My spanish words that I have a test on today:
el articulo-article
el libro-book
la comedia-play,comedy
el cuento-short story
el ensayo-essay
la novela-novel
la obra-work
la obra de teatro-work of a theater, play
la poesia-poetry
el poema-poem
el autor/la autora-author
el escritor/la escritora-writer
el/la novelista-novelist
el/la periodista-journalist
locutor-news broadcaster
reportero-reporter
la computadora-computer
el ordenador-orderer
la maquina-computer
la maquina de escribir-typewriter
la prensa-press
la entrevista-interview
el diario-newspaper
el periodico-newspaper article
la revista-magazine

Someone sent this to me I can't remember who did but ya.
Honestly have you ever.....
-Done the chicken dance?
Yes
-Flown a kite(well)?
No but I did fly one really badly
-Jumped off a building?(not a tall one so u go splat)
Ya once a two story but I landed in like a ten foot high pile of leaves
-Done something you regret?(like being a messed up psycho)
Yes... say no more.
-Met a wierdo like [the pallbearer]
Of course.. unfortunetly

Have you ever sat around and realized that your life is a mess of pain and destruction? Have you ever truly understood how meaningless existence really is? Oh well.... guess I am just sorta depressed at the second.... Oh and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!!! I LOVE YOU!

I'm bored.... Alone... sad... depressed... anxious.. angry... and lonesome....

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I know a secret. Bet you can't guess it!

Why did the zombie baby cross the road?


To wreak an unholy vengeance upon the driver of the car who's standing there, scratching his head, trying to figure out how a zombie baby's head can be beneath his car tires but the rest of the body is nowhere to be seen-- unless he were to turn around and notice the zombie baby body bearing down on him, coming ever closer, ready with grasping, pudgy zombie baby fingers to tear and rend at the flesh of this self-same driver who ran his head over, on the dark and rain-swept road that snakes down from the castle of the madman who's creating an army of zombie babies to do his dark, libidinal bidding.

*a girls first time*
(Assume you are a girl if you are a boy)
It’s your first time.
As you lie back your muscles tighten.
You put him off for awhile searching for an excuse, but he refuses to be swayed as he approaches you.
He asks if you’re afraid and you shake your head bravely.
He has had more experience, but it’s the first time his finger has found the right place.
He probes deeply and you shiver, your body tenses, but he’s gentle like he promised he’d be.
He looks deeply within your eyes and tells you to trust him, he’s done this many times before.
His cool smile relaxes you and you open wider to give him more room for an easy enrance.
You begin to plead and beg him to hurry, but he slowly takes his time, wanting to cause you as little pain at possible.
As he presses closer, going deeper, you feel the tissue give way, pain surges throughout your body and you feel the slight trickle of blood as he continues.
He looks at you concerned and asks you if it’s to painful.
Your eyes are filled with tears but you shake your head and nod for him to go on.
He begins going in and out with skill but you are now too numb to feel him within you.
After a few moments, you feel something bursting within you and he pulls it out of you, you lay panting, glad to have it over.
He looks at you and smiling warmly, tells you, with a chuckle, that you have been his most stubborn yet most rewarding experience.
You smile and thank your dentist.
After all, it was your first time to have a tooth pulled.
Naughty, Naughty!


What were you thinking?

FUN FACT:
Too often, we lose sight of life's simple pleasures. Remember, when someone annoys you it takes 42 muscles in your face to frown, BUT, it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm and bitch-slap that motherfucker upside the head.
Pass it on.........

I am happier now. Yet sad for being alive. Though my thoughts walk through a valley of the unholy I still wish to be not pure but slightly less dammed than the wretched humans i hold near to me.

I died today. You may not know it but I truly did. My heart sank with a dream of horror. The love of my life sank away from me and my world fell to peaces. Why did I die today? Because of such a nightmarish dream... Hold on to your sanity while you can. When you lose it... The world will end for everything you know.

Bored.. Hey I say that alot don't I. Oh well I guess it means that I spend alot of time at school. Alas I suppose I must move on. By the way. I love the movie Queen Of the Dammed Lestat is so hot! Oh and Akasha aint to bad either. Well I'm gonna go cause I'm bored and this computer sorta sux. Bye now. Lol. My puppy is so cute!

Ugg. I hate the fact that racial comments and shit exists in the world but there is absolutely nothing we can do about it. complete and utter bull shit is what this is. My school is denying me free time so that I can sit around and mumble and groan about how boring our assembly was so it can end in a mass histeria of bull shit that is completely meaningless. I hope to god that this is not what the world is about that other people do not blabber about bull shit at the constant depression of our society. I am in need of some serious councilling to get this bull shit out of my brain. What a load of shit. How annoying can you get. Oh well talk to yall tommorrow or something.

