Its 12:02am and Im on my period.
I would like to wear a tampon during the night,
But that is bad.
But I hate being Heavyish period and
I hate having to wear a pad.
It makes me feel so uncomfortable,
specially in my heating blanketed bed Whom I love so dearly.
So if i put a tampon in now,
set my alarm for 5 am.
Change it then.
Into another tampy.
And then.
Hey presto,
I wont die of
TOXIC SHOCK SYNDROME.





This is about, the most interesting thing in my life right now.

Im not Mad when he's late home.
I know I used to be sometimes.
But Never "Mad".
It was more just;
Hurt.
But I know he doesnt like that
So I stopped, and I like it.
And, I've learnt to just be happy
that he came back to me at all :$ <-Blushy face.

I always like talking to you.
Its like,
"DONT BE MAD AT YOUR HUSBAND FOR COMING HOME LATE, BE GREATFUL TAHT HE CAME BACK AT ALL"
Thats what I think.
It makes the time we do have afterwards, happier.

You can list your friends
but can you
Count
on
them?

You know what?
Everybody deserves to be loved.
to be wanted, needed.
To be seen as beautiful.
And its sad to see so many people,
Who have made up their mind that
there will be noone for them.
That there will be noone in this world who will find them beautiful.
Who thinks that just your smile gives them the strength
To carry on another day.
Somebody who will need you and yearn for you.
Somebody who will miss you when your not around, and someone who, no matter what, is there for you.
I know that sometimes you can feel invisable,
and feel like nobody sees you or notices you.
But you know what?
Theres always somebody who see's you,
Somebody who finds in your presence that life is worth while.
Somebody who notices everything you do, all the little efforts you make at being noticed,
and more importantly, all the little efforts you make
at shying away from the world.


So, your never going to be loved?
What makes you so different to everybody else in the world?

Nothing.

I was talking to a friend the other day about how nobody is attracted to her.
And nobody wants her.
Nobody loves her.
More importantly...
That this one boy, didnt want her.

Fine, I cant tell you that "No he likes you, for sure..."
Because what do I know?


I guess what i was trying to say was that :

You cant make people fall in love with you.
But You can make youself someone to fall in love with.

Me: Hey Ben
Bert: Hi ben
Ben: Whos this
Me: Mally
Ben: were u
Me: ...Huh?
Bert: WTF? HHAHA
Me: do you mean where am i?
Ben: no it means the same thing.
Bert: lmao wtfff
Me: Im at home.
Ben: whos msn u on?
Bert: HAHAHA. Ben, this is mally, do you know who mally is? She is on her account at her house. is that okay?
ben: brb
Bert: LMAO
Ben: ok so iz the pink writing mally and the brown writing bertie?
Bert: WTF MY FONT IS PINK TOO BEN.

I cannot cry.
Because I know its
weakness in your eyes.

Why does my dad even talk to me? I dont like him. He does'nt like me, So why? Its almost as if he is waiting for me to say one thing. One thing. One wrong thing. So then he can let it all out. And then it just keeps coming and coming. He's such an asshole.
Your the best.
Im wearing really nice clothes today. I like clothes. I like wearing jeans like shorts above my knees and wearing tights underneath it. They make me look taller. Im short.
I started my period for this month today. It was awesome. So, Im having a great time.



<3 I dont really have any plans for tonight, if you want to do something?

And who am I?
To give you what you need?


Today I woke up and went to some shop to buy things for my school trip to boston in Febuary.
Snowboarding.
I got home and I looked at myself in the mirror.
I like what im wearing today.

Well.
Pot is OldSchool.
But Oh-so-Fucking-Good.

Doctor;; I dont know what im going to do.

Yeah Um,
your surgery.
Might not be the key.

Do not put the light on as there is a FIRE HAZARD.

You dont even look at me anymore.
Don't hold back the Moments.
Because they are the most
Special moments, I've ever experienced.
With no one but you.
With no one but you.

I miss the way you looked at me,
With those pretty eyes.
Those Beautiful eyes.
I know we cant look at this the same.
But its everything to me.
Its everything to me.
I just dont know how to let it go.
I dont know how to let everything go.