February 26
Didn't do much today. I slept in, did homework then went to eat dinner with Jeff, Olga, and Remington. Then did more homework, watched Van Helsing and went to bed.
:( Howard died.
February 25
Today Tracy and I did out Military Science homework. Then a lot of people went to walmart, it was fun. Jill and I got more fish. This time we got some fruit tetras and a goldfish. The goldfish is named Howard and the tetras are Hermie and Hurr.
I baked the best cookies ever. they were fantastic and my boyfriend really liked to eat them. then he came downstaitrs and looked into my eyes and completely fell for me all over again. (haha not really...Jeff wrote that)
The party went well, but I left early. There was too many people I didn't know. But Adrien, Tracy, and I made smoothies for everyone. They were good. Jeff had a bad night. He was supposed to go to a play for a class he is in, but the teacher e-mailed him the wrong time so he wasn't able to get into the play. Now he may get points off his grade.
February 24
My fish died this morning. I am a little sad, because I don't know why it died. But my roommate and I will get more fish this weekend. Maybe today will get better. I still have sword practice. And Logic. Logic is always fun. I think it is my favorite class. And my first class of the morning only lasted 15 minutes. But I have a class after so I just went to the computer lab.
The rest of my day was good. I didn't do much. Swords was fun. We did my favorite game. Free for all and when the person who gets you out, gets out, then you can come back in.
February 23
Today has been a good day. I got to visit Adrien and my old but faithful friends. We are planning something to get us all together again. I hope it works out.
Swords was fun tonight. There was a lot of fighting. And I stayed in the ring and fought everyone and beat everyone once then Matt came in with the staff and beat me. I even got my sword knocked out of my hand which is really strange and almost never happens. But I had a good night. Ryan ended up getting close enough to grab my sword handle, and did it. I have to work on that. That was a strange situation.
My fish looks sick. I don't want it to die. Although I had to change its water today, for the first time. It looks really stressed out.
A moment
Everything stops
We pause
Both speechless
Being caught by surprise
Confusion
Pass between us
Just for a moment
Everything is silent
We are close
But not touching
Neither of us knows
What to do next
Just for a moment
Anything could happen
Then I step back
The moment is lost
Everything is normal again
But in truth
Nothing will be normal again
February 22
PT was pretty difficult this morning. We had to run up a nice size hill after a 30ish minute workout. May not sound hard, but I guess I am just not in the shape I need to be in.
Later:
Today has been pretty awesome. I talked to one of my professors today about my future career plans. He happened to go on the path that I want to go on, and was being really supportave, and willing to write me letters of recommendation
I talked to Emily today!! My old roomie. She is planning to come visit over her spring break which is a week after ours. I am so excited!! We already have plans to eat in the other dorm cafeterias, because we didn't eat in them when she was here and that was like our semester goals that were never fulfulled.
February 21
I have broken my exercise plan already. I was supposed to go to the rec at 9 this morning, and it is 11 and I haven't gone. But I am still going to go today, at 3:30.(*crossing fingers*)
Yup. I went to the rec around 3:20 supposed to be with Jeff, but he didn't show unitl 3:45, which was alright, because we lift so I was warmed up and ready to go.
Swords was fun. More because Zac and I were trying some bendy things. Well, I was trying and he was doing. I had an average swords night. Then I studied Calculus with Bethel. I don't think I helped him much, but I did help my roomie Jill with CS stuff. and I actually did help.
February 20
I have started a new exercise plan. I plan to excercise everyday. I don't think it should be too hard, since I already exercise three times a week. But the only thing is at the rec I don't really wannna use the machines, and even if i do, i still can't just bring something to study, because I am a math/cs, I do problems and use computers. That makes it more difficult come time that I really need to study. But, oh, well. I did go to the rec today and worked on sit ups, and push ups. My goal is to get 30 pushups on my next PT test, which is March 6(only two weeks!!).
I went to swords. It was fun, especially since I was complimented in my reset stance when people press an attack on me!:) Then I had tea with colin and sam. I love spending time with friends. Then I had tutoring, so I learned something, making the time spent with my friends more fun, since I knew that I was still going to learn stuff that night.
Things are looking up. I guess I underestimate the intelligence of others as well. Things are easier when talking to someone who is smart enough to understand what to do in certain situations. No uncomfortablen
February 19
Jill lokced herself out of our room this morning. So, she called me when I was at Jeff's and asked if I could come back and unlock the door. It was kinda funny, but I know I will end up doing that some day too. We lock our door because we don't like people coming in without knocking or when we aren't here. So, on the weekend when April is gone, since she doesn't like the door locked because she will forget her keys, we lock our door when we leave. But it has been a fun day so far. I spent most of it with Jeff.
February 18
Today was fun. I went to the rec for like an hourish with Tracy, and we had a fun work out. Then we showered and ate lunch with my roommate Jill. Then walmart to buy ice cream for our dark angel marathon. But Jill and I ended up getting a pretty red beta fish. It is so pretty, but we don't know what to name it yet. Anyway, then Tracy and I watched Sin City and Dark Angel until 11:00p.m. It was so much fun, we ate cookies, ice cream and ordered a pizza.
February 17
It's Friday!!! I love Friday's. All of my homework is done for the weekend!!! And I hope this weekend is fun. I am starting to be able to enjoy food again. Today my roommates helped me take out some fruit. I have two bananas and lots of cherries that were smuggled out in the bottom of a few ice cream cones. I think I am going to make a banana and cherry drink. I wanted strawberries, but I just couldn't smuggle them out, there was too much juice and I didn't have my mug. Ihave no idea what it will taste like, but it will be fun.
I wonder if I have changed the way people thought I would, when I came to college. I know I was really innocent coming in, and now I am a whole lot less innocent, but I don't regret anything I have done, and I know most people have done more than I have. I just know I didn't want to be the person everyone thought I would turn into. And I know I have done a few things even my friends couldn't imagine me doing.
How come people underestimate how intelligent someone else is. I feel like people think I am dumb. I am not dumb, but I sometimes don't understand what you are saying unless it is plain and simple. Well only when it comes to relationship/f
February 16
Today is Melissa's Birthday. She is my wonderful sister and she is turning 18. She is getting old. Swords today was boring, they played chess. I napped. I used my blender for the first time today. I just mixed some ice, cranberry juice and a few apples. It tasted like cranberry falvored apple sauce. Not great, but definatly fun.
Things have been difficult, with certain person. But my friends see and try to help. I thank them, but this person doesn't see what is happening so things don't work out as planned.
February 15
I got to come back today. I love being back in the dorm. I feel so cozy here. I had to get my braces tightened today, and I feel it already. So, please be nice to me...
I don't know what to do. There is this guy who likes me, but I have a boyfriend, so I don't like him back except as a friend. So, things are complicated. I want to keep him as a friend, but I don't want things to be akward. And I told my boyfriend(big mistake) and it is taking everything to keep him from sending the guy a message or threat or worse. HELP!!
February 14
Today, has been interesting. I had to come home. I have an orthodontist appointment tomarrow. And yes that is how I always spell tomarrow. Well, thankfully Tracy my good friend at Truman decided to come home with me, and share the four and an half hour drive.