it's so cold...
i stayed in the windowshelf *or what ever* for like half hour...even when it started to rain *you must know that the window it self was open*
the rain came down on my hand and knees and arms...i just sat there..not even moving...
it was soo cold...
i'm really cold right now...
...

If you need me you can't reach me...
if you need me you can't find me...
trough all of this..
...
yeh i'm upstairs so i can't see the messages XD

how i love to clean...
not anymore for now -_-
and now i'm forced!
i got to clean up my bed again >>
when i just did my cats litterybox...okay maybe an hour or 2 ago ^^" but i also did laundry and i uploaded new pics at deviantart...oh wait that;s not cleaning.
anyway i'll be right back...maybe not..you really don't want to see how i clean up my bed XD *she goes under the blankets to make it straight XD*
anyway i'll do my best to be right back ^^

something i wrote while i was sitting in the windowshelf on the addic.

The wind...
the Sun...
how great it feels to have those 2 combined,
as i just sit here, listen to music and watch the vieuw with my cat on my lap,
i just feel nothing but happyness,
calmth,
it feels nice,
i see people walking down the street, not even noticing me.
well i am much higher then they are...
they have no idea for what i am doing,
or that i even exist,
those are strangers.
as i keep listening to the music, i smile...
the wind makes my hair go up and down,
up and down,
my cat enjoy's himself cause i'm petting him.
i can feel the sun on my hands and on my head,
how nice this feels...
i wish i could just sit here all day long,
not worrying, not even thinking...
just sitting there...cause it just feels so nice.

i love cleaning ^^ ...some times ^^".
today i came home and putted my new manga in my book closet (wich btw is sooo clean ^^)
then i thought, why don't i clean over there *points at her really old installation*
hmm ok that's done ^^ *yeh i thought i wass finnished...then i looked BEHIND it...and then a sweatdrop came -_-"*
since behind it the mess was sooo much worse!
i cleaned that up...i found school papers..notes...empty pages...and stuff that must be really rare...like new creaters... -_-
but i cleaned behind it ^^...and under it ^^
now my desk...the things in it...planks? draws? errr those things in it...anyway where you put your stuff in ^^"
i cleaned 3 of them...i'm afraid to clean the one at top -_-
ghe he ^^" i still have to clean some stuff from my floor..since that is a total mess ^^". and then i'll do tomorrow under my bed...no wait i did that 2 day's ago ^^"...i found a LOT of stuff from my sweeeet cat -_-
like his mouses *fake..not real* or some lil balls...my cat also makes a mess XD
anyway i'm gonna stop writing now ^^ oh yeh one more thing...

I GOT VACATION!! WHOHOOOOOO!!!!

^^" thanks...
*hugs*
i'll be back soon ^^

I LOVE MY MOM!
wanna know what she wants to give me?!
4 how to draw manga books!
HORAY!!!
i love love love love her!
*dancs happydance*

i came half hour to early XD
but luckly they didn't mind ^^. thee hee
i got a lot of time to finnish my Kakashi drawing so i'm happy ^^.

they still haven't called me...so i'm just going to their house now ^^
i'm off *hugs tight then runs out of the door cause she will be late if she got to babysit at 18:45*
love you all ^^
cya soon ^^
*she will be back in a couple of hours...maybe 6 or 7 XD*

ARG!
damn me!
*sobs*
i don't know if i have to babysit at 18:45 or 19:15!!
problem is that i'm at my dads house so i can't just walk to the newbours at my moms house, driving from here to there is bout 25 minutes. sooo i got to leave soon round 18:15 or 18:20 (it's 18:03 at the moment)
but if it wass 19:15 we can't just drive back, cause then i would be like 20 minutes to late!
i tried to call them...well i can't reach them both. i called Mark...and that turned out to be my nephew in law instead of my newbour mark! tho it wass funny XD.
and i can't reach Marjolein either since her mobile is out!
i called the number of them both, and then i left a message on the answering machine.
...please let them answer me!
(it's 18:06 now)

We are Fighting Dreamers Takami wo mezashite
Fighting Dreamers  Narifuri kamawazu
Fighting Dreamers  Shinjiru ga mama ni
Oli Oli Oli Oh-! Just go my way!

Right here Right now (bang!)
buhhanase Like a dangan RAINA
Right here Right now (Burn!)
buttagitte kize Get the Fire!
Right here Right now (bang!)
buhhanase Like a dangan RAINA
Right here Right now (Burn!)

Kewashii shura no michi no naka
hito no chizu wo hirogete doko e iku?
Kokusai shouku no karasu ga sore wo
ubaitotte yaburi suteta

Saa kokoro no memi hiraite
shikato ima wo mikiwamero! (yeah!)
Ushinau mono nante naisa
Iza mairou

We are Fighting Dreamers Takami wo mezashite
Fighting Dreamers Narifuri kamawazu
Fighting Dreamers Shinjiru ga mama ni
Oli Oli Oli Oh-! Just go my way!

Right here Right now (bang!)
buhhanase Like a dangan RAINA
Right here right now!

oto wo tatezu shinobi yoru kage ga
itsumo bokura wo madowaseru
Yuugen jikou ookina kaze ga
uneri wo agete fukiareru

Kazashita surudoi katana de
onore no wasu kirihiroge (yeah!)
Hoshou wo nante doko ni mo naisa
naa sou darou

We are Fighting Dreamers Takami wo mezashite
Fighting Dreamers Narifuri kamawazu
Fighting Dreamers Shinjiru ga mama ni
Oli Oli Oli Oh-! Just go my way!

Right here Right now (bang!)
buhhanase Like a dangan RAINA
buttagitte kize Get the Fire!
Right here Right now (bang!)
buhhanase Like a dangan RAINA
Right here Right now (Burn!)
buttagitte kize Get the Fire!

*interlude*

We are Fighting Dreamers kono nakama-tachi to
Fighting Dreamers subete wo makikomi
Fighting Dreamers kokorozashi takaku
Oli Oli Oli Oh-!

We are Fighting Dreamers Takami wo mezashite
Fighting Dreamers Narifuri kamawazu
Fighting Dreamers Shinjiru ga mama ni
Oli Oli Oli Oh-! Just go my way!

(Don't forget your first impulse ever)
(Let's keep your adventurous ever)

Right here Right now (bang!)
buhhanase Like a dangan RAINA
buttagitte kize Get the Fire!
Right here Right now (bang!)
buhhanase Like a dangan RAINA
Right here Right now (Burn!)
buttagitte kize Get the Fire!
BAM!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
i'm just soooo pissed off!!!!
GRRRRRRR
i waited like 4 weeks for that ep!!
and i can't see a thing!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr
it just soooo pissis me off!!!!
*twitch twitch*
i hear sound but all i can see is...nothing!!!!
meh more news later

So... hitotsu-me no yoru ni
izuko kara koishi ga sekai ni ochiru
So... futatsu-me no yoru ni
koishi no ko ga te wo tori WARUTSU wo kaku
Sound life

So... mitsu-me no yoru ni
WARUTSU no ko wa yonamo ni UE-BU wo utsu

So... yotsu-me no yoru ni
nami no ko wa kishibe ni shibuki wo ageru
Sound life

So... itsutsu-me no yoru ni
sono kakera ikudomo yonamo wo tataku

So... mutsu-me no yoru ni
sono aizu ni tabibito wa tsudoiau
Sound life

So... nanatsu-me no yoru ni
omosa no nai fune wa sora e to hashiru

So... yatsu-me no asa ni
izuko kara no uta ga mimi e to todoku
Sound life

saa... atarashii sora ni
subete wo shirushita kumikyoku ga hibiku
Sound life
Sound life

okay i'm just sitting here...
then mom calls me if i can bring her mobile of her work up when i go upstairs -_-
mom i'm right downstairs! no need to call me for that ^^"
meh...
i think i'm off to bed, i got to get up early so i can finnish watching 4 more eps of trigun and return all of them to my best friend ^^
well sweet dreams yous all ^^
sayonara

*takes a deep breath*
HE BITE ME!!!!
hehe ^^, meh a friend of me bite me 4 times today XD, right Yoni??? he's weird XD but so nice! hey you can see his teethmarks at my arm XD their red XD
hahahaha
i'll get him back for this x3 hopefully tomorrow!
victory will be mine!!!

i need help....

sometimes in life
You Find a special friend.
someone who changes your life.
just by being part of it

someone who makes you lauch
until you can't stop
someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the world
someone who convines you
that there really is unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it
when you are down
and the world seems dark and empthy
your forever friend lifts you in spirit
and makes that dark and emphty world...
Vanish
This is for ever friendship

This if for my best friend in the whole wide universe! who i care bout for the most!

*sobs*....
now i've done it...i made miysis sad! i'm such a bitch! she thinks we don't care bout her, but we do! WE LOVE YOU MIYSIS!
miysis you are my best friend in the whole world, and also my big sister. i really care bout you and i want nothing more then to be friends again. i'm sorry that i drew that dragon. if you want i'll trow it away. i care more for you then for that god damn drawing. so please let's be friends again? please please please.
your not a low life bitch at all, your a very kind,sweet and loving person! ..........
.......
i so disgust of myself! i hate myself i hate myself!!!!!!
i;m not worthy of the name "friend" nor "lil sister"!
i just want miysis to forgive my STUPID, DUMB, IDIOT and so on behaviour.
and that she will stay on our school ;_; please Miysis, you are the best friend i ever had in all these years! i can't let you just leave school! so please just...just stay and let us be friends again....
i care more bout you then for my own life!

O môr henion i dhu:
Ely siriar, el síla
Ai! Aníron Undómiel

Tiro! El eria e mor.
I 'lir en el luitha 'uren.
Ai! Aniron...

May it be an evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh! How far you are from home

Mornie utulie
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantie
A promise lives within you now

May it be the shadow's call
Will fly away
May it be your journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun

Mornie utulie
Believe and you will find your way

Mornie alantie
A promise lives within you now

A promise lives within you now.

hmmm....
you wanna know what happenend today????
sure???
okay...

my dad and i where going to the city. just when my dad closed the door he realized that the key's where still inside the house! (DUMB!) the key's also have the car key's on them XD. so we where locked outside...now grandma wass gone and so wass my uncle and they have also key's of the house...
now i left my window open...yeh...you can quess. i had to climp at the roof to my window. when i wass standing on the roof...wich is high! i tried to climb up, but it was not that easy since i had nothing to keep my grib with. one time i almost fell down O.O that wass sorta scary...oh well ^^" after like 3 minutes i finnaly got in my room :D i walked downstairs and openend the door. then dad got the key's and we left ^^"

yup...that happenend...

I just made macoroni all by myself ^-^ my dad liked it very much!
i'm so happy ^O^. thee hee ^-^
now what would you do if i cooked homemade macoroni for you?
let me know :D