[Heather Thomason]'s diary
I never want to let u down or have you go
It's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
I told you time and time again you sing the words but dunno what it means (I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book
But the pages are all torn and frayed now
I'm okay!
I'm okay now (I'm okay now)
But you really need to listen to me
'Cause i'm telling the truth
I mean this
I'm okay! (trust me)
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay (okay)
Girl: "Can we do what?"
Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?"
Girl: "Um.....no."
Guy: "Why?"
Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......."
Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won' tell."
Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first."
Guy: "I'm not special to you?"
Girl: "You're my friend. That's all."
Guy: looks forward and keeps driving.
5 minutes pass.......
Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh.
Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me?"
Guy: tries to kiss her.
Girl: screams, "Would you stop."
Guy: continues trying.
Girl: moves to the back seat
Girl: pushes him off and scoots over, "Please, don't do this."
Guy: "Don't do what, I know you want it, I can see it in your eyes." Moves over to her and starts to unbutton her pants.
Girl: pushes him harder and says, "No, don't."
Guy: getting aggravated, punches her and tells her to stop "playing hard to get".
Girl: crying, continues to fight.
Guy: punches her harder, pulls her pants off, and holds her down.
Girl: screams as he penetrates her, "NO, please don't do this to me!"
Guy: puts his hand over her mouth.
An hour passes........
Guy: pulls back and wipes himself off.
Girl: sits on the corner of the seat, sobbing.
Guy: looks at her and says, "You better not tell anybody about this. If you're really my friend, you won't tell anybody about this. You know I love you." He reaches out his hand to touch her cheek.
Girl: pulls back, "Just take me home, now."
Guy: says, "Alright." Gets in the front seat and drives her home.
2 months later.........
Girl: "Doctor, what's wrong with me. I haven't had my time of the month in 2 months."
Doctor: looks at her, "You haven't been having your "time" for a reason."
Girl: looks at him and says, "Why?" dreading the answer that she was sure to receive.
Doctor: "You are pregnant."
Girl: faints.
The story gets out that she is pregnant, and people start looking to the Guy. He claims that it isn't his because she was sleeping with every guy in the school(which was a lie). He goes to her and tells her, "I'm telling you, if you lie to people and say that I raped you, I'll kill you."
The Girl is completely devastated. First, he took her virginity and got her pregnant....th
Girls, if this story touched you, repost it as "That's Screwed up"
Guys, if this story touched you, repost it as "I'll kill any jackass who does this to my girl or any girl."
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Gender: Female $135,000
Age: 16 $50,000
Ethnicity: White/Caucasia
Height: 5'4 $0
Weight: 160 lbs. ($25,000)
Body Type: Average $0
Hair Color: Blonde $25,000
Eye Color: Blue $1,000
Handed: Right $5,000
Body Hair: No Hair $35,000
Shoe Size: 7 $5,000
Bald: No $0
20/20 Eyesight: Yes $5,000
Bra Size: NA $0
Cavities: None $5,000
Athletic Ability: Below Average $10,000
Attractiveness
IQ: 141 $162,036
SAT Score: NA $0
HS GPA: 2.5 $18,750
Education: High School $0
Bilingual: Yes $10,000
Income: NA $0
Profession: Student $0
Alcohol: Never $0
Smoker: No $15,000
Pot: No $10,000
Drugs: No $10,000
Exercise: Occasionally $10,000
Divorced: No $0
Comitted Felony: No $15,000
Watch Television: Often $2,500
Sexuality: NA $25,000
Style: Average $15,000
Artistic: Poor $0
Sense of Humor: Average $30,000
Addictive Personality: Yes ($15,000)
Give to Charity: Yes $25,000
Adult Content: Occasionally $0
Gamble: Never $0
Multiplier x2
Total: $1,468,572
and your inner dragon is a ....
Rift Dragon
In the war between good and evil, your inner Dragon self is rotten with the stench of EVIL.
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon walks a fine line between Law and Chaos.
As far as magical tendancies, a Rift Dragon's nature does not lend itself well to the ways of Magic.
During combat situations, the Rift Dragon shows a preference for the rending and slashing of Hand to Hand combat.
Dragon Description:
Rift Dragons are evil dragons that came into the world during the 3rd great dragon war, when the fighting and magic powers involved became so fierce that a hole was formed in the space-time continuum.
From a Rift Dragons Head to the tip of its tail, the dragon is black, even more than that, the dragon absorbs all light that hits it. It is even believed by some that this is how the dragon feeds, by actually swallowing light it comes into contact with.