Long and lasting days. I am bored out of my mind. People are pissing me off and I have to go to spanish class next period. My god that sucks ass. Oh and for any preppy peoples. Me included... note to self sorta thing:

I hate spanish class

Those eyes...lucious...loving...embracing, but they are not yours anymore he takes then and expects me to love them equally. I adore you my love. I want to hold you. I want to know you...not him. He as hard as me may try...will never be you, never will I let his sweet touch, the sultry looks, the amazing grip take me. I cannot and will not waver to him...you are a god to me...you are my life, my dream...He destroys all of it...he takes away your looks your gorgeous smile and makes me see a monster the true monster he is. I don't know why he does this so cruelly to you. But I promise you. It will be stopped. He is running us or atleast he thinks he is. Let him think what he wants. But know that my darling, my life revolves around you and no one else.

The endless field of flowers. A sunset made for two. The romance of the evening. Daylight comes, making a light of beauty and radiance. The day sees my pain. So again I sit and wait in those gorgeous flowing flowers. Letting my body sway with the eternal wind. The sun will never set for me. I will feel no release. My life will linger. Still tormented. Still in pain and full of anguish. Why do those eyes tempt me so? They hold me in, away from freedom. What have I done? Alas, I know. I have fallen... deep into a trap an endless void of desperation, love has latched onto me. It is seeking to pry the life from my body. Somehow I must hold on. I must not let go. For some reasons my head says no but my heart bleeds for him. I must vow to do this right. It is the only way to live now. The only way to survive in the void, to love him, to embrace him, to stay with him and hold out love dear..... Dedicated to my love [nightgoth]

 A new icon I got for my computer thingy it basically describes how i feel right now.
As do these...

I am writing this for my boyfriend [nightgoth] I really don't care who reads it though. I am writing this so that he knows that I love him with all my heart and soul it's just that I pissed off my mother so now we must stay apart talk less and feel seperated more than ever. It seems that she has no trust in me anymore. I know why she doesn't and i know that I am the one who fucked this all up. I am weeping inside and out always now. i made a mistake that is so horrid so stupid so dum. How could I be so blind as to let myself slip to such a low as this. I put myself down because it is true. I am deeply in debt to my mother for even forgiving me. I betrayed her. I betrayed everyone. I am so sorry my love. I never meant to hurt you. I never meant for my mess up to go to this magnitude. I never meant it like this.

My mothers boyfriend and her are fighting now. Great lets just have it go back to the same fucking way it was before....back to the place when I hated life and all that shit. Yay lets start the fucking depression yet again! 

God dam my mother I love her but comon! Why do this to me

() I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK
() I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT
() I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
() I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(X) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR
(X) I NEVER BEEN TO JAPAN
(X) I NEVER RODE IN A TAXI
() I NEVER HAD ANAL SEX
() I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE
() I NEVER HAD SEX
(X) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
() I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED
() I NEVER SHOPLIFTED
() I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED
() I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(X) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME
() I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE
(X) I NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(X) I NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(X) I NEVER PISSED ON MYSELF
() I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(X) I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED
() I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(X) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(X) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE
() I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND
(X)I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
() I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL
(X) I NEVER BEEN SKYDIVING
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPSTER DIVING
(X) I NEVER PUT MY PANTS ON MY HEAD RANDOMLY
() I NEVER WALKED IN ON FRIENDS HAVING SEX
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN CAUGHT HAVING SEX
() I NEVER RECIVED ORAL SEX
() I NEVER MASTURBATED
() I NEVER HAVE RECIEVED BJ/LICKED OUT

Well I don’t know who actually will read this whole thing but hey what the hell ya know. I am just gonna say it. I love my boyfriend very much. I have loved him since the day I met him and I always will love him. There are many people who keep going after him. Trying to manipulate and change him. They are trying to separate him not just from me…they are trying to take him for themselves. I don’t know there reasons but I do know that it makes no sense for them to take him away from what he is doing. Unless he tells me otherwise, I am pretty sure that he is happy with me. I adore him with all my heart and I am sure that he adores me. We have been together so long that he just makes me so happy. My world revolves around my emotions. When I am around him..i am happy my life is good. When I am upset about what others are trying to do to take him away I start to get depressed and my life crumbles from underneath me. So I have decided that I will not let it crumble any more. So I am writing this for those people who are trying to take him away. I write it so that you know that I don’t truthfully care anymore. If he doesn’t leave me after the first 3 tries of yours give up. If he truly wants to leave me for you people I am sure that he would have left by now. But the thing is that he hasn’t he stays with me. Happy thriving and lasting. We are happy with eachother and that is all that matters to me. If it ends it will be because we have decided that we are not meant for eachother. So go ahead and try but I hope you people realize that he will do what he thinks is right. And I know him very well…when his mind is set…he does what he wants to. If he wanted to leave me for one of you…he would have. Just warning ya. I love you my babe [nightgoth] I promise to no longer get upset about this kinda bullshit and I will happily move on with life and deal with these things in a kind and content sort of manner. Bye now.