[Heather Thomason]'s diary

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Written about Saturday 2006-12-30
Written: (6537 days ago)

i believe ive never felt this way before i fill so dead inside with no way out seems like my life is one big blur days go by and i cant remember a thing like if im dead. all i do is sit here and stare and think about lots of things that i never can remember. im starting to wonder if i am alive. school starts back next week and im not ready to go back. if things are the same next week as they are now i see no hope in me. i wish i knew why i felt so dead inside though. so much pain and its like im giving up on life. nothin seems right anymore. i dont even know myself anymore if i even ever did.

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Written about Friday 2006-08-04
Written: (6685 days ago)

oh gosh i feel so bad. my stomach is killing me and i dont know why oh it so freakin hurts :'( and still i have no internet at home and so ill be back when i can bye

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Written about Tuesday 2006-05-30
Written: (6750 days ago)

My Chemical Romance:

 Im not okay (i promise)


Well, if you wanted honesty thats all you had to say
I never want to let u down or have you go
It's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor


I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out


What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems (I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but dunno what it means (I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look


I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out


Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book
But the pages are all torn and frayed now


I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay now (I'm okay now)
But you really need to listen to me
'Cause i'm telling the truth
I mean this
I'm okay! (trust me)


I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay (okay)
800450  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-05-30
Written: (6750 days ago)

Thats Screwed Up


Guy:"Can we have sex right now?"
Girl: "Can we do what?"
Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?"
Girl: "Um.....no."
Guy: "Why?"
Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......."
Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won' tell."
Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first."
Guy: "I'm not special to you?"
Girl: "You're my friend. That's all."
Guy: looks forward and keeps driving.





5 minutes pass.......


Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh.
Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me?"
Guy: tries to kiss her.
Girl: screams, "Would you stop."
Guy: continues trying.
Girl: moves to the back seat



Guy: parks on an abandoned street and gets in the backseat with the girl. Starts to kiss her.
Girl: pushes him off and scoots over, "Please, don't do this."
Guy: "Don't do what, I know you want it, I can see it in your eyes." Moves over to her and starts to unbutton her pants.
Girl: pushes him harder and says, "No, don't."
Guy: getting aggravated, punches her and tells her to stop "playing hard to get".
Girl: crying, continues to fight.
Guy: punches her harder, pulls her pants off, and holds her down.
Girl: screams as he penetrates her, "NO, please don't do this to me!"
Guy: puts his hand over her mouth.



An hour passes.........


Guy: pulls back and wipes himself off.
Girl: sits on the corner of the seat, sobbing.
Guy: looks at her and says, "You better not tell anybody about this. If you're really my friend, you won't tell anybody about this. You know I love you." He reaches out his hand to touch her cheek.
Girl: pulls back, "Just take me home, now."
Guy: says, "Alright." Gets in the front seat and drives her home.



2 months later.........


Girl: "Doctor, what's wrong with me. I haven't had my time of the month in 2 months."
Doctor: looks at her, "You haven't been having your "time" for a reason."
Girl: looks at him and says, "Why?" dreading the answer that she was sure to receive.
Doctor: "You are pregnant."
Girl: faints.


The story gets out that she is pregnant, and people start looking to the Guy. He claims that it isn't his because she was sleeping with every guy in the school(which was a lie). He goes to her and tells her, "I'm telling you, if you lie to people and say that I raped you, I'll kill you."



The Girl is completely devastated. First, he took her virginity and got her pregnant....then he lied about it. So completely depressed......the girl commits suicide by drug overdose.......



Girls, if this story touched you, repost it as "That's Screwed up"
Guys, if this story touched you, repost it as "I'll kill any jackass who does this to my girl or any girl."

795613  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-05-21
Written: (6760 days ago)

<a href="http://www.humanforsale.com" title="How much am I worth?">I am worth $1,468,572 on HumanForSale.com</a>


Gender: Female $135,000
Age: 16 $50,000
Ethnicity: White/Caucasian $130,000
Height: 5'4 $0
Weight: 160 lbs. ($25,000)
Body Type: Average $0
Hair Color: Blonde $25,000
Eye Color: Blue $1,000
Handed: Right $5,000
Body Hair: No Hair $35,000
Shoe Size: 7 $5,000
Bald: No $0
20/20 Eyesight: Yes $5,000
Bra Size: NA $0
Cavities: None $5,000
Athletic Ability: Below Average $10,000
Attractiveness: NA $45,000
IQ: 141 $162,036
SAT Score: NA $0
HS GPA: 2.5 $18,750
Education: High School $0
Bilingual: Yes $10,000
Income: NA $0
Profession: Student $0
Alcohol: Never $0
Smoker: No $15,000
Pot: No $10,000
Drugs: No $10,000
Exercise: Occasionally $10,000
Divorced: No $0
Comitted Felony: No $15,000
Watch Television: Often $2,500
Sexuality: NA $25,000
Style: Average $15,000
Artistic: Poor $0
Sense of Humor: Average $30,000
Addictive Personality: Yes ($15,000)
Give to Charity: Yes $25,000
Adult Content: Occasionally $0
Gamble: Never $0
Multiplier x2
Total: $1,468,572

795605  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-05-21
Written: (6760 days ago)

and your inner dragon is a ....

Rift Dragon

In the war between good and evil, your inner Dragon self is rotten with the stench of EVIL.
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon walks a fine line between Law and Chaos.
As far as magical tendancies, a Rift Dragon's nature does not lend itself well to the ways of Magic.
During combat situations, the Rift Dragon shows a preference for the rending and slashing of Hand to Hand combat.

