I LUBBELS my new lighter. its square with the Ace of hearts on it, and the heart in the middle lights up *dances* its tray hott.. and no damnit! i didnt drink the water in Mexico! gah >.<

ewwwwww *shudders*

okies peeps, buhbai im off to take a test across town, get some bloodwork and go to a play.


happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me. happy birthday to... meeeeee, happy birthday to me!

She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellowed to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.

One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impaired the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o'er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling place.

And on that cheek, and o'er that brow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!

(she walks in beauty, lord byron)

sooo im home.. and my birthday is in 5 days.. but im about to leave to go to a party for a friend for a lil while

im having kind of a weird week with things.. oooo and another bloodwork and nuroglogist appointment really soon (like on monday soon) im kind of worried about that (even though i should be used to it)
but im mostly worried about a person who is having trouble and dosent talk to me

welp.. im off to take another vicoden and shower bb in a lil while (wooooooo i love that stuff)

ill be back tomorrow im off to stay the night with my lil babe and bubba, everyone have a goodnight bye

<3

may not seem like anything to you but for someone who has never seen it...

OMG!!!!!! its snowing!!...

leaveing buhbai

And when I shall die take him and cut him up in little stars\\**¤•, and he will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will fall in ♥//love with night and pay no worship to the garish sun.

>>//XI have no thought at all about my own reward.
I really didn't come here of my own accord.
Just don't say I'm ... damned for all time.|x\\

boo, burbur, ashleah, leah, sleah, brat, hey you, pumpkin, pumpkinhead, ashy...see >.< these are just the names cheeswiz is called by her mother >.< 

No matter what a stripper tells you
There's no sex in the Champagne Room.. NONE!
Oh there's CHAMPAGNE in the Champagne Room
But you don't want champagne.. you want sex
And there's NO sex.. in the Champagne Room

so today i saw nick and i jumped him while he tackle hugged me... then jillian licked my cheek and irvine is sooo emo now... im gonna go hang out with them this weekend *dances then wipes off cheek* so yeah^^ i had fun i guess.. oo we found these crushes but they were to tall for me so nick had to lift me up so i could jump onto the crushes lol.. anyways hes taller then me now :'( and has surfer hair *falls over laughing* 

i burned a heart into my wrist because.... there it can never break and i dont wear it on my sleeve...

Your soul to mine

our powers combine.

The third fullfills,

our strength divine.

A harmony of spirit,

that will never erase,

three as one...

things fall into place.

two random poems a friend wrote ....




I love you easily, forever too,
When I'm happy, the cause is you.
When true love comes, do not delay,
Take hold before it goes away.
Because to me love is a prize,
And I can see it in your eyes,
I love you dear, I love you true,
And all my love, I give to you.



As time comes
As time goes
My love for you
Still seems to grow
With each new day
I love and care more
Thank you for letting me in
For opening that door
My love for you
Isn't easy to measure
But with my heart
It's you that I treasure
With you at my side
Life seems so right
Wishing as days go by
I was holding you every night
Our relationship is special
It's very important to me
By my actions and words
That I hope you see
I know Im not perfect
I have never claimed to be
But I hope that is okay
I do try hard for you and me
As the seasons come and go
And all this time goes by
I wish for one thing only
That it will always be you and I

from the book The Last Templar by Raymond Khoury pg 291

"That to know oneself, at the deepest level, was also to know God--that is, by looking within oneself to find the sources of joy, sorrow, love, and hate, one would find God."

(sorry i just liked it so :P)