OMG... can't sleep... i have work tomorrow, opening at 8 and I CAN'T SLEEP! I know i need sleep.. i have so much work and revision to do.. it's crazy though half of me is worrying and the other half is saying FUCK IT ALL! I haven't really seen my friends in weeks, haven't been out since half term.. spending most of easter at an intensive revision course.. and my Jan results were so bad i actually cried...
And ontop of that i'm starting to hate being single and the way i look and how bloody shy i am. Yeah fun times... anyway i have the Hoosiers and manga. I wish i could go back to year 11, best year of my life. Infact lower school were the best years of my life then i joined 6th form and things seem to have fallen appart completely. I don't know who i am anymore.. i feel like i have no confidence, like i'm just waiting for everyone to desert me, i seem to expect everyone to hate me.. I'm surprised when people are nice to me, i kinda feel un-human.. if that makes sense.. like i'm not really here..

what is it with people waking me up on a saturday morning?? don't they understand the idea of a LIE IN????
*rolls eyes* went to bed late last night becuase i was really untired o_o and was woken up at half eight this morning by my mother... who had had to sign for my prom dress which arrived this morning and was so excited she had to run upstairs and throw it and another parcel (A gothic literature companion for english) at me. So i was woken up by being hit by a large book... great =___= lol my family are mad sometimes.. and i had to get up too becuase she wanted to see me try the dress on (which is awesome btw i LOVE it! Can't wait until prom.. which is about 3 months away <_<). Anywho i've had a boring day typing up history notes and doing homework... and now i'm hungry! TOAST! and tea... i'm obsessed with toast and tea at the moment.. straaange..

Okay i have to write this here because it's so hilarious and a great insight into my family!
Me and my brothers, mark and lewis are sat on the sofa waiting for mum to get off the phone so we can watch some tv.
Lewis: I'm a werewolf
Me: I'm a vampire
silence
Mark: I'M A TREE!
me: a werewolf, a vampire and a tree? our parents must have been strange *pause* a wooden vampire and a wooden werewolf!
Mark: That basket was once my friend! *attacks lewis*
Lewis: Mark stop it! You're not treebeard!
Mark: *silence*... I'm not treebeard... I'm TREEHEAD!

oh dear that made me laugh so much... i love my brothers.. XD

Now he's reciting Eddie Izzard, ahh dear!

Oh yeah mark is 16.. yet he put the car seat back flat on the way to kickboxing and made rocket sounds all the way there... i wonder about him!

*sigh* sometimes i think the only thing keeping me going is my stubborness... I keep trying and trying.... and i just end up failing and failing over and over.. it's like living in a nightmare, building my hopes up only to repeatedly have them destroyed. Yet still i keep going, i think i'm getting resigned to it now, i'm never going to achieve what i want but i'm always going to try... hows that for a depressing prospect. I wish i'd talk to someone there's so much i could say, probably need to say, but i don't know the right person... hopeless romantic.. >.<

CBA

okaay i'm online for once in a millenium... anywho i just wanted to ask your opinions becuase i went home sick today (THAT time of the month) but the thing is i've been feeling constantly tired at the moment and i have had a bit of a cold and i am AMAZINGLY busy but seriously i was knackered today and i had 7 hours sleep... then there's these pain attacks i keep having, like stabbing in my side, it happened today and i felt like being sick and crying it was so bad... but i don't want to over react and i'm not keen on doctors.. should i ignore it and put it down to being over tired or make an appointment to see my doctor? (i'd really rather not... i haven't seen a doctor since i was 12... 5 years ago..)

OMG EYE ACHE!

okay update:
The random things section shall be update whenever i feel the need.
The monthly books and films section shall be updated soon... as soon as i can read the other of the two books that may be my book of the month (my brother has it) and when i get a chance to see a few new films.
There may be some new stuff on my page... as soon as i think of anything worth putting there and as soon as i have the time!

Rant:
OMG! I'm knackered, 10 hour shift at work and then i had to come home and do the washing up =___= and my mum says i do nothing and am self centred =___= Anywho today was a fairly good day, a guy came in and asked for a "mango and passionfruit squishy" i struggled not to laugh in his face! work was workish.. i got a frog! XD and i saved a frog. Yes I GET TO LIE IN TOMORROW for the first time in a month! And i was going to say more but i really need to loo... XD so.. i'm off for now! I'll answer my messages too!
Hope you're all well!
*kisses*

I don't use my diary anymore :o lol oh well...

round up:
I'm in switzerland atm leaving for Italy tomorrow (randomness)
My AS's were a bit of a fail but meh i'm not that bothered! Worst come to worst i'll manage somehow!
Uhh yeah that's it really... moving over here soon and tbh i'm really really excited now, it's an awesome place! Just had a brilliant thunderstorm, forked lighting and everything! I was sitting out on the balcony watching it! There was one the other night too... we were eating dinner and there was a flash (lighting hit the crane infront of our flat!) and there was a massive bang that frightened me half to death and caused me to yell "BLOODY HELL!" at my mother! XD XD
We got a wii too which is AWEZOME! all of my family have been playing on it obsessively... we got wii sports and wii play which are both really good games and causes everyone to laugh at my completely hopeless golf! Then we got mario carts which is really good! ^_^ I luffs it.. but it's gotta stay in switzerland =( OH and the outdoor swimming pool turns into an ice rink in winter *dances* we're coming back for christmas and i can't wait to visit the christmas market. Talking of markets me and my mum were in Zurich today doing a bit of window shopping coz we got bored of packing (which i still haven't finished <_<) anyways there was a medieval market on and it was awesome! There was a really forge set up in this square and sword makers and everything. All chatting away in german... it was so surreal! Next year i'm going to go and get myself a medieval gown! <3 *nods* On another side note i've been impressed with my german and how much i know! It's going to be great when i'm fluent!
So yeah that's about everything i think... i gotz money though! Holiday pay from work <3 <3
So yeah going back to school should be fun! And having a winter shopping trip! I'm going for the layered, jumper and jeans look this year! (inspired by my new Espirit jumper my mum got me today!)

omg my diary is failing at the moment but my entries from the past few months are really amusing me! XD XD so yeah!

