[|St|ephie _x]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2008-03-11
Written: (5895 days ago)

I use to be so obsessed with you and you knew it.
But ...no more.
I can't take it anymore
You ignore me, my messages are never replied.
So ...i've told you 'Bye.'
I will probably still obsess and adore you, but you've hurt me.
What did i fucking do?
I'm sorry that im not pretty enough or skinny enough or Plastic enough for you, but i was who i was.
And if that is not enough then so be it. You carry on with your whores.

981274  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-10-04
Written: (6054 days ago)
Next in thread: 982523

Fake Ass Cunt!.


Gosh you think your 'all that' but ...you are quite disgusting.
You looked nice, but when i took a closer look.
Your one ugly kid.
So your not all that.

Bastard

981023  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-10-03
Written: (6056 days ago)

Ooo yes a few more things to add
If he doesn't get his own way he goes off on one
and he's so goddamn fickle, haha, no one wants him.
If they do, they are so fucked up :).

981021  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-10-03
Written: (6056 days ago)

Hahaha.
He's a CuntFacedPrick
No one actually likes him cause he's like so self centered
He thinks he's gods gift
Omfg!
I use to love that kid
If i did, i was pretty fucked up
Hahaha.
Oh yes
Cunt alert
Cunt alert.
Ahh yes =], i love being in this mood. Cause like ask me something and ill tell you straight :)

Anyway back to what i was saying
He's ugly tbh.
What was i thinking
Ew.
He woulda been so lucky to get me
But he's not
He's unlucky :)

980314  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-09-30
Written: (6058 days ago)

Oh my god

This is so horrible
A guy who says he fancies me just told me i make him depressed when he talks to me

Jim </3 :'( |>     > Carnt Y      ou See I Love You?? <<|   CourseWork... 8-| says:
oh well i only get more depressed talking to u so i supsoe iw could do me good
   Jim </3 :'( |>     > Carnt Y      ou See I Love You?? <<|   CourseWork... 8-| says:
supose it would*
   x_RawwR_x!          Steph     iee  [(l)]   Jon     ny  <3I Love That Kid<3 Wil Francis(L)   says:
you get depressed talking to me/
   Jim </3 :'( |>     > Carnt Y      ou See I Love You?? <<|   CourseWork... 8-| says:
yes :(
   x_RawwR_x!          Steph     iee  [(l)]   Jon     ny  <3I Love That Kid<3 Wil Francis(L)   says:
Oh thanks a lot. Ya know what, if you get depressed talking to me don’t!!!!
Bye!


Gosh ...im so hurt, it feels like someone just stabbed me through the heart

Do i really make people depressed when they talk to me?

This is terrible :(
</3

977266  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-09-19
Written: (6069 days ago)

Gosh.
Why does everything have to be so goddamn horrible :(.
I hate this
It really isn't getting any better :(.
I can't take it.
What's happening to me?

976959  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-09-18
Written: (6070 days ago)

RawwwwwR!! And stuff XD

975784  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-09-14
Written: (6074 days ago)

Okay, here it comes.
I have decided, and it didn't take long but.
Hahahahahaha! You lot are twat-bags.
Well the people i don't like.

The people i love/like are so special to me
Those of you i hate, i hate you with a passion, i always will because i probably always have.

Well, Jonny, jeez this kid, i love him so fucking much. I'm sorry for sending that picture, it was such a mistake, i was feeling down and needed someone to listen, but like that ever happens.

Jonny, Mae, Ben. You three mean the absolute world to me. Love you three to death.

975783  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-09-14
Written: (6074 days ago)

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Falling from myself
Falling for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break...?


Such a good fucking song. I could get high off it.

Steph!

975523  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-09-13
Written: (6075 days ago)

Hahahahaha!
Guess who doesn't care anymore ...
Steph doesn't :).


Guess who is totally, utterly and completely in love with her very sexy fiance.
Stephiee is :).

Goshh, i love my life :).
And some of you
Okay im lying
Not a lot of you
But i do love some of you
Muahaha, you just have to find out who :O lol :]

Stephiee the almighty sexy bitch of the north east

974812  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-09-10
Written: (6078 days ago)
Next in thread: 974814

I'm having one of those days :(.
It's horrible.
My headache isn't getting any better, i don't feel any better.

