I am...: Me...
I fight...: For the hell of it.
I want...: Nothing cept to live.
I have...: Wronged people and gotten it back at me.
I learn...: Constantly.(unfortunetly)
I am happy...: When I'm with him.
I know...: That people dislike me.
I wish...: I was with him right now.
I hate....: Lycans.
I think...: About when my next assignment is due.
I miss...: My True Home.
I fear...: Failing the one I love.
I hear...: Pain in the other room.
I wonder...: What I will do with my life..
I regret...: Not always doing what I like.
I love...: [nightgoth].
I ache...: After my school day.
I always...: Am here.
I am not...: What everyone is looking for.
I don't...: Like the human race or Lycans.
I sing...: Around my friends.
I cry...: When I haven't seen him in a while.
I write...: Stuff go to Wiccan Commander's Writings to find out what.
I win...: Nothing.
I lose...: Almost everything.
I can...: Be who I want to be.
I can't...: Let my life pass me by.
I listen...: To the wind.
I need...: To be out of school.
I hope...: To rule once more.
I search...: For death.
I should...: Work harder.
I realize...: That people are annoying.

I am so tired... I have been sick for a good couple days. I had to miss school so now i am gonna have so much god dam work to make up my head might explode. My wonderful guy came over to take care of me and so I'm very happy. He even sat by my side and let me take a nap when I hadn't slept for two days. He cares so much and I love him more than life. Even when I'm sick and feeling icky he can always make me smile. What a wonderful guy I have.

I swim in the sea of death. I live in a hell so painful that no one can understand. I see your blood and I long to let it seep into the ground. I don't understand your pain but maybe when your blood coats my skin you will understand why I hurt...

A poem I wrote:

FREEDOM



Darkened souls follow you….

They tell me…what will happen…

When the land stops growing…

When our eyes loose they're glow….

Darkened souls see you…

They know me… when will it happen?

When the heart stops?

When your eyes watch me fall?

Who let you in?

When will the souls let go and no longer watch

As we lie together… alone…

Needy and asleep?

Oh such painful Darkened souls….
Why not let me go?


(Another one)
How am I supposed to explain how I feel to him?
How?
He won't understand if I tell him straight on...
He will tell me I'm ridiculous.
I don't want him to think that!
This sux....
What am I gonna say?
How? Why? This is horrible...
I told him it was cause......
But it's not.....
It just gives me the heeby jeebies!
Dam that lie!
How much I care.... How much I love...
How much won't happen if he...
and I don't... I refuse to say it...

(Some of my favoritist quotes from my friends!)
"like a bottle of cheap vodka"-The Gretzanator
"BVB, Brathwa vs. Bearcat"-Brathwa
"I can suck my toe, wanna see?"-Yar
"The pink sweater and cackies is the real me..."-Zra
"Herold is an evil obnoxious little man with no brain, no sense of time, and no sensibility"-McPhers.
"My nose looks like a flattened mushroom"-Brit.
"I love frisbee even though we are throwing flying discs that could decapitate us if we are not looking...*giggle*"-CC



and then...../

I had a conversation with myself today. And Get this. It was with myself! I totally rock don't I.....

Check out my wikis! Wiccan Commander's Pics Is always a good place to start Pls and thank you!

I took the quizzy testy thingy at What Kind of Elftowner are you? so I am....

More than likely, you are an average adult Elftowner!

How you came across the site is unimportant, but you've stayed here anyway. You check Elftown as often as you can, maybe more often than you should. You even check it at work, or did before your boss blocked it. You have participated in a few contest and you might even have a few badges to show for it. You have a good-sized relations list and you pretty much know your way around. You help other people when you can, and you have met some people you would call friends here.

 The tragic end to the squirrely castle..

Doggy vs Johnny

SAGITTARIUS
Spontaneous.
Horny.
Freak in Bed.
High sex appeal.
Rare to find.
Great when found.
Loves being in long relationships.

Johnny though he had Stewie Griffin pinned....

But when Johnny turned his back... Stewie was already to pounce..

 
Me I was bored and I wanted a wacked out hippie pic....
 
Believe it or not my room is clean in this pic....

I'm such a happy person....

One of my friends took this... I was depressed and looking out a window...
 another picture of me. Just another pic that I was messing around with... I like how this one turned out as well... even though i'm purple!!!!!!!!!!

Title: *for girls eyes ONLY*
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IF YOU'RE A BOY, EXIT THIS BULLETIN CUZ IT RUINS EVERYTHING








Girls only.......................................................................................


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GIRL TALK



Did you know kissing is healthy



It's good to cry



Chicken soup actually makes you feel better



94% of boys would love it if you sent them flowers








Lying is actually unhealthy



Only apply mascara to your top lashes



It's actually true, boys DO insult you when they like you!



