as my days and montes and weeks go bye if feels like the world has just stopped in mid air it feels like im the onlyperson alive in this world and that i have no friends to talk to when i get lonley and i cant stand to be that way any more so one day i say this 15 year old girl crying ,crying in the middle of the road and i went up to her and i asked her why she was crying she said becuz i have no friends to talk to im just like u im lonley and sad and drepressed just like u have been for montes ,days ,weeks i should know i have been watching over u day in and day out sop rember u all ways got friends no mater what happens neaver think that u dont have any frineds be cuz u all ways no matter what u well all ways have friends that well need u along the way

when u lose a BEST FRIEND its hard to get over since u know

u LOVE this FRIEND a lot like a SISTER u know u well have

to move on with your LIFE but u know u CAN'T or u just

WON'T and its sooo hard to LOSE the most VAUILUABLE THING

in your LIFE and u know u WON'T ever get it BACK and here

is wat i have to say to MY BEST FRIEND

      *IF U REALLY LOVE YOUR BEST FRIEND TELL THEM BE

FOR SOME THING BAD HAPPENED TO THEM OR WORES U, JUST BECUZ

YOUR FRIENDS MOVES AWAY OR HATE U NEAVER LET THAT GAT U

DOWN EVEN THOUGH ULL BE HURT FOR EVER AND ALL WAYS*


THE FRIEND IM TALKING ABOUT IS [clownsies]

p.s look at the bold letters ull finly get what i mean after reading this     your truly Amber James,

Boy: baby we need to talk
Girl: ricardo, wat do u mean?
Boy: sumthin has come up...
Girl: wat? Wuts wrong? Is it bad?
Boy: i dont want to hurt u baby
Girl: *thinks* omg i hope he doesnt break up with me... I love him so much
Boy: baby are you there??
Girl: yea im here wut is so important??
Boy: im not sure if i should say
Girl: well u already brought it up, so please just tell me.
Boy: im leaving....
Girl: baby wut are u talking about?? I dont want u to leave me, i love you
Boy: not like that, i mean im moving far away
Girl: why? All of ur famliy lives over here.
Boy: well my father is sending me away to a boarding skool far away.
Girl: i cant believe this.
[FATHER: (picks up tha other fone, interrupts & yells furiously) ERiKA, wat did i tell you about talking to boys?!!!!!....Get off the damn fone!! (And hangs up)]
Boy: wow ur father sounds really mad
Girl: u know how he gets, but anywayz i dont want you to go
Boy: would you run away with me?
Girl: baby, u know i would, i would do anything for u, but i cant... U dont know wut would happen if i did. My dad would kill me !
Boy: *sad* its ok i understand i guess..
Girl: *thinking* i cant believe wuts going on
Boy: i need to give u sumthing 2nite b/c i am leaving on flight 1-80 in tha morning, so i need to see you now.
Girl: ok i will sneak out & meet u at tha park
Boy: ok ill meet u there in 20min
[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug eachother. And he gives her a note.]
Boy: here u go, this is for you i gotta go.
Girl: ****tear (begins to cry)
Boy: baby dont cry, u know i love you...but i have 2 go
Girl: ok (begins to walk away)
[They both go back home. And erika begins to read tha letter her gave her]
It says.....
Erika,
U probably already know that im leaving, i knew this would be better if i wrote a letter explaining tha truth about how much i care about you. The truth is, is that i never loved you, i hated you so much, u are my bitch and dont u ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, n be around u. U really have no clue how much i hate you. Now that im leaving i thought u should know that i hate you bitch, u never did tha right thing, and u were never there. I didnt think i could hate someone as much as i hate you. And i never want to see you, for the rest of my life, i will never miss kissing you like before, i never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and thats a promise. U never had my love, and i want you to remember that. Bitch u keep this letter bcuz this may be tha last thing u have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. i will not talk to you soon bitch.... Goodbye
- Ricardo
[ erika begins to cry, she throws tha paper in tha garbage & crys for hours ]
....A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely.... Then she gets a fone call....
Friend: how are u feeling?
Girl: i just cant believe this happend i thought he loved me.
Friend: o, about that. Ricardo left me a msg. A few days ago. He told me to tell u to look in ur jacket pocket or something...
Girl: ummm ok
[She finds a piece of paper in tha jacket,
It says.
Baby i hope u find this before u read my letter. I knew ur dad might read it, so i switched a few words...
Hate = Love
Never = Alwayz
Bitch = Baby
Will not= will
........ I hope u didnt take that seriously because i love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats y i wanted u to run away with me...
-Ricardo]
Girl: omg its a letter, Ricardo does love me!!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I cant believe how stupid I am!!
Friend: lol ok but i g2g... Call me later
Girl: *happy*ok bye, i'll be at home waiting for my baby to call me !!
...... Erika turns tha T.V. on......
[Breaking news] "An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for Survivors...This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80...it was on its way to an all boys boarding school..." Reporter says.
[ she turns off the tv....3 days later, she kills herself, because of tha fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to Live for... ]
....A day after that the fone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a msg. "Its Ricardo, i guess ur not home so, I called 2 let u know that im alive, i missed my flight b/c i had 2 see u one last time. So i hope ur not worried. I am staying for good. Sorry if u got scared, i promise 2 make it up 2 ueverything will be a be ok i love you so much...call me asap bye!!
[...he eventually finds out wut happend, and also kills himself...]

