But your still with me in my dreams.

I think you know.

Ok, well today was difficult.

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Written about Tuesday 2006-01-03
Written: (6898 days ago)

Hi,
I got home and I realised I forgot my KEY.
So I waited outside.
In the . COLD.
From 4:00
To
5:30.

It seemed like a long time.
My feet are numb.
Finally mom comes home and was like :

"I've been calling you for so long!"

Welll Um, How am I supposed to answer.
Phone in house.
Mally outside house.

Then she says:

"Were you cold?"

Umwtf?

"No mom, I decided to catch a TAN actually, it was coming along nicely."

Grwar.

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