There is always something in your life that you just can't have when you think that it is right and that you think you are ready.

It hurts to know that if you make the decision to make yourself happy, everyone else around you will be utterly disappointed.
There is always one person who's opinion means everything to you.
And that is what is stopping me making a life changing decision.
I don't know what to do, i'm confused. Do i, for once, do something for myself?
Or do i carry on putting everybody else before me?
I just don't know.

Theres someone i use to talk to


and i kinda miss talking to him
=[

i dunno what happened
he just doesnt talk to me anymore

when i came online he always use to say hi
but now
nothing

='[

I was in a road accident
:(
My bus crashed into 3 cars, a fence and a wall on the way home
And i hurt my wrist :(


That's the second road accident ive been in while ive been on a bus
Ouch
:(

1 year today my Grandad died.

He woke up at 2am on 4th January 2008 for a cup of tea, and fell down the stairs.
He had crucial brain damage, broken nose, dislocated shoulder and various other broken bones.
And on 5th January 2008 he waited to have his wife and daughters around him, and he passed away.

I miss him so much.
He meant a lot to me.
He was like a father to me...


R.I.P Grandad <3

Whats the fucking point in walking round the house sighing as loud as you can, you fucking attention seeker.
For god sake the world doesn't revolve around you, you know?
There are other people in the world and this house

You think everything has to be about you
Well it doesn't.

You don't think about anyone except yourself, your pathetic and ridiculous!
Get a fucking grip will you !

Blehhhh.


I'm sick of being ill ...
I didn't get any sleep cause i keep getting flem stuck in my throat.

But ...on a good note
It's christmas tomorrow!!

Woooo (H)

I only want one thing for christmas ...but im not gonna get it :(.


xox

I use to be so obsessed with you and you knew it.
But ...no more.
I can't take it anymore
You ignore me, my messages are never replied.
So ...i've told you 'Bye.'
I will probably still obsess and adore you, but you've hurt me.
What did i fucking do?
I'm sorry that im not pretty enough or skinny enough or Plastic enough for you, but i was who i was.
And if that is not enough then so be it. You carry on with your whores.

Fake Ass Cunt!.


Gosh you think your 'all that' but ...you are quite disgusting.
You looked nice, but when i took a closer look.
Your one ugly kid.
So your not all that.

Bastard

Ooo yes a few more things to add
If he doesn't get his own way he goes off on one
and he's so goddamn fickle, haha, no one wants him.
If they do, they are so fucked up :).

Hahaha.
He's a CuntFacedPrick
No one actually likes him cause he's like so self centered
He thinks he's gods gift
Omfg!
I use to love that kid
If i did, i was pretty fucked up
Hahaha.
Oh yes
Cunt alert
Cunt alert.
Ahh yes =], i love being in this mood. Cause like ask me something and ill tell you straight :)

Anyway back to what i was saying
He's ugly tbh.
What was i thinking
Ew.
He woulda been so lucky to get me
But he's not
He's unlucky :)

Oh my god

This is so horrible
A guy who says he fancies me just told me i make him depressed when he talks to me

Jim </3 :'( |>     > Carnt Y      ou See I Love You?? <<|   CourseWork... 8-| says:
oh well i only get more depressed talking to u so i supsoe iw could do me good
   Jim </3 :'( |>     > Carnt Y      ou See I Love You?? <<|   CourseWork... 8-| says:
supose it would*
   x_RawwR_x!          Steph     iee  [(l)]   Jon     ny  <3I Love That Kid<3 Wil Francis(L)   says:
you get depressed talking to me/
   Jim </3 :'( |>     > Carnt Y      ou See I Love You?? <<|   CourseWork... 8-| says:
yes :(
   x_RawwR_x!          Steph     iee  [(l)]   Jon     ny  <3I Love That Kid<3 Wil Francis(L)   says:
Oh thanks a lot. Ya know what, if you get depressed talking to me don’t!!!!
Bye!


Gosh ...im so hurt, it feels like someone just stabbed me through the heart

Do i really make people depressed when they talk to me?

This is terrible :(
</3

Gosh.
Why does everything have to be so goddamn horrible :(.
I hate this
It really isn't getting any better :(.
I can't take it.
What's happening to me?

RawwwwwR!! And stuff XD

Okay, here it comes.
I have decided, and it didn't take long but.
Hahahahahaha! You lot are twat-bags.
Well the people i don't like.

The people i love/like are so special to me
Those of you i hate, i hate you with a passion, i always will because i probably always have.

Well, Jonny, jeez this kid, i love him so fucking much. I'm sorry for sending that picture, it was such a mistake, i was feeling down and needed someone to listen, but like that ever happens.

Jonny, Mae, Ben. You three mean the absolute world to me. Love you three to death.

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Falling from myself
Falling for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break...?


Such a good fucking song. I could get high off it.

Steph!

Hahahahaha!
Guess who doesn't care anymore ...
Steph doesn't :).


Guess who is totally, utterly and completely in love with her very sexy fiance.
Stephiee is :).

Goshh, i love my life :).
And some of you
Okay im lying
Not a lot of you
But i do love some of you
Muahaha, you just have to find out who :O lol :]

Stephiee the almighty sexy bitch of the north east

I'm having one of those days :(.
It's horrible.
My headache isn't getting any better, i don't feel any better.

I feel so useless, im losing the pieces and no one can find them :(.
I wish that i could just make everything go away so i don't have to be like this anymore.
I want to be the happy little girl i use to be when i was 10. But she will never come back and i know it, she will NEVER come back.
I will be this way for a long time, unless there is a time machine and i can go back and change it, change what happened, change this life.

It's tearing me apart.

Darlin' i love you.
And i mean it, look ...i've known you less than a year, ive always felt this way about you. I know you don't believe me, i don't think you ever have

But remember the conversations we use to have, the laughs and stuff.
But ...i love you.

New picture
its the top one



Hee hee
Look and tell me what you think
please =]

Omg hee hee
I hope it's finally happened Omg!

This is soo exciting :)
Keep your fingers crossed for me
I need all the luck i can get


Mam won't spoil this for us =]

Ended a few realtions.
Was pissed off

So don't get on my back about it.
Assholes.
If you actually wanna stay friends, send one back.