Rift Dragons are cruel and merciless. They are worse than the enemy of all that is good, as they seem to the enemy of all that is living. A Rift Dragon will attack any living creature unless it is a creature of great power, even those of evil alignment.The Rift Dragon's main breath weapon is an anti-matter storm that engulfs it's victims, and often causes that victim (or part thereof) to literally cease to exist.
This Dragons favorite elements are: Antimatter and Pure Evil
How do I,
Get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?
And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?
Quiz: What Kind of Dad Will He Be?
By Deborah Gaines
Your Results
Quiz Results
Diapers, baths, late-night feedings -- this dad will handle them all like a pro. You can count on him to administer the medicine for baby's first ear infection, and he'll probably want to take Junior to the doctor, as well. In fact, hands-on dads are so involved that they make great primary caregivers (this is the dad you want at home if you're planning to return to work). His parenting style will be based on nurturing, togetherness, and total involvement -- being there for his child will be his first priority.
Quiz: Test Your Family Finance IQ
Your Results
Your Score: 5 of 11, or 45%
Your Rank: Pretty Good!
You seem to have a decent knowledge about how much money it takes to raise a child. But you may want to learn a bit more about just how much having a child will cost you. Parents today spend more than ever to raise their kids -- even taking inflation into account. The average family having a child today will spend about $165,000 on their child before he even turns 18. And then it's time for college, which is expected to cost up to $200,000 for a private university in 2018. How much the average parent spends can depend on the family income, their geographic area, and how many children they have.
Your Score: 9 of 11, or 81%
Your Rank: Excellent!
You know a lot about the benefits -- and dangers -- of a car seat. But you might want to review your current seat's instructions to make sure you're using it as the manufacturer recommends. Make sure it's installed properly, and check the fit of the seat, seat belts, and harness to make sure that you're optimizing the safety that a car seat or booster seat offers.
Your Score: 5 of 10, or 50%
Your Rank: Pretty Good!
You're pretty aware of what to do in an emergency -- but you might want to beef up your knowledge. While calling 911 is always a safe option in an emergency, it may not always be the best course of action. You may be able to save your child's life by knowing exactly what to do when your child needs immediate medical attention.
Make sure to have a copy of your emergency phone list handy at all times and keep your first aid kit fully stocked. If you're not trained in CPR already, consider taking a training class. Contact your local Red Cross for more information.
Your Score: 5 of 10, or 50%
Your Rank: Pretty Good!
You seem to have a fairly good understanding of the causes and treatments of colds and flu. But it never hurts to beef up your knowledge. Kids are notorious for spreading germs by sneezing or coughing on their hands and then touching a toy or another child. Frequent hand washing is the best way to curb the transmission of these germs.
If your child comes down with a cold or the flu, the best medicine is rest and lots of liquids. Try reducing your child's fever by giving him a room-temperatu
Quiz: What's Your Breastfeeding IQ?
Your Results
Your Score: 4 of 11, or 36%
Your Rank: Study Up!
You might want to do some more reading on breastfeeding. Nursing can be a wonderful experience -- both physically and emotionally -- for mother and baby. Breast milk provides a baby with all the nutrients necessary for his health and growth. But in order for breastfeeding to be most beneficial, it's important to learn all the ins and outs.
Quiz: What's Your Infant Sleep IQ?
Your Results
Your Score: 2 of 7, or 28%
Your Rank: Study Up!
You might want to strengthen your knowledge about baby sleep. You and your baby will appreciate it! You can get started by reading the correct answers below.
Your Score: 7 of 11, or 63%
Your Rank: Pretty Good!
You are pretty knowledgeable about caring for your newborn. And your care is so important. Proper feeding, bathing, and baby-proofing are essential for keeping your baby healthy and safe. Buying the right car seat and crib are equally important.
A baby's needs are very different from your own -- and some of these needs may surprise you. Feeding may need to be more frequent than you would expect -- (every 3 to 4 hours, in most cases) while bathing can occur less frequently than you might think -- (2 to 3 times a week).
Quiz: Test Your Newborn Knowledge
Your Results
Your Score: 7 of 12, or 58%
Your Rank: Pretty Good!
You seem to have a basic grasp on the body and mind of your newborn. But it might be helpful for you to learn more. The more a parent knows about how her baby's body works, the better able she'll be to determine what's normal and what may signal a problem. Don't be alarmed if your baby loses weight during her first week, sleeps 16 hours a day, or loses skin. These are just normal developments in a newborn.