When people point,When people laught I know they R laughting at me they like to see my pain it makes them stronger,it makes them weaker as they seat and watch me cry my tears.

NO TITLE!
Your the rythem for my misery, as life the devil that lives deep in me, I have no reason for my belonging, so must I keep on living? because I can't seem to break away, from this life I have had to feel, things weary my life so dweary so must i keep on living? you the Ember are that burns hearts you are the thing that brok hearts, there is no more questioning no more breaking up, cuz I'm just giving up becuz I can't seem to break away, from this life I have had to feel things so weary, my life so dweary so I must keep living?, so don't ever bother to try and figure me out, there is no more reasoning cuz this, is the reason becuz I can't seem to break away from this life,I have had to feel thigs so weary, my life so dweary so i must keep living now, this is the end I have no more feelings, cuz this is the feeling on why i must keep living.

  I AM TIRED OF BEING BIG!
I am tired of being little,
I am tired of being fat,
I wish that i were a giant size,
with whiskers on my chin,
No one would dear 2 tease me,
or 2 tack my stuff away,
for I would be much bigger
then the biggest,biger girl
My folkes would pay more attention
2 every thing I said,
they couldn't make me eat my peas
or tell me " GO TO BED!"
I'd neaver be afride again if I were ten-foot-three,
I wish I were giant size
instead of that fat like me.

KISSED ME
I think this is so cute... And yeah * i love it when I can feel you *smiling* when you kiss me!

   A KISS
i ran up the stairs shut my Door got in my pajamas said my prays jumped in bed and turned my light off ALL BECAUSE YOU KISSED ME GOODNIGHT!

      SOMETIMES
SOMETIMES things happen......And we can't understand why....SOMETIMES things happen.......And we can't help but cry.......But when you feel like you can't put up with it any longer... Just hold on and belive in me...What dosen't kill you will make you *stronger* (I promes this one's true)

        HOPE
I HOPE to see you tomorrow for it might be the last day I have, my heart grows weak and falls beneath the cold snow I'LL hold your closer and closer as I fall into my slimber I do not fear what is yet to come in stead I welcome it in to my arms I have no life so it dosen't matter any way,I HOPE you will get this for it will be the only message I send out to the, I HOPE that one such as you will treassure it and one day understand, understand that what I did was for the Best I want to stay but then again I long to go, I HOPE you no think me wrong of my Doings, for it is what I've become that sentences me to this pass, the pass in witch i must face so I HOPE one day you'll find it in your heart and forgive of or forgive me for what im about to do........

  GOOD BYE
The only time i say good bye is when i really mean it. when i now there's no other again. when i now the end will come soon<<<<<i said that when i was 3 every 1 said goodbye to either they die or i get badly hurt and they move away......sooooo now i must say my departing words.......GOOD BYE!

    WHERE ONCE POE WALKED!
Eternal brood the shadows on this ground,Dreaming of centuries thave have gone before; Great elms risa so lemnly by s;ab and mound, Arched high above a hidden world of yore. Round all the scene a light of memory plays, ano dead leaves whisper of departed days, longing for sights and sounds that are no more.Londy and sad, aspecter glides along aisles where of old his livingfoot steeps fell; no common glance discerns him, thought his song pearis down through time with a mysterious spell. only the few who sorcery's secret know, Espy amids these tombs the shade of poe.              H.P LOVE CRAFT

      BROKEN DREAMS
Broken Dreams lay scattered about me, like pillows in my dark some Bed; I kiss eatch night my absent lover, and rest my hope so dead; A memory no dared remembered of passion heaver quite forgot, is day light waking's ceaseicss sorrow,is night time dreamings ev'ry plot. AH DEATH! 'tis now you seem the closet oh boon companion, life long friend; Bear to me thy darkened FreeDom; Bring this madness to an END!