89% of guys want YOU to make the 1st move
Ya but 99.99% of girls want guys to make the first move


Chocolate will make you feel better!



Most boys think it's cute when you say the wrong thing.



A good friend never judges.



A good foundation will hide hickeys!..not that you have any



Boys aren't worth your tears



We ALL love surprises!!



Now.... make a wish!



Wish REALLLLLLY hard!!!



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Congratulations!!



Your wish has just been received



repost this with the title *for girls eyes ONLY* in the next 15mins and...Your wish WILL BE GRANTED

""I'll kill any fucker who does this to my girl or any girl"



Guy"Can we have sex right now?"
Girl: "Can we do what?"
Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?"
Girl: "Um.....no."
Guy: "Why?"
Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......."
Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won' tell."
Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first."
Guy: "I'm not special to you?"
Girl: "You're my friend. That's all."
Guy: looks forward and keeps driving.



5 minutes pass.......



Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh.
Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me?"
Guy: tries to kiss her.
Girl: screams, "Would you stop."
Guy: continues trying.
Girl: moves to the back seat



Guy: parks on an abandoned street and gets in the backseat with the girl. Starts to kiss her.
Girl: pushes him off and scoots over, "Please, don't do this."
Guy: "Don't do what, I know you want it, I can see it in your eyes." Moves over to her and starts to unbutton her pants.
Girl: pushes him harder and says, "No, don't."
Guy: getting aggravated, punches her and tells her to stop "playing hard to get".
Girl: crying, continues to fight.
Guy: punches her harder, pulls her pants off, and holds her down.
Girl: screams as he penetrates her, "NO, please don't do this to me!"
Guy: puts his hand over her mouth.



An hour passes.........



Guy: pulls back and wipes himself off.
Girl: sits on the corner of the seat, sobbing.
Guy: looks at her and says, "You better not tell anybody about this. If you're really my friend, you won't tell anybody about this. You know I love you." He reaches out his hand to touch her cheek.
Girl: pulls back, "Just take me home, now."
Guy: says, "Alright." Gets in the front seat and drives her home.



2 months later.........



Girl: "Doctor, what's wrong with me. I haven't had my time of the month in 2 months."
Doctor: looks at her, "You haven't been having your "time" for a reason."
Girl: looks at him and says, "Why?" dreading the answer that she was sure to receive.
Doctor: "You are pregnant."
Girl: faints.



The story gets out that she is pregnant, and people start looking to the Guy. He claims that it isn't his because she was sleeping with every guy in the school(which was a lie). He goes to her and tells her, "I'm telling you, if you lie to people and say that I raped you, I'll kill you."



The Girl is completely devastated. First, he took her virginity and got her pregnant....then he lied about it. So completely depressed......the girl commits suicide by drug overdose.......





Girls, if this story touched you, repost it as "That's Fucked up"
Guys, if this story touched you, repost it as "I'll kill any fucker who does this to my girl or any girl"

If this doesn't make you sad, you have problems. Oh..and I'd suggest you get the tissues ready..:'(


boy-


hey, hun
 girl- hey


boy- i missed u at school 2day, y weren't u there?


girl- yeah, i had to go to the doctor.


boy- oh rele? y?


girl- oh nothin, annual shots, thats all.


boy- oh


girl- so wht did we do in math 2day?


boy- u didnt miss ne thing that great.......just lots of notes


girl- ok good


boy- yeah


girl- hey i have a question......


boy- ok, ask away


girl-........how much do u love me?


boy- u kno i love u more than anything


girl- yeah.....


boy- y did u ask?


girl-................>silence<..........


boy- is something wrong?


girl- no nothing at all


boy- good.


girl- ..............how much do u care about me?


boy- i would give u the world in a heartbeat if i could.


girl- u would?


boy- yeah.........of course i would sounding worried< is there something wrong??


girl- no, everythings fine......


boy- are u sure?


girl- yeah.


boy- ok.......i hope so.


girl- ..............would u die for me?


boy- i would take a bullet for u anyday, hun


girl- rele?


boy- anyday. now seriously, is there something wrong???


girl- no im fine, ur fine, we're fine, everyones fine.


boy- ............ok


girl-......................well i have to go ill c u 2morrow at school. boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.


girl- yeah, i love u 2, bye.


THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL:





boy- hey, have u seen my g/f 2day?


friend- no


boy- oh.


- she wasnt here yesterday either.


boy- i know, she was acting all wierd on the phone last nite.


friend- well dude u kno how gurls are sumtimes


boy- yeah........but not her.


friend- idk wht else 2 say, man.


boy- k well i gotta get 2 english, ill c ya after school.


friend- yeah i gotta get to science, ttyl.


