I can't help it anymore with out help of my friends. I go into my whole depression I wana kill myself flings with out warning or with the slightest stressful encounter I go through and now I'm going through one. Becca my fiancee keeps on changing her mind on me. and it just frustrates me and then the depression starts. So yeah at this paticular moment I wana die and kill myself I don't wana carve but it's hard to hold it back right now