Well lets see Im going to update this! All the guys who have liked me always ask what I look for in a guy ! I always said that I dont know! I always said that because I am both Philophobic and Mnemophobic. Which means Im scared of falling in love and of my memories! Im scared of love because I had a crush twice and they didnt like me so Im scared of love.And Ive had so many bad times that Im scared of my memories also. Awhile ago I got a crush on someone on Elftown. And I was too scared to tell him but he found out! And now I think Ive found out what Ive always looked for in a guy, someone I can talk to and will talk to me! Someone who knows me and lets me be me! maybe ill get lucky and hell like me back so now everyone knows my fears!

he knows oh darn it the guy I like knows and couldnt care less!

Welcome to my world! Im not really sure who i am. Im a girl who likes the ocean and pirates! But I also like the fantasy and unexplainable! So Im not a normal girl. Im a tomboy and caught somewhere between a woman and a child but so is everyone! I keep my heart protected and the only way I know that will get me to like you is if your more stubborn than I am! Good Luck! Im the living Miss independent! Im quiet until you know me and then I dont shut up. Ill hide my fears and pain from everyone and youll think Im fine when Im actually dying inside. I dont cry on the outside anymore. I cry behind these hazel eyes. Im unknown to most people the only time to see the real me is through my poetry. Theres a layer everyone knows. the other side of me is only for me to see! I found out the guy on here that I like doesnt like me back and I have to pretend that nothing has changed when I am dying on the inside and he doesnt care at all or pretends not to! Well I hope hes happy and laughing at my misery!

Well Im bored my freinds are too busy to talk.