i can't believe this...
not only has he hurt my feelings, he also hurted my sister!
i trusted him...
i fell in love with him.
but now...
i'm afraid that i can't even look at him
i'm gettin sick. i've got an headache, i'm feeling like i can trow up any moment now and i feel soow dizzy ow and i can't breeve well
and now this, everything is going sow well
my day started well, saw my friends, sported, went to the supermarket and saw some friends of my there to, helped my mom finnished a drawing, listenend to my fav anime music...
but now
even my best friends don't have time for me...
well the most don't...
just a phew ask me what happenend, just a phew are worried bout me
i don't care bout that! but i want to have a good friend near me now
i really can use one now, but there all busy...
all are they don't have time for me.
i just don't know what to do now anymore...
i can't think clearly. i don't care
i don't care
just leave me alone
just
leave
me
alone...

as i watch the sun going down, i feel sad
knowing you aren't here...
knowing youre somewhere else.
my dear friend, you have no idea what you mean to me...
how much i care for you.
and that's okay, cause we still can talk...
still make fun with each other, still lauch together...
still help eachother in hard times.
as i listing to this music, as i see the first stars at the sky...
i'm wishing that that one day will come...
that we will meet.
i'm holding that wish in my heart...
and hoping you'll do the same.
my dear sweet friend...

This is just SICK!!
my mom is SICK!!
if i get a number on school below 5.5 it's bye bye 2 all of you *sob sob*
i doesn't matter if it's a class what i'm weak in is
THIS IS HARD
let's make a list from classes where i'm not that good in at:
BIOLOGY: *cry cry*
ECONOMICS: lucky if i get a 6
MATH: that hangs if i get it or if i dun get it

10= highest
9=very good
8=good
7=it's ok
6=could be better
5=failed but you can put youre grade up easely
4=oky don't fail next time
3= did you learned or what?
2= yeesh
1= yeah this is the lowest you can get -_-

if i become under the 5.5 then i have a failure if i get a failure then internet is gone
so i'm not gonna be here as much as first cause i'm gonna study hard 2 keep all my friends
i'll see some at school but the most of you live far away and that's why i dun want 2 lose you all or see you very lil
well let's just hope that the studieng will work and internet can stay on the com ^^
fingers crossed people!!
much love Shinobu