THAT NIGHT:


-ring- -ring- -ring- -ring-


girl- hello?


boy- hey


girl- oh, hi.


boy- y weren't u at school 2day?


girl- uh.......i had another doctor appointment.


boy- are u sick?


girl- ..................um i have 2 go, my mom's callin on my other line. boy- ill wait. girl- it may take a while, ill call u later.


boy-........alright, i love u hun. very long pause<


girl- (with tear in her eye) look, i think we should break up.


boy- wht???


girl- its the best thing for us right now.


boy- y????


girl- i love u.
 click<



THE GIRL DOESNT COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS, AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE.


boy- hey dude


friend- hey


boy- whts up


friend- nothin, hey have u talked 2 ur ex lately?


boy- no


friend- so u didnt hear?


boy- hear wht? friend- um idk if i should be the one to tell u......


boy- dude, wtf tell me


friend- uh....call this number....433-555-3468


boy- ok............


BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL


-ring- -ring- -ring-



 voice- hello, suppam county hospital, this is nurse beckam.


boy- uh.......i must have the wrong number, im looking for my friend.


voice- what is her name, sir?


(boy gives info)


voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here. boy- rele? y? wht happened??? how is she???


voice- her room number is ..666, in building A, suite 3.


boy- WHT HAPPENED??!!!!


voice- plz come by sir and you can see her, goodbye.


boy- WAIT! NO! *dial tone*


BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..666, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.


boy- omg are u ok??


girl- ..................


boy- sweetie!! talk to me!!


girl- i..........


boy- u wht?? U WHT???


girl- i have cancer and im on life support


boy- .....................>breaks into tears<......................


girl- they're taking me off 2night


boy- y??


girl- i wanted 2 tell u but i couldnt


boy- y didnt u tell me????


girl- i didnt want 2 hurt u.


boy- u could never hurt me


girl- i just wanted 2 c if u felt bout me as the same i felt bout u.


boy- ?


girl- i love u more than anything, i would give u the world in a heartbeat. i would die for you and take a bullet for you.


boy- ...........


girl- dont be sad, i love u n ill always be here w/u


boy- then y'd u break up w/me?


nurse- young man, visiting hours are over.


BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES.


but wht the boy didn't kno is that the girl only asked him those questions so



 she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up w/him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.


NEXT DAY


the boy is found dead with a gun in his hand..with a note in the



 other... THE NOTE SAID:


i told her i would take a bullet for her.... just like she said she would die for me...


Repost this. If you dont, you have no heart, your emotionless ........... Dont be a dumbass. Repost it.

www.electric-manga.com

go to it, worship it.... love it for eternaty....

92% percent of the teen population would be dead if Abercrombie and Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. Repost this if you are one of the 8% who would be laughing your ass off.

This has been such a long day... It started with my boring ass art class, but I'm getting better I suppose. Alas.. I am tired from that and procede to Physics where people like to put batteries on their tongues!!!!!!!!!!!!! AaaaH! Oh well. Next was English... what can i say.... English is so BORING!!!!!!!!! Then last but not least lets make the day better and go to math were the teacher asks obnoxious questions and you either know the answer or you don't.... School = death

My spanish words that I have a test on today:
el articulo-article
el libro-book
la comedia-play,comedy
el cuento-short story
el ensayo-essay
la novela-novel
la obra-work
la obra de teatro-work of a theater, play
la poesia-poetry
el poema-poem
el autor/la autora-author
el escritor/la escritora-writer
el/la novelista-novelist
el/la periodista-journalist
locutor-news broadcaster
reportero-reporter
la computadora-computer
el ordenador-orderer
la maquina-computer
la maquina de escribir-typewriter
la prensa-press
la entrevista-interview
el diario-newspaper
el periodico-newspaper article
la revista-magazine

Someone sent this to me I can't remember who did but ya.
Honestly have you ever.....
-Done the chicken dance?
Yes
-Flown a kite(well)?
No but I did fly one really badly
-Jumped off a building?(not a tall one so u go splat)
Ya once a two story but I landed in like a ten foot high pile of leaves
-Done something you regret?(like being a messed up psycho)
Yes... say no more.
-Met a wierdo like [the pallbearer]
Of course.. unfortunetly

Have you ever sat around and realized that your life is a mess of pain and destruction? Have you ever truly understood how meaningless existence really is? Oh well.... guess I am just sorta depressed at the second.... Oh and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!!! I LOVE YOU!

I'm bored.... Alone... sad... depressed... anxious.. angry... and lonesome....