Learning about all the mental and physical features of a newborn may seem a little scary. But your baby may be a lot more developed than you give him credit for. Newborns are able to see, hear, smell, taste, and touch. Your baby developed his sense of hearing in the womb, so he can probably remember familiar voices and music.
Have you ever...
[no] been drunk.
[no] smoked pot.
[yes] kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[no] rode in a taxi.
[yes] been dumped.
[no] shoplifted.
[no] been fired.
[yes] been in a fist fight.
[yes] had sex.
[no] had a threesome - kissing or otherwise
[no] snuck out of your parent's house.
[no] been arrested.
[yes] made out with a stranger.
[no] stole something from your job.
[no] celebrated new years in times square.
[no] went on a blind date.
[no] lied to a friend.
[yes] had a crush on a teacher.
[no]celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[no] been to europe.
[yes]skipped school.
[no] thrown up from drinking.
[yes] lost your sibling.
[no] played 'clue'.
[no] had a sleepover party.
[no] went ice skating.
[yes] dropped x.
[yes] cheated on a bf/gf.
[yes] been cheated on.
[yes] had a sweet sixteen. but i didnt have a party >.<
[yes] had a car.
[yes] drove.
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Do you...
[yes] have a bf.
[yes] have a gf.--Brandi lol
[yes] have a crush.
[Sometimes] feel loved.
[yes] feel lonely.
[yes] feel happy.
[yes] hate yourself.
[hell no ] think your attractive.
[yes] have a dog.
[yes] have your own room.
[fuck no.. well not much] listen to rap.---very little
[yes] listen to rock.
[fuck no] listen to soul.
[fuck no] listen to techno.
[no] listen to reggae.
[yes] paint your nails.---BLACK
[yes] have more than 1 best friend.
[yeah right] get good grades.
[no] play an instrument.
[wtf] have slippers.
[no] wear boxers.
[:) maybe ] wear thongs.
[yes] wear black eyeliner.
[yes] like the color blue.
[no] like the color yellow.
[yes] cyber.
[no] claim.
[yea ] like to read.
[Yeaira] like to write.
[kinda] have long hair.
[kinda] have short hair.
[Yeaira] have a cell phone.
[no] have a laptop.
[no] have a pager.
*^~*^~*^~*^~*^
Are you...
[yes] ugly.
[no] pretty.
[no] ok.
[yes] bored.
[WHY] happy.
[party girl ~any body else wanna party~] indian
[fuck no] bilingual.
[yes] white.
[no] black.
[no] hispanic.
[no] asian.
[yes :( ] short.
[no :(] tall.
[no] grounded.
[yes] sick.
[no] a virgin.
[yes] lazy.
[no] single.
[yes] taken.
[??huh??] looking.
[??huh??] not looking.
[yes] talking to someone.
[yes] IMing someone.
[aaaaa aaaaa] scared to die.---I wish i could right now
[yes] tired.
[yes] sleepy.
[yes] annoyed.
[yes] hungry.
[yes] thirsty.
[no] on the phone.
[yes] in your room.
[yes] drinking something.---f
[no] eating something.
[no] in your pjs.--im not 2
[aaaaa aaaaa] ticklish.
[yes] listening to music.
[yes] homophobic.
