Green...
by john nelson

I dream,
of the far off lands,
my heart longs for,
i ache for ancestry,
she aches for me,
to be with her,
the thought,
of never living,
my life,
drains my soul,
never being where i wanna be,
or who i wanna be with,
never trying my desires,
or never getting over my fears,
i am green,
for how cool i wanna be,
for the life it represents,
for the places i wanna go to,
for the envy of those who have gone,
i am green for the beginning of life,
and i am green because,
i am a son of earth,
she wants me to explore her,
to know her good sides and bad,
she wants me to grow,
like the grass upon her bossum,
she wants me to love her to,
the very fullest,
but i am stuck,
i am imprisoned by limitations,
and by money,
and power,
and fear,
and greed,
society,
holds me in my place,
and i dont know if i can break free.....

so yeah i was getting angry at my bf josh because we had broken off our engagement a couple days ago, for reason i dont feel like getting into but if ya want ta know just ask, but anywho and then i brought it up that josh always talks about how he wants to marry me and how he should just ask. and he was goin to at a dinner we had planned, but since he told me that didnt happen. and then tonight we hung out with his co-workers and i said to josh wouldnt it be funny if you were to propose to me tonight and i proceeded and lol i said dont do that it would be embarrasing and he put the rings away lol i felt soo bad but anywho i think in a ways its funny what do you think?

wow this place is cool, my boyfriend showed me this and i am a huge fantasy fan. he just doent know how much lol. so if ya have any pointers for me then hey always glad to receive them