Dragon Description:
Rift Dragons are evil dragons that came into the world during the 3rd great dragon war, when the fighting and magic powers involved became so fierce that a hole was formed in the space-time continuum.

From a Rift Dragons Head to the tip of its tail, the dragon is black, even more than that, the dragon absorbs all light that hits it. It is even believed by some that this is how the dragon feeds, by actually swallowing light it comes into contact with.

Rift Dragons are cruel and merciless. They are worse than the enemy of all that is good, as they seem to the enemy of all that is living. A Rift Dragon will attack any living creature unless it is a creature of great power, even those of evil alignment.The Rift Dragon's main breath weapon is an anti-matter storm that engulfs it's victims, and often causes that victim (or part thereof) to literally cease to exist.

This Dragons favorite elements are: Antimatter and Pure Evil

793434  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-05-16
Written: (6764 days ago)

How do I,
Get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,

And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,

And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?

If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?

And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

How do I live without you?

How do I live without you baby?

780480  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (6791 days ago)

Quiz: What Kind of Dad Will He Be?
By Deborah Gaines 




 Your Results 

 


Quiz Results


Diapers, baths, late-night feedings -- this dad will handle them all like a pro. You can count on him to administer the medicine for baby's first ear infection, and he'll probably want to take Junior to the doctor, as well. In fact, hands-on dads are so involved that they make great primary caregivers (this is the dad you want at home if you're planning to return to work). His parenting style will be based on nurturing, togetherness, and total involvement -- being there for his child will be his first priority.




780469  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (6791 days ago)

Quiz: Test Your Family Finance IQ



 Your Results 

 




Your Score: 5 of 11, or 45%
Your Rank: Pretty Good!
You seem to have a decent knowledge about how much money it takes to raise a child. But you may want to learn a bit more about just how much having a child will cost you. Parents today spend more than ever to raise their kids -- even taking inflation into account. The average family having a child today will spend about $165,000 on their child before he even turns 18. And then it's time for college, which is expected to cost up to $200,000 for a private university in 2018. How much the average parent spends can depend on the family income, their geographic area, and how many children they have.



780462  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (6791 days ago)

Your Score: 9 of 11, or 81%
Your Rank: Excellent!
You know a lot about the benefits -- and dangers -- of a car seat. But you might want to review your current seat's instructions to make sure you're using it as the manufacturer recommends. Make sure it's installed properly, and check the fit of the seat, seat belts, and harness to make sure that you're optimizing the safety that a car seat or booster seat offers.

780453  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (6791 days ago)

Your Score: 5 of 10, or 50%
Your Rank: Pretty Good!
You're pretty aware of what to do in an emergency -- but you might want to beef up your knowledge. While calling 911 is always a safe option in an emergency, it may not always be the best course of action. You may be able to save your child's life by knowing exactly what to do when your child needs immediate medical attention.
Make sure to have a copy of your emergency phone list handy at all times and keep your first aid kit fully stocked. If you're not trained in CPR already, consider taking a training class. Contact your local Red Cross for more information.

780447  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (6791 days ago)

Your Score: 5 of 10, or 50%
Your Rank: Pretty Good!
You seem to have a fairly good understanding of the causes and treatments of colds and flu. But it never hurts to beef up your knowledge. Kids are notorious for spreading germs by sneezing or coughing on their hands and then touching a toy or another child. Frequent hand washing is the best way to curb the transmission of these germs.
If your child comes down with a cold or the flu, the best medicine is rest and lots of liquids. Try reducing your child's fever by giving him a room-temperature bath or age-appropriate doses of either acetaminophen or ibuprofen.

780445  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (6791 days ago)

 
 


Quiz: What's Your Breastfeeding IQ?



 Your Results 

 




Your Score: 4 of 11, or 36%
Your Rank: Study Up!
You might want to do some more reading on breastfeeding. Nursing can be a wonderful experience -- both physically and emotionally -- for mother and baby. Breast milk provides a baby with all the nutrients necessary for his health and growth. But in order for breastfeeding to be most beneficial, it's important to learn all the ins and outs.



780441  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (6791 days ago)

Quiz: What's Your Infant Sleep IQ?



 Your Results 

 




Your Score: 2 of 7, or 28%
Your Rank: Study Up!
You might want to strengthen your knowledge about baby sleep. You and your baby will appreciate it! You can get started by reading the correct answers below.



780439  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (6791 days ago)

Your Score: 7 of 11, or 63%
Your Rank: Pretty Good!
You are pretty knowledgeable about caring for your newborn. And your care is so important. Proper feeding, bathing, and baby-proofing are essential for keeping your baby healthy and safe. Buying the right car seat and crib are equally important.
A baby's needs are very different from your own -- and some of these needs may surprise you. Feeding may need to be more frequent than you would expect -- (every 3 to 4 hours, in most cases) while bathing can occur less frequently than you might think -- (2 to 3 times a week).

780429  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (6791 days ago)

Quiz: Test Your Newborn Knowledge



 Your Results 

 




Your Score: 7 of 12, or 58%
Your Rank: Pretty Good!
You seem to have a basic grasp on the body and mind of your newborn. But it might be helpful for you to learn more. The more a parent knows about how her baby's body works, the better able she'll be to determine what's normal and what may signal a problem. Don't be alarmed if your baby loses weight during her first week, sleeps 16 hours a day, or loses skin. These are just normal developments in a newborn.
Learning about all the mental and physical features of a newborn may seem a little scary. But your baby may be a lot more developed than you give him credit for. Newborns are able to see, hear, smell, taste, and touch. Your baby developed his sense of hearing in the womb, so he can probably remember familiar voices and music.



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