[maybe alittle] racist--sum ppl get to me
[Below Are The Poems I Wrote Except The Valentines Day Poems And green dog thats wasn't from me either well there they are enjoy]
[*Lonely World*]
[She use to be everything now she feels all alone everybody seems to hate her or doesn't want anything to do with her she feels like a nobody cause of the way everybody is treating her all the boys seem to hate her or doesn't want anything to do with her she is scared out of her mind nowhere to go know one to turn to she still likes her x-
boyfriend but he doesn't want to look stupid hanging out with her to her it seems like the whole world is against her and all her friends aren't really her friends like she thinks so she lives in this lonely world all alone]
[*All Alone*]
[Why do I act the way I do I feel like a]loser that everyone hates have you ever got [to the point you can't tell right from] wrong and what's real and what's fake have [you got to the point people make up reasons] to leave have you ever felt invisible and [people walk on you like your not even there, well i have its] really terrible I feel all alone that know one loves [everything in the world seems gray why does life treat] people this way I wish someone [could tell me I still wonder what I am doing here cause I am a no good person that everyone hates]
[*Heart Broken*]
When he broke up with me it really hurt
[Every time I look at him I just want to cry]
I feel the hole world hates me
[I don’t know why I get so jealous over things]
I just know I love him and I wont him back
[I feel that I hurt him to]
I just want everything to be better again
[I can promise to change my ways]
But he want give me a second chance
[Worst of all I loved him more than my sister]
I actually felt safe with him
[Now I’m alone]
All this time we have been apart I pretended [to be happy in front of him]
But deep down I’m dieing with pain
[I don’t care if he hangs with his friends]
I just want him to be happy
[I miss him putting his arms around me]
I just wish I could change it all
[I wish it was like it use to be]
[*True Love*]
[I feel that I could never love anyone the way I do my three angels]
[they are what keeps me going each day
the reason I live the reason I try]
the ones that I would die for any day
[I love them all with all my heart and soul and someday I wanna be with them]
every time I look into there eyes I just [want to cry but instead I smile and say to them stop starring at me they are the only] ones that makes me truly happy when I’m down [they are always there for me I just really wish they knew how much I love them and always will nothing them or anyone else][could do to make me change my mind]
[*The Wrong Way*]
[I never thought I would turn out how I did everything inside me died its telling me I want to die and for some reason I want to] listen to it since I was born I have screwed up everything now the whole world hates me [including myself I’ve pushed all my friends that cared for me and I cared for them away I don’t know why either but now I regret it] I want to be re-born and lose the sins and come clean I want to start over and let God [into my life and guide me to the right path and I don’t want to go down the wrong path again like in the past]
[*A Long Time Ago*]
[When I was little you was always there I can remember when you would stay up with me Until i feel asleep No matter what I did you always forgave me I am so thankful for that] I'm sorry for the times I made you cry You and Amanda was my world When you guys died part of me died with you Now I have know one [to lean on I'm out in this Lonely World all alone I feel like know one cares about me I loved you both so much Now all I Have Is memories I am so scared to love anyone Every time I get close to someone I lose him or ]her The one thing that drives me crazy the most is I didn't get to say goodbye I did try to love again, but what a mistake that was In the end all it turned out to be a [heart full of pain I've always wondered why I'm alive Know one like me there always putting me down Every night before I go to] bed I cry cause its to hard to let go
[*Where I’m From*]
[I am from the city of lights]
From where people didn’t judge other people [I am from a peaceful little county near by]
From where everyone wanted to be your friend
I am from where all my family lived and died
[From the painful place of memories]
I am from the place where I left my heart
[From the place where the two special family
members are buried]
I am from where I had wonderful friends
[From the same place where I was forgotten]
I am from the place I got hurt the most
[From where I cried every night]
I am from the place I gave up
[From where all my feelings died]
I am from where the darkness began
[From where I’m gone forever]
[*I’m Sorry*]
[I’m sorry for letting you down
Deep down I never meant for this to happen
I’m running out of ways to prove I love you
Every time I see you I want to run from you
I can’t stand the pain I brought on]
Jealously is what brings my life down
The reason we’re not together
[How could I cause so much to happen
I love you so much]
I wish you only knew
You’re really the only one for me
The one that has my heart
[If you’re gone for good
So isn’t my heart
You are the one person I love
The one person that keeps me breathing]
[~Goodbye~]
[When you dumped me it hurt
I even cried
I always thought we would last forever
But I was wrong
I’m kind of happy your gone]
I don’t know why I loved you so much
All you ever did was cause me pain
So I got to move on
[How could I think about you
While I’m with him
I don’t need you anymore
I don’t know you anymore]
Deep down I thought you could do better
But to tell you the truth I was the one that could do better
[Everyone told me not to trust you
But I did, what another mistake that was
All this time I had a right to be jealous
