This is more awkward than having sex with a rhinosaurus that doesnt love you anymore...
"Why wont you look at me during...??" *cries*





Family Guy rules...

think ive(myself)have put a meaning to the word bordom let me tell ya ok! here it goes.....
1.we all like to talk on the phone right...Ofcourse were teens We'll talk on the phone to our friends and tell them how our days been or what weve been doing and so but reasently Ive had nothing to do therefore theres nothing to tak about on the phone on anywhere.....so out of habit ill call my friends and expect to talk but nothing,I say nothing at alland that leaves us with a really long akward silence....and we all hate that....well yea...so...ran out of things to say.....see-ya...
oh..almost forgot one more thing....if i call you and dont talk much sorry its just out of habit....
(this is the most pointless diary entery ever written)

XIII~HIGH~VIII

1.Who are you?


I'm a fucking GODDESS. rofl



2. Are we friends?


I think so =\



3. When and how did we meet?


Here I do believe... XD



4. Do you have a crush on me?


Why yes, but shhh...you can't know



5. Would you kiss me?


Yes



6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.


Ummm...random penguin of DOOM...because...I fucking said so.



7. Describe me in one word.


WickedawesomefuckingWHOOT



8. What was your first impression?


You kick ass



9. Do you still think that way about me now?


Totally



10. What reminds you of me?


A pony.



11. If you could give me anything what would it be?


I'd tackle hug you XD



12. How well do you know me?


Not very I don't think =\



13. When's the last time you saw me?


Umm...



14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?


Not really



15. Are you going to put this on your house and see what I say about you?

So much stuff in my house...

92% percent of the teen population would be dead if Abercrombie and Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. Repost this if you are one of the 8% who would be laughing your ass off.





Frankly, are teens THAT idiotic?

"props melina"

too kat....
1. i dont hate you
2. i never would ever say anything as fucked as you have about me, to you
3. i never did anything to hurt you in the first place
4. you were actually one of the worst gf's i ever had i felt like you hated me the entire time.and everytime you ever saw me when we were together you would walk away
5. knowing that still know that i tried everyhing i could to try and help face it you are negative (not me) maybe thats why i was so sad around you, huh?

yea so im a matrix freaks huh...fine i glad to know that you say shit behind my back...yea just because i wear dark glasses doesnt mean that i am a matrix freak they were actually persrcibed to me because my i eye are now photo sensitive and i have to wear them for 3 months so my eyes can heal...i want you to know that ive never said anything behind your back but when i saw garrets name on my visitor to my house i knew something was up...so i did some digging and found that youve been saying shit behind my bac and by the way thanks for chrushing my hopes after building them up you really know how to lead someone on...god youve became such a bitch i want you to realize what the fuck your doing....sorry i pisssed you off but it true

too many pathos to purge only one way to do it....
(i guess my weakness is that i care so much.......)

please just leave me be..

ive found out so much that people have been saying behind my back latly ...i like digging for information....it lets me know who i can trust or not.....i for everyones info i dont know if i can trust any of you anymore .....few of you wanted the old Nic back well here he is in the flesh a inconciderate,irrational,asshole,with way to much time on his hands and frankly right about now there's nothing HOLDING ME BACK from beating any random persons brains in that even trys to fuck with me or the 3 people i still trust
if any of you have anything to say to me anything you think i might want to know that you've said behind my back then by all means say it theres no harming me anymore than i already am......beside i allready know...and all of you can go to hell i dont care anymore if you want to say something to me ...then leave a message and i may answer... oh by the way this is how i was before i became the nice nic everyone grew to know ... this is teh Nic that doesnt care about anything the one that gave up along time ago and wishes everyone, everything to die i dont care about any of you (exception of one) right now i really dont want to be fucked with so just leave me alone i need sometime to myself,theres a few people i will still answer to (the 3 i mentioned before) they should know who they are....
                     -Nic

right now there's alot of things on my mind and ive been really sad latly and for that i apologize but the only reason why i apologize for how i feel (again)towards this: im beginning to give up on alot of things......just leave a comment and do as you wish ill be here for everyones little problems then in the end getting stomped on,and losing hold of all of my dreams.....why do the innocent suffer so...when all they ask for is tranquility....for really dont care anymore and have almost given up on life from this point forth whatever happens happens ...i already know ill lose again. but whatever...
         -Nic

melina heres alittle bit of advice for the way you feel about everyone changing ok...I know how you feel people come and go its really hard to deal with sometimes but you cant control peoples opinions or the way they see things its a part of life i know its fucked up but ....take it as it comes and live life to the fullest and have no regrets...thats what i came up with after i lost all of my friends my freshmen year for some reason rumors were spread about something (that i am to this day still oblivious to)
and one by one, day by day my dearest friends would turn on me like a male eagle to its offspring.its best not to worry about it people come and go its a part of life but if you find the one you wish to spend the rest of your life with then and only then be willing to fight for the love you feel towards that person(like i am now) but pathic ,childish quarrels like this should be the least of your problems.

Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again

Evanescent like the scent of decay
I was fading from the race
When in despair, my darkest days
Ran amok and forged her face
From the fairest of handmaidens to
A slick perverted wraith


Nymphetamine


Heaving midst narcissus
On a maledict blanket of stars
She was all three wishes
Sex, sex, sex


A lover hung on her death row
I was hooked on her disease
Highly strung like Cupid's bow
Whose arrows hungered meat
And the blinding flare of passion
In the shade of narrow streets
Where their poison never rationed
All the tips they left in me


Two tracks
Bric-a-brac
Something passed between us
Like a bad crack
Upward-lit
I'd met another kind


Of rat
In fact
With every rome inside me
Licked and ransacked
She haunted at the corners of my mind


In black
Cataracts
Wouldn't whitewash away
Her filthy smoke stack
She burnt me like a furnace
For my future suicide


Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A 'V'' of black swans
On with hope to the grave
All through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones


Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again


Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key


Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine


Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl


Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt


Fold to my arms
Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance her to the moon
As we did in those golden days


Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay


Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your holiness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key


Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine


Sunsetter
Nymphetamine (Nymphetamine)
None better
Nymphetamine


Two tracks
Bric-a-brac
Something passed between us
Like a bad crack
Upward-lit
I'd met another kind


Of rat
In fact
With every rome inside me
Licked and ransacked
She haunted at the corners of my mind


In black
Cataracts
Wouldn't whitewash away
Her filthy smoke stack
She burnt me like a furnace
For my future suicide

Evanescent like the scent of decay
I was fading from the race
When in despair, my darkest days
Ran amok and forged her face
From the fairest of handmaidens to
A slick perverted wraith


Nymphetamine


Heaving midst narcissus
On a maledict blanket of stars
She was all three wishes
Sex, sex, sex


A lover hung on her death row
I was hooked on her disease
Highly strung like Cupid's bow
Whose arrows hungered meat
And the blinding flare of passion
In the shade of narrow streets
Where their poison never rationed
All the tips they left in me


Two tracks
Bric-a-brac
Something passed between us
Like a bad crack
Upward-lit
I'd met another kind


Of rat
In fact
With every rome inside me
Licked and ransacked
She haunted at the corners of my mind


In black
Cataracts
Wouldn't whitewash away
Her filthy smoke stack
She burnt me like a furnace
For my future suicide


Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A 'V'' of black swans
On with hope to the grave
All through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones


Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again


Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key


Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine


Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl


Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt


Fold to my arms
Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance her to the moon
As we did in those golden days


Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay


Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your holiness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key


Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine


Sunsetter
Nymphetamine (Nymphetamine)
None better
Nymphetamine


Two tracks
Bric-a-brac
Something passed between us
Like a bad crack
Upward-lit
I'd met another kind


Of rat
In fact
With every rome inside me
Licked and ransacked
She haunted at the corners of my mind


In black
Cataracts
Wouldn't whitewash away
Her filthy smoke stack
She burnt me like a furnace
For my future suicide

Ive gotten to the point where im saying fuck my past because its holding me back from everythingi want to do and its really fucking me up inside so,im leaving my past behind me(which means i may change alittle i hope it doesnt freak out kat)I geuss you could say my new catch phase is fuck the bull-shit from now on if someone comes up to me with a problem they can go figure it out on there own because not only do you learn from but you'll gain valuable life experience....No hard feeling anyone and no this does not mean im closed for advice.

THOSE WHO WANNA KNOW WHAT I FEEL LIKE INSIDE....THIS EXPLAINS ALOT ABOUT HOW I FEEL IF ANYONE CARES....


*GOODBYE*SR-71


I'm everything you know
You wonder friend of foe
I'm the burning in your throat when you swallow
But you spit me out
Your stomach full of doubt
And still you're faking every word out of your mouth
But you won't let go
It's all about control
Understand I'm born to lead you will follow
I don't wanna stay
I'm running away
Don't you hear me when i say
Goodbye...so long...nice try...I'm gone
You don't like being second
I don't like being wrong
I won't forget the way you made me feel
I won't regret running away from here
You think you see the world well you see nothing
Time is only gonna make it worse in the end
So I'll say goodbye again
Now it's there to see
You've forgiven me
Ever since I was the prince among theives
So you hold me down
Strip away my crown
Can't contain me knowing all the truth I found
Always thinking small
Helping me to fail
Now you're jealousy and hate consumes us all
I don't wanna stay
I'm running away
Don't you hear me when i say
Don't hit me with you fears
I won't fit with your ideas
You missed whatI'm about
I earned my way out
And in the end
I'll say goodbye again