i miss cody...i feel like crying, but i've got no more tears left. i just wish that i could be with him. even tho i'm with my family, something is missing. he completes me and without him, i feel...empty. i've been dreaming about him every night and i just hate waking up...i don't know what to do, i haven't seen him for over two months. the crazy thing is, ever since we started going out, i've been faithful...i've never been faithful for this long...and i'm not even thinking about other guys...just cody...and i just know that i love him...but i don't like being seperated from him...i feel so alone...

yesterday, was quite weird. to start off my day i was thinking of my love, Cody, but late last night i ran into a friend of mine. he was really upset and i didn't know what to do. we started walkin around and he just all of a sudden opened up to me and told me everythin that was going on, and how he was gonna go and kill some people. i was scared but eventually i took him home and we talked for hours, well more like he talked and i listened. but evenually i talked him out of it, and he even went over and made peace with them...i was amazed...oh and then afterwards, he gave me a puppy beany baby, i was happy...but, you never know what kinda difference your gonna make by just going outside and walkin around...i love helping people, and i just don't know why, it just makes me feel really good and stuff...

i'm in love, i'm in love, i'm in love!!! yep! i think he's the one. i really hope he is, i love him so much and he fills me with the feeling that i'm loved, cared about, and a whole lot of other things that i can't even begin to explain...and even tho we're not going out, i don't want to see anyone but him. i hope that i can go see him soon...cause he lives all the way in Moody, which is like 3 hours away...he even says he loves me!! yep, so now i'm in the bestest mood ever just cause i'm thinkin about him...*daydreams*....

well today i was talking to this awsome guy. he is too good to be true...he's dreamy, sweet, funny, nice, caring, fun to be with, he calls me, he even said he likes me, you would thing with all of these qualities that he would be ugly or something, but he's not! he's gorgeous!!! well anyways, he called me, and i wasn't home. so i called him back and he didn't answer, but he called me back after 10pm. we talked until his phone died, then he called me from his home phone a few minutes later at like 2am. then we talked until i got introuble for being on the phone. we ended up talking for like 6 hours. i think that i'm falling in love with him, which is scary for me. I don't want to get hurt again...but i feel so weird, i've never felt this strongly about a person before...i really do think that i love him...