I cant remember each words I have recieved, it is because of my forgetful mind...It is too hard to all human beings to control their mind If they can say some wrong words...It is just like lapsus...A friend always says that all lapsuses we do talks instead of us...But we HAVE to remember a reality...You can do lapsus If English is not your nature language...and you cant express yourself freely in other languages you can talk...
Then, can we blame anyone If they cant express their nature and real being?I know that It will take a long time to forget all my sorrows...But something was special for me...I wished that something was special for him too...I remember some words which were said by a friend:
We wont be same after this meeting...
I am adding a sentence:
I will NEVER be same after this separateness..
Arahantavagga - The Perfected One
He who corruptions are destroyed, he who is not attached to food, he who has Deliverance, which is Void and Signless, as his objects, - his path, like that of birds in the air, cannot be traced.
Jaravagga - Old Age
What is laughter, what is joy, when the world is ever burning? Shrouded by darkness, would you not seek the light?
Cittavagga - The Mind
Like a fish that is drawn from its watery abode and thrown upon land, even so does this mind flutter. Hence should the realm of the passions be shunned.
The mind is hard to check. It is swift and wanders at will. To control it is good. A controlled mind is conducive to happiness.
It is from Buddhism...
"There is happiness in life,
happiness in friendship,
happiness of a family,
happiness in a healthy body and mind,
...but when one loses them, there is suffering."
Dhammapada
I am really in shock... Because there is hate... Hate...Hate??!
What did I do to deserve this? Did I kill anyone? Did I annoy anyone with sexual intention? Did I REALLY manipulate anyone? I am a manipulative person and also blocked member!!! How an adult human being allows anyone to manipulative himself? Can it be true? What a beautiful birthday to me!!! I have learnt alot of new things in my new age... You shouldnt believe anyone easily... You shouldnt trust anyone easily... You shouldnt ADMIRE anyone easily... You listen to what they want to say but you are NOT allowed to be listened by someone!!! I am asking where the respect is?? You want to recieve a respect but you show your respect with such a way? Is it fair?? No, this is not fair... Even A murderer has a deserving to defend himself and it is that speaking and being LISTENED... I wonder If I think that I am only human being on earth?? or someone?
But, unfortunately there is no hate in my heart... I cant hate anyone... It is not my REAL nature... I cant do anything or I cant change anything If someone wants to believe that I am manipulative person...Becau
I think I have grown up one more age... Is it enough for someone?
The unique thing human being can change is herself/himsel
Tomorrow, It is my birthday...I know all my friends will say "Happy Birthday"...Ex
Soyez à vous-même votre propre flambeau, votre propre refuge... "
- Bouddha
"...nous devons croire à un écrit, à une doctrine ou à une affirmation lorsque notre raison et notre expérience intime les confirment. C'est pourquoi, je vous ai enseigné à ne pas croire simplement d'après ce qui vous a été dit, mais conformément à votre expérience personnelle, et puis à agir en conséquence et généreusement"
Citation tirée de "La Doctrine secrète", tome III.
Karma
Islam :
Aucun de vous n'est digne de se prétendre croyant s'il ne désire pas pour son frère ce qui est bon pour lui-même.
(Sunnah)
Bouddhisme :
N'offensez pas les autres, de sorte que vous ne soyez pas offensés.
(Udana-Varga 5: 18)
Loving is painful, The truth is painful
They resemble eachother...
The hardest thing on earth is losing someone you love ...If they passed away, you try to bear with your loss...It is painful...But you know that they have gone somewhere and they are in your prayers until your breath stops...
But If you lose someone and you KNOW that they are alive...It is the most painful things in your life...You know they are still alive, breathe...But you cant talk ANY word to them...If your loss passed away, you can talk to him/her in your dreams...But If he/she is alive, you cant talk to him/her anymore...It hurts your heart...There is a big hole in your heart...You cant fill it...Because this place in your heart BELONGS to him/her...Your heart ACHES...But this pain which is in your heart will never recover...Beca
The thing I feel is just pain... There is no hate... There is no anger... Because feeling hate or anger is not my REAL nature... My heart is still crying... Throughout I look at this page, It will continue crying...
I wish that you will read these words, one day...
God bless you...
Banu
Mariah Carey - Without You
No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile
But in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore
Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile
But in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows
"It is a wonderful song i like...I have wanted to share its lyrics"
I have read a poem which was sent by my beloved friend Inge and it has impressed me so much...I would like to share it with all my friends...
DO NOT STAND AT MY GRAVE AND WEEP
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
(Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die!
Mary Frye (1932)
Sometimes, i think about if i lose my dreams...If i lose them, what will happen to me? Is "the day i am dead" that day? I know i ask alot, because i am curious and this is the way to learn being alive and living the life...All questions i have are almost about my dreams...If all of them make me not fair, i am ready for everything...
I have lost my dear friend Jon and this loss has made me so sad and thoughtful of everything...Y
I am really sad for my loss...I am praying for you, Jon...Now, you are playing with angels and you are smiling to us...
MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE...
I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU...
Someone was to ask "Abidin Dino" who is an art if he could paint picture of happiness and he was to paint a picture which includes a dad, a mum, 7 children on the same bed, a dog, a rooster...The house on this picture is really bad...There is no another bed to sleep and all parent sleeps on the same bed...But if you pay attention about his picture, they seem really happy...The money is nothing if you dont have the love, the money doesnt work if you dont have health, the money is not enough to buy if you are alone...I have known someone who follows the money way...I have never been one of them...I have never followed the money way...I have believed the power of love, not the power of money...I am looking for TRUE love...I know it hiddens in somewhere I have not known yet...
If you are not shallow person, you have HIGH emotions about life...If you believe that you have a INNER REALM, i am here and my house opens for all you...
LOVE IS A TEMPLE...
No, I have never lied down eternity...No; In my life I have never lied down eternity until this day...But I dont know eternity, I did not see it and know it...I know boundaries, being limited, limitings; I know being paralysed, growing less-becoming less, becoming crippled...No no, no I can say that I dont know what the eternity is, certainly...
Melissa P.
"Dragonfly comes in the night"
He is alive...
I am really so bad right now...I have just learnt Jon([xm3]) is dead...It is like an awful joke...It cant be true i have to believe...I cant believe that...I cant find any word talking about it...I am so bad...
I will never forgive you, Jon...I will never forget you, Jon...