I wish the world was Smaller.
[<3]
Yesterday; Sleeping in his arms. [<3]
Today; Alone in a Cold Bed.
Staring out into The Big Nothing.
IT'S TOMORROOOOOOOO
Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck. FUCK.
YEAH! I fixed the LAST Christmas
present for this year. I think.
It was about time. I'm always so
late. Well well. It's only
once a year. Wonderful time.
This will be the [Best Christmas
Ever <33333]
When I saw you I could not Breathe.
It was something special. Unreal.
Will that happen again? Can it?
I hope so.
Do You Want To Marry Me?
For Better and for Worse.
I'm doubting the love I have for you.
I just don't feel it anymore. Maybe
it's no longer there. I feel awful.
I know I shouldn't feel this way, I
know these words shouldn't be written.
Not here in this diary, not anywhere
at all. Not by me.
Everytime I say I love you, you know
I do a lot. Am I only trying to convince
myself of it? That I do love you. Or is
it what I'm feeling in my heart? I don't
know anymore. Maybe this happend because
of all around you and me. Because of all
the Confusion. Because you obviously
seem to be doubting too. It's been so
long since you showed me anything. Showed
me that some of your feelings still are
alive. Playing in your heart.
Maybe what is hard it to let go. But when
we have, maybe all is easy. Maybe all
feels more right than this. Maybe it's
what we need. Maybe we aren't ment to be.
But why does it feel that way? Like we
are ment to be but still not. Like it's
right but still not. It drives me Crazy.
When the situation seem to get better,
why does these feelings come? Why not
when it was bad? A
smile one your face. This is what I want,
isn't it?
I don't want to feel this way. Feels like
I'm cheating on you, without doing anything.
It doesn't feel good. I need to see that
love Darling, before my feelings die away.
Like a Rose.
[A Rose Without Any Powers To Life.]
But I think I do love you.
I've been to town today,
Tha Big Town.
All the [ Christmas ] presents
are done.
I'm so Proud.