I'm so confuse of what Luke wants. I tried so hard to be nice to him and all that. I wanted to show him that I wouldn't hurt him like his x-girlfriend did. He says that he doesn't want to hurt me. Well he did hurt me. All I felt like was his sexy toy. I told him that and he just........(sigh) doesn't care. He says that he does, but if he did he would of talked to me about it. It's been about almost a month that this has been going on and he hasn't talk to me. He talked to my friend about it, but not me. How sad is that. I think I give up on him. Half of me says I should give up, but the other says you can get him. It just takes some time. I don't think theres any hope, but then I think there is. I have no idea what to think or do. I've tried almost everything and i'm getting tired of doin it. Know I don't want a relationship. It just seems like to much work now, but a relatinship should be so much work if that other person is helping you. Well he's not helping me at all. I hate this. I hate this a alot. I can't wait to get out of this town. I'm going out the state this weekend. HELL YEA. Maybe a break away might change his mind. I hope.

I had so much fun last nigt with everyone. There was no drama. It was so awsome. I haven't had that much fun in a long time. I hope it stays like that forever. Even thought Luke was there and all I was still having fun with every one else. It suck that I won't be here this weekend to hang out with them, but I really need to get out of here for a will. The last time I was out of this state was in december and january. I went to chicago. That was so much fun. I still have a smile on my face, because of my friend and that thank them for that. With out them I don't know what I would do. I would be depressed all that time and getting fat. 

Me and Kelly are in a fight right now and everyone else hates her. I don't hate her she just need to give me my space and she didn't want to. I got really mad at her for that.

Oh shit this just keeps getting wired ok luke I like him but he doesn't what to go out he just wants a hook up. Well this weekend changed every thing I saw luke with another girl well that weren't making out that were just holding hand in front of me. Well his friend Mike told me that he has a crush on me and I kind of like him. Oh shit I don't know what to do.

Life goses on

I learned something today. No matter what happens in you life you can't change. You have to move on to make it better. Every day is a new day. Things might not get better right away, but things well get better if you make it better. Keep your head up and don't let things get in to way of what you want to do. For all of us that are single. Have fun with your life. Don't be down that you don't have someone. Stop looking and let them find you.




This weekend was so much fun. I can't stop smialing. I got to hook up with this guy that I've had a crush on for months. I don't know if he's ready to get into a relationship. He' just so cool. I like to hear him laugh. He's got to cutest laught I ever heard. I get butterfly when I think about him. My life is starting to turn around. I haven't been this happy in a long time. See I told you, No matter what things will get better. Damn I'm so happy I just want to make everyone happy. I've been playing KingdomHearts2 and it so awsome. I don't know which one is better. The first one made me cry, but it was so cool. Happy, happy, happy. I just want to make everyone happy. I love you kelly. I'm always here for you. the same goes for you too Whitney. I don't what I would do without you guys

I am still hurting. I'm so afraid to go out side. Why did this happen to me? I have so many questions, but they well never be awsered until I die. This really sux's. Know I'm afraid to trust guys. I've been hurt so many times.

Let it go...
Current mood: mellow


Let it go for 2006!
By T. D. Jakes


There are people who will walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this! When people walk away from you: let them walk.

I don't want you to try to talk another person into
staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person, it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.
 
You've got to know when it's dead.
You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's not that I'm unfaithful, it's that I believe that you shouldn't force people.
It takes too much sweat I don't need. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to.....
LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains .....
LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.....
LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you .....
LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge.....
LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction.....
LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents .....
LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude.....
LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better.....
LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past.....
LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken
relationship.....
LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves.....
LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed.....
LET IT GO!!!

I just go back from Chicago. I had so much fun. I learned more about jesus. Getting away from silver was good I didn't have a bad moment. I meat new people. I have new friends and I'm so gald that I went. I don't get to go all over chicago, but thats ok. I got to go on a Odyssey boat. We ate dinner on there and danced. I didn't get very much sleep. We had to get up at 6:00am in the morning, because we had to take a shower. There was four of us sleep in one room. I was me, Marisol, Rachel, and laura. We went to eat breakfast at 7 that go to the Reconciliation at 8 then had mass at 9. There was so much stuff to do.

POOR LITTLE CHRIS...;<
Body: this is a sad story, you should be ashamed if you dont repost this.

My name is Chris

I am three,

My eyes are swollen

I cannot see,

I must be stupid

I must be bad,

What else could have made

My daddy so mad?

I wish I were better

I wish I werent ugly,

Then maybe my mommy

Would still want to hug me.

I cant do a wrong

I cant speak at all

Or else im locked up

All day long.

When im awake im all alone

The house is dark

My folks arent home

When my mommy does come home

I'll try and be nice,

So maybe ill just get

One whipping tonight.

I just heard a car

My daddy is back

From Chariles bar.

I hear him curse

My name is called

I press myself

Against the wall

I try to hide

From his evil eyes

Im so afraid now

I starting to cry

He finds me weeping

Calls me ugly words,

He says its my fault

He suffers at work.

He slaps and hits me

And yells at me more,

I finally get free

And run to the door

Hes already locked it

And i start to bawl,

He takes me and throws me

Against the hard wall

I fall to the floor

With my bones nearly broken,

And my daddy continues

With more bad words spoken,

"Im sorry!", I scream

But its now much to late

His face has been twisted

Into a unimaginable shape

The hurt and the pain

Again and again

O please God, have mercy!

O please let it end!

And he finally stops

And heads for the door

While i lay there motionless

Brawled on the floor

My name is Chris

I am three,

Tonight my daddy

Murdered me

And you can help

Sickens me top the soul,

And if you read this

and dont pass it on

I pray for your forgivness

Beause you would have to be

One heartless person

To not be effected

By this Poem

And because u r effected,

Do something about it!

So all i ask you to do

Is pass this on!

IF YOU ARE AGAINST CHILD ABUSE!