February 20

I have started a new exercise plan. I plan to excercise everyday. I don't think it should be too hard, since I already exercise three times a week. But the only thing is at the rec I don't really wannna use the machines, and even if i do, i still can't just bring something to study, because I am a math/cs, I do problems and use computers. That makes it more difficult come time that I really need to study. But, oh, well. I did go to the rec today and worked on sit ups, and push ups. My goal is to get 30 pushups on my next PT test, which is March 6(only two weeks!!).

I went to swords. It was fun, especially since I was complimented in my reset stance when people press an attack on me!:) Then I had tea with colin and sam. I love spending time with friends. Then I had tutoring, so I learned something, making the time spent with my friends more fun, since I knew that I was still going to learn stuff that night.

Things are looking up. I guess I underestimate the intelligence of others as well. Things are easier when talking to someone who is smart enough to understand what to do in certain situations. No uncomfortableness. It makes things easier for me and for my friends who are more than happy to talk to him and tell him to leave me alone, well not be so close. But there is no need.:)

February 19

Jill lokced herself out of our room this morning. So, she called me when I was at Jeff's and asked if I could come back and unlock the door. It was kinda funny, but I know I will end up doing that some day too. We lock our door because we don't like people coming in without knocking or when we aren't here. So, on the weekend when April is gone, since she doesn't like the door locked because she will forget her keys, we lock our door when we leave. But it has been a fun day so far. I spent most of it with Jeff.

February 18

Today was fun. I went to the rec for like an hourish with Tracy, and we had a fun work out. Then we showered and ate lunch with my roommate Jill. Then walmart to buy ice cream for our dark angel marathon. But Jill and I ended up getting a pretty red beta fish. It is so pretty, but we don't know what to name it yet. Anyway, then Tracy and I watched Sin City and Dark Angel until 11:00p.m. It was so much fun, we ate cookies, ice cream and ordered a pizza.

February 17

It's Friday!!! I love Friday's. All of my homework is done for the weekend!!! And I hope this weekend is fun. I am starting to be able to enjoy food again. Today my roommates helped me take out some fruit. I have two bananas and lots of cherries that were smuggled out in the bottom of a few ice cream cones. I think I am going to make a banana and cherry drink. I wanted strawberries, but I just couldn't smuggle them out, there was too much juice and I didn't have my mug. Ihave no idea what it will taste like, but it will be fun.

I wonder if I have changed the way people thought I would, when I came to college. I know I was really innocent coming in, and now I am a whole lot less innocent, but I don't regret anything I have done, and I know most people have done more than I have. I just know I didn't want to be the person everyone thought I would turn into. And I know I have done a few things even my friends couldn't imagine me doing.

How come people underestimate how intelligent someone else is. I feel like people think I am dumb. I am not dumb, but I sometimes don't understand what you are saying unless it is plain and simple. Well only when it comes to relationship/flirting stuff, but when it is book stuff I pretty much understand whatever that person is saying. But sometimes people will write something somewhat cryptic and think that I don't understand, but I do.
 

February 16

Today is Melissa's Birthday. She is my wonderful sister and she is turning 18. She is getting old. Swords today was boring, they played chess. I napped. I used my blender for the first time today. I just mixed some ice, cranberry juice and a few apples. It tasted like cranberry falvored apple sauce. Not great, but definatly fun.

Things have been difficult, with certain person. But my friends see and try to help. I thank them, but this person doesn't see what is happening so things don't work out as planned.

February 15

I got to come back today. I love being back in the dorm. I feel so cozy here. I had to get my braces tightened today, and I feel it already. So, please be nice to me...

I don't know what to do. There is this guy who likes me, but I have a boyfriend, so I don't like him back except as a friend. So, things are complicated. I want to keep him as a friend, but I don't want things to be akward. And I told my boyfriend(big mistake) and it is taking everything to keep him from sending the guy a message or threat or worse. HELP!!

February 14

Today, has been interesting. I had to come home. I have an orthodontist appointment tomarrow. And yes that is how I always spell tomarrow. Well, thankfully Tracy my good friend at Truman decided to come home with me, and share the four and an half hour drive.