You and her spent more time together than a married couple]
But why you cousins
Monroe is so messed up
[That’s all I Have to say
I just got to let you go
I need to move on
I can do better]
[Dark And Lonely]
Lost out in the darkness Not a single soul [wonders through here tonight Not even an animal matter of fact Why is it so quiet here tonight Every light around is off
Why is it so dark I ask Then I started to] wonder if I was the only one here A voice in my head said out of no where you all alone
[The voice in my head repeats over and over
Then starts to laugh look what you’ve done
You killed them all the evil voice said to me
Why are you doing this to me I ask The voice] says because you know I’m right Then tears start rolling down my face How could I let [this happen Because you evil the voice calls out]
[*Alone And Lost*]
[I try so hard not to cry But more and more the expression grows Everyone around me starts to die]
So soon enough I’ll be alone Why is this happening deep down I wonder Why am I so alone trapped in this body
[Will my time ever come or will I be around Until there isn’t even a single soul Let me out my soul often cries]
But still I’m trapped in this body Is it because I was meant to be alone So soon enough I will be all-alone
[Lost somewhere out in the darkness Why can’t anyone hear my cries Let me out of the body my soul often cries]
[The Last Moment]
[Tears running down her face she knew it was her last moment] she had held all the pain in for years but she couldn't take it any longer
[she held the gun to her head i'll love him till the end] she said and now its the end [now i can be with you] she sat beside the wooden cross a moment longer [why does it have to be this way] i wanted us to grow old and die happy [when you died you was mad when i die i'll be sad [should i seek revenge before i come to be with you] no know revenge [i wanna be with you now one last breath then she pulls the triger]
[Behind Blue Eyes]
[i look in her eyes and all i see is sadness and pain why is she so sad i often ask myself why is she never happy has she seen a happy moment behind her blue eyes i since ]fear what is she feared of what keeps her sp [depressed why is she so sad she stairs into the mirror at her blue eyes deep down she feels she'll never find love when she does find love some afful death accures why does] this happen she often wonders is she lost in the darknss behind her blue eyes or is it [just one big empty hole thats never seen light nor has ever seen love she often] wonders why she is here what is my purpose [here she often ask right now she has not a first clue someday hopefully she'll finally know]
[darkness]
[deep down darkness is all i see i'll never find love i'm worthless to everyone just leave me here alone in the dark this empty soul of mine has lost love in all people what is love this empty heart od mine has never seen its all about break up's and ]sadness there is no such thing as love people hearts are actually clueless love is [a load of shit there is no such thing as love people hearts lies more than they tell the truth there so out in the darkness]
[Stormy Night]
[the wind began to slowly blow at first but then grows the rain began to poor faster and harder thunder and lightening in the sky flickering light then nun things began to] fly through the air people bagan to die poles began to fall everything was beginning [to get destoryed the eletric went out phones where dead people where trapped with out a place to go no way to get help why? why was this happening Why Why Why!!!!]
[~Why~]
[why am i here why do i breath what is the reason i'm alive whay am i alive am i alive to be put down or is it for peoples laughts sometimes i wonder if i really am alive my ]heart always gets broken no doubt about that [i dont even no the meaning of love i've never seen it in my life when people say i love you it comes from there mind but really] it suppose to come from the heart i feel as [if the next time my heart it broken i will blow my brains out without a tear only because i'm heartless and cold blooded to myself]
[~How Could I Been So Blind~]
[How Could I Be So Blind
To Not See This Love
Before My Eyes For All
This Time I've Been So Blind
I Never Knew Love Could Be
So Hidden Behind My Eyes How Could I Be So Blind Not To See The Hidden Love
In Your Eyes
Was It Both Of Us
Or Just Me That Couldn't See
How Could I Be So Blind
Not To Know You Was The One
After Its To Late
I See Cleary
How Could I Been So Blind
Not To See I Love You]
[*I Wish I Only Knew*
I wish i could know
why things are this way
everyone i love always dies
i wish i only knew
I hope you know
when i say i love you
i mean it]
no matter what
if i die tomorrow
just know i love you
[you never know when its
gonna be your time
so if you love
someone let them know
when i found out i loved
someone it was to late
dont make the same mistake
let them know
if you love someone
more than life itself
let them know
and pass it on ]
[*Unhappy Valentine's Day*]
[Roses are red and Violets are blue, I didn't buy you anything cause to be honest, I really don't like you.] Roses are red Violets are not Remember Valentine's Day Or you will be shot [God made the Irish
God made the Dutch, But whoever made you
didn't make much!]
[*Valentines Day Poem*]
[Hearts And Roses And Kisses Galore
What The Hell Is All That Shit For
People Get Mushy And Start Acting Queer
It’s Definitely The] Most Annoying Day Of The Year This Day Needs To Get The Hell Over With And Pass Before I Shove A Dozen Roses Up Cupids Ass I’ll Spend The Day So Drunk I Can’t Speak And Wear Black For The Rest Of The Week Guys Act All Sweet But Soon It will Fade For All [They Are Doing Is Trying To Get Laid The Arrow That Cupid Shot At Me Must Have Not Hit Because I Think Love Is A Load Of Shit So They’re My Story… What Can I Say Love Bites Ass Screw Valentines Day]
