How in the HELL do you expect me to trust you again?? I can't. And i am not going to be friends with someone who i can't trust worth shit. And what could you have said about me?

I never fuckin said that i didn't want to be your friend again. I said that it was pretty impossible. And i didn't spread anything. Everything i said was the truth and im not afraid to say any of it to you or anyone else. Cause if you've done this to me then you'll do it again. All i do is try to warn ppl so they don't feel what i do. no one should ever feel this horrible, not even you

I never said that i didn't love you and you never said it to me but you didn't have to. Your actions proved that very well. And i regret talkin to you cause at least when i ignored you, i was somewhat happy. At least i had wes but thats not there anymore and neither are you. Do you have any idea how hard and long i've cried over you? And i wish that i could stop but i can't let that go. YOU did this and its your fault and that will never change. And i honestly think that its impossible for us to EVER be the same and quite frankly, the way im goin now, i don't think that i'll ever be here long enough for us to even try.

and you say i've never done anything wrong? I believed you and that obviously screwed me over didn't it. I also made the choice to stop trying to kill myself which was a mistake. Everyday, i have to go through the fuckin suicide thoughts goin through my head because of you. No matter what i've gone through in life, no matter how much i hated myself, i have never wanted to die so much. And the reason i want to die? Because the 1 girl i trusted with everything and always talked to took a knife and stabbed me in the back. The least you could've done is have stabbed my chest so maybe i wouldn't have to feel more pain everyday. And you have no idea how much pain i feel everytime i wake up i wanna cry because of you. You were like my sister and i loved you for that and a part of me still does care about you very much. But you know that all my life i have had ppl hurt me and lie to me and i thought you were different. But all you did was add to that quota.

Camp doesn't mean shit ellen. Thats just a petty excuse and you knowit. "Band Camp"?
Give me a f***in break. Let me ask you something. If i went to a camp that your boyfriend was at and i made out with him and cried when he didn't want me. How you would you feel? How the fuck wouldthat make you feel? You'd be in my place right now. The only difference is that i still blame myself for your stupid ass mistakes. I keep thinking that it was my fault because i couldn't prove to you how much i love him and that i couldn't even hold onto a friend. And i know that blaming myself for that is stupid but you know, blaming myself just kind of comes natural. I mean, no one else is going to take the blame but in this case, i know its my fault. I didn't tell you not to do anything with him, i didn't tell you that i would die on the inside if you ever betayed me.

I know you're tying but thats full of shit. If it was about "us" then why the hell would you do that? I was doin do good on my cutting and everything and now you just make me wanna die

yea, you really screwed up that friendship. Actually, im kinda thankful that you did what you did cause otherwise,i would've gone on thinking that you really cared about me and our friendship. I would've hated more for the friendship to continue and then after a year found out that you never wanted me as a friend, you just wanted wes. So thank you. And for the record, the only reason i made up this reatarded person is because i wanted to know why the hell you had to screw up my life anymore than it already is. And before you hear this from wes, i did want to talk to you cause i do miss you at times but then again, im probably just playin myself. I seemed pretty good at it when i thought you were my friend

And to be honest, i thought that you were the one that needed to leave too but you know, it turns out that you're great at tricking ppl so that insures you lots of friends right there. Whereas me, i don't have that many and alot of that has to do with you. You hurt me and i don't want to be hurt again so i don't talk to most of my old friends. And you know damn good and well that im the one that should die and just might if ppl don't stop f***in with me. And yea, ill admit it. i miss you too but you did this your damn self. NOT ME. I found a picture of you and me last night and i f***in cried 4ever. And a part of me wants to be your friend again cause it was just you and wes that i talked to but the other part of me just wants you to hurt and for you to feel the pain i did.

okay there is this girl courtney who has always been depressed and her and i became really good friends, i love/d her with all my heart and then one day i was at camp and her (as i was told by him) ex was there too...and it was camp and random feelings that don't mean anything came out and we kissed and he told her and she hates me now....she won't even let me apologize because more than anything i want her back i want a second chance, today she messages me on here acting like someone else and i told this person she was acting like stuff about our friendship because she said she knew courtney and then i find out it is courtney, why do people have to be so cruel, at least she knows how i feel

omg i almost completely forgot my psat test was today so i was kinda stressed but its turning out to be okay i just got done with the math section and i am soo hungy, amber is a dumb bitch and i can't stand her slutty ways(a stupid wannabe everything ur not changes her personality as much as her panties type person)aaaaaah!

well now im in junior english and i have to listen to this teacher who reminds me of a harry potter bobble head doll!

well im kinda clueless as of what to do with this right now, im in geometry and im so bored and tired and chris told me to do this and left me to fend for myself so if anyone reads this and can help, PLEASE HELP!