I feel so useless, im losing the pieces and no one can find them :(.
I wish that i could just make everything go away so i don't have to be like this anymore.
I want to be the happy little girl i use to be when i was 10. But she will never come back and i know it, she will NEVER come back.
I will be this way for a long time, unless there is a time machine and i can go back and change it, change what happened, change this life.

It's tearing me apart.

957369  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-07-12
Written: (6138 days ago)

Darlin' i love you.
And i mean it, look ...i've known you less than a year, ive always felt this way about you. I know you don't believe me, i don't think you ever have

But remember the conversations we use to have, the laughs and stuff.
But ...i love you.

955220  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-07-05
Written: (6145 days ago)

New picture
its the top one



Hee hee
Look and tell me what you think
please =]

955216  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-07-05
Written: (6145 days ago)

Omg hee hee
I hope it's finally happened Omg!

This is soo exciting :)
Keep your fingers crossed for me
I need all the luck i can get


Mam won't spoil this for us =]

954372  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-07-02
Written: (6149 days ago)

Ended a few realtions.
Was pissed off

So don't get on my back about it.
Assholes.
If you actually wanna stay friends, send one back.

951776  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-06-24
Written: (6156 days ago)

Giving up.
On everything, i mean what's the point anymore?
I've done ALL i could.

Just nothing left there anymore
It's all gone now.


Hope your happy.

951761  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-06-24
Written: (6156 days ago)

I try so hard to look after people i care about and love.
But they just throw it back in my face.
They may not care bout me but i fucking care about them!


Jeez im only trying to fucking help -.-
Ugh, might aswell as not fucking bother.
Bastards!

938172  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-05-09
Written: (6202 days ago)

*clears throat*

I FUCKING LOVE YOU!


that is all

897973  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-01-13
Written: (6319 days ago)

As I take the knife
I know what ive got to do
I found you and her
They told me not to do it
I knelt infront of you and her
Put the knife to my wrists and…
SLASH!
The blood poured out
Pools of my suicidal blood formed around your feet
I glared at you
You stared deep into my deathfilled eyes
You looked…sorry….scared…
I latched onto your arms pulling myself up
Red stains appeared all over you
I whispered to you as tears rolled down my white face
‘I loved you so much…now look what you have done…I hope your happy!’
I took the knife for the last time,
I saw tears rushing from your bloodshot eyes
I made one more slash
And it was done!
My suicide note was covered in blood but was still readable
You took it from my and and read it
‘Im sorry but I had to do this, I just couldn’t live with the pain he caused me…ill never forget you…tell peter I told him id die for him and that I will always love him no matter what he has done to me’
I found what I had always wanted…
Someone to love…but all he wanted was to cause me pain
I knew you couldn never love me!
You knew
I blew
You lied
….I died!!


Tis rather depressing i know. I don't care what you think. Tis my work not yours.

897166  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-01-10
Written: (6321 days ago)

That night her dreams ended,
They didn't like the idea
So she had to end her happiness once again
The broken heart lay in pieces in her body
She cried them out through her bleeding tears
She knew they wouldn't let this happen
So once again ...she let them run her life and she got herself hurt aswell!
The shattered pieces of what was once a happy heart, lay at her feet
Once again she took the only thing that could help her, that she could depend on, The zarorblade.
She put the cold blade against her wrist and slowly pulled it across.
The pain was sharp and immediate
she wept as her hot metallic liquid spilt from her wounds
But this time it felt different
She felt the darkness closing in on her.
Was this the her end
Had she finally reached her end?
Was she caught in deaths deadlights?
Blood formed a pool around her broken body
She fell to the floor
Her mind and vision went dark
It was her end!
They had finally drove her to suicide!



The words of a broken heart.

895847  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-01-07
Written: (6325 days ago)
Next in thread: 896168

I, Steph, Have new pictures ...go look at them ...go on ...look ...now haha. Just because im Jebus and your not ...yuh you better watch it because ill not urmm ...what won't i do ...i dunno but anyway ...haha im Jebus!! :]

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