today i feel me so i defenceless .......bootless...meritless!
i think my father hate me or he cant be lucky when he dosent can make me pain into my heart .....he is a fucking poison snake he bite my every day and laughing over me he says to me iam a loser, iam silly i never can listenig this bullshit...
i was want to slit one's wrists .........my mother crys ,my sister crys ,brother crys ,my father crys EVERYDAY ,EVERYTiME
fuck why they must crying AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
i hate it thati must according to expectations,to live up to expectations,to meet one's expectations for another fucking peoples.....i hate them all i cant do it.I can't stand it any longer.not anybody help me (can help me) i must help me alone and this is hard to hard

today i am feel very bad ,because ......i had have problems with my mom and dad.....i am tomorrow work in a kindergarden
thats funny ......i work there for three weeks .......
but i havent found a apprenticeship that make me sad my dad hate me becaus i havent a apprenticeship .....he is very sneaking to me.......sometimes i would cryyyy......i am searching everyday ,everytime for a apprenticeship.......