Ah diary... i just feel like a random ramble... so here goes! ^_^

well what's going on in my life?
*I've got a job and i'm really enjoying it, the pay is good and i'm saving some cash!
*I'm going to switzerland for a couple of weeks at the end of august which should be cool! And i'll be moving out there in the next year (just not sure when atm!) which i'm also really excited about! Tbh i think i've grown up a bit too quick and i need a change, some more independance and a bit of excitement. So yay to having to learn German and meet new people! =D
*I'm playing alot of video games which is really messing up my eye sight... >.<
*I'm really happy generally with myself, my friends and what's going on in my life! So yay!
*I've got a gym membership and am making sure to go 2 - 3 times a week and i think i'm going to try and get some swimming in too! =D (toning up my body before i don my bikini in switzerland)
*I'm going to get my hair COMPLETELY restyled and coloured on friday! ^_^

That's about it really! Life id goooood! =D The only bad thing is the amount of messages in my inbox! XD

I just remembered a conversation from the other night that made me laugh:
me: why is a fridge called a fridge?
dad: it's a refrigerator
me: what is?
dad: fridge that's what it's short for
me: oh
lewis: does that mean that it was fridged?
me: *laughs my head off over the word fridged*
dad: *seriosuly* i guess so...

i just found it hilarious... but you probably had to be there.. it was just how suddenly he said it.. and the word fridged.. but yes i still want to know why a fridge or refrigerator is called a fridge!

Ruth says:
Oh man Alex im trapped in the kitchen cos theres a HUGE moth in the livingroom
Ruth says:
and dad is talking to it and has called it Orwell *dies*

lol i just had a laughing fit over that... poor ruth! XD SOD'S LAW! XD

woooork.. was pretty cool! ^_^ got my wage slip and figured out i gave them the wrong account details >.< typical! XD lol but anyways once i've given them the RIGHT details it should mean that i get my moneys! =D
Back to school tomorrow ;_; but scotland in 3 weeks!! waaa can't wait should be AWESOME!!! It's such a spurr of the moment plan and everything, there is no way we should have been able to pull it off... but we have!! =D
OMG i went to chester with my mum yesterday (she bought me lots of nice new clothes) and i want an opal pendant for my 18th birthday, becuase i feel in love with the opal when i was in america when i was 12 and have wanted one ever since! So we decided to look in some jewellery shops while we were in chester and i've found the pendant i want, it is GORGEOUS! and expensive =/ It's a green/blue opal which is stunning, the colour is the same sort of colour as the british ocean when you see it from a plane. It's a teardrop cut set below 3 small diamonds and i swear i have never wanted a piece of jewellery as much as i want that necklace, if it was possible to love an inanimate object i would love that necklace. Anyways here's hoping that it turns up on my 18th bday!! <3 XD
lol and yeah i'm knackered from work so i'm thinking i might watch some saiyuki and chill out! Before having to sort out stuff for school... bleh =___= XD

Stolen off Atay coz it amused me!

1) Go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random and look at the name of the article. That is the name of your band.

2) Next, go to http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3 and check the last four
words of the very last quote. That is the name of your album.

3) Finally, head over to http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/ and look at the third image. Whatever it is, that will be your album cover.

4) Muck all three up with your favorite photo-editing program and post the result.

And the result....



yeah my band rawks! =P

EXAMS ARE OVER!!! YAY!

Oh yeah for anyone who'd like to know my dad came, 5th in the race (I think) and is now into commonwealth 24 hour racing training... so good luck to him!! <3

I was going to have a rant in here about stuff... but i find myself less and less bothered with talking about my life over the net. I'm happy, I have a job and things are going okay. Exams have been a mixture of alright and crap, i still don't know what to do in the future but i'm not really too bothered about that.. i believe in fate! And that my dears is all that really matters! =P

So yeah said none of the things i meant to but oh well.. i need to go write in my DA journal and unplug the tumble dryer (don't ask)

peace out!

I'VE ANSWERED ALL MY MESSAGES!!

I'm also phailing at this revision stuff... ahh interview on tuesday i really hope i get the job! Yeah that's it really.. not much else to say.. lol gah hope my dad does well tomorrow!! <3 <3 Must finish reading antony and cleopatra tonight.. bleh revision!!

I need to go do revision.. so this is going to be a short entry. Just to say GOOD LUCK!!! to my dad who's going to be representing wales in the Anglo Celtic Plate 100K race in cardiff!! I hope he does as well as he wants so he can qualify for the world 24 hour racing championships again. So good luck to him!

I'm off now to read Antony and Cleopatra again!! tarrah!

OMG EXAMS!

ahh i just woke up and i feel sooo odd... like i have a hangover but i haven't had anything to drink at all.. o_o I also had a really odd dream where i had to save the world by singing to help a load of cow like humanoid people fly into the air and stop an eclipse :o i think i might have to make a story out of that... and there's another one i have an idea for based on Rachel's drawing... a dark horror so sci-fi and horror.. i've got plenty of ideas to work on over the summer now! ^_^