wow... I really thought that I was past this phase. I want to fucking graduate, but I can't seem to get myself in the right fucking state of mind... where I can learn something in class. Everyday I just get more and more behind. I hate feeling so incompetent... and I'm trying to pay attention and learn something... but nothing is clicking. Either because I'm thinking too much, or because I never really learned this shit the first time around... I don't know. All I know is that I need this credit to graduate. GAWD do I wish it was just over already.

I HATE looking around and finding that EVERYONE gets it, BUT ME. It really just makes me want to find a corner to cry in. :(

AAHHHHHHHH! I hate it.

Can't hear a sound
Feelin' really down
Can't help but sprout
a frown ...

:(

Soooo sleepy! Elftown is starting to bore me.. well, more so than usual. Maybe I'm not making a big enough effort... maybe I should comment more when I visit peoples houses. Then maybe people would visit my house more. IDK! Today was kind of sucky, but then kind of really GREAT! I won't bore you with the details ... just know that my day was better than yours!!! Na na na boo boo! Okies... time to visit the land of nod. Later folks!

Everything is crumbling ... drama is consuming me... I'm losing my mind ... can't seem to find a solution that benefits all parties. Before I decide to work with other peoples troubles, I really should learn how to handle my own. On the outside I may not seem happy, but no one can see the dark side of me either. I don't even know what I'm complaining about this morning ... I'm just venting for every other day of my life. Today hasn't even really commenced and I'm already predicting its outcome. I'm so cynical. I hate that. I just want to be happy. :(

I'm falling back into my old routine. I skipped classes today ... school is really getting old. Senioritis? Perhaps. I just didn't have the energy to force myself out of bed this morning. Lack of motivation will be my excuse. I only need two more credits after this term and then I'm FREE. I hope to fucking god I can last that long. Well, I'm gonna go try to create a poll. Later reader.

This day has been dragging by with an incredible dullness. I attended class as usual, put in a good eleven hours at the restaurant, browsed the web some, and now I'm getting ready to visit the land of nod.

Incase you didn't notice, I'm fairly new to Elftown and thought I'd explore the website a little further ... hence the diary entry. I probably won't be writing in here much ... I'd hate to bore someone to death. Well, I guess that depends on who would be reading it ... heh. J/k. I love everyeone. J/K. I wish it were that easy ... but if you loved everyone, what would love be? Enough pondering for now ... I'm off to bed. G'night reader.