Ah remember how i talked about that teacher last night? Well turns out he really holds a grudge against me. I HATE him! When class started i got yelled at right away for my behaviour yesterday -.-. He grabbed my arm really hard and he looked seriously pissed off. He got mad at my friend Linda too! Cause when he pushed us inside saying 'C'mon hurry up all!!!' And she said 'Calm down' on a normal tone he freaked out! He said she was rude -.-
As if! She wasn't rude at all.
Then he took me under hands.
Teach: about your behaviour last day, i don't accept it! You're really rude and non caring! I don't want that behaviour in my class anymore.
Me: *has a big smile on her face cause she's proud on how she annoyed him* Yesh sure... w/e baka XD
Teach: Listen to me young lady! *grabs my arm hard*
Me: auch...
Teach: You're going to pay attention now or you can leave! I was too soft on you yesterday! If you're like that today you can go out!'
Me: *nods and walks away*
As if he was soft on me yesterday! Yelling at me pulling my hair and all that shit! What a jerk! I put on my test paper above 'Omae o korosu baka -_-'
If he reads that and asks me 'What does that mean?' I will say 'Why don't you go look it up'.
though i will tell you guys what it means, it means 'I'm going to kill you idiot.'
Ah well that's his problem. He made Linda cry too O.o In all the years that i know her i've never seen her cry! (accept for the time when someone dearly died) I told the teacher to leave her alone. What did he do? Well he still stood there and stuff! He said that he was soft on her cause he knew (not true) that stuff was going on at home -.-. I HATE that guy! Ugh i could just kill him -.-.
ah well enough about that.

Tonight new pictures will be there from me XD. Not that you would want to see that. On one of them you can see me acctually smile *She thought of all her friends on that one and her special person*
I hope you all will enjoy ^-^.
Much love,
Shinobu.

Go visit [Super Big] and [Misuteriasu] <3

Heya all, you must be wondering why my mood is like that XD.
Well let me tell you ^^;.

As you all know i'm in a school where i work with plants/flowers and animals. Now today i had flowerarringing. That's making like pieces with flowers in it. Ermm the kind ones in like cups? ._. Eermmm anyway stuff you find in a flowershop XD.
But to get to the point. I put a flower in my hair, a Tulp. (Yes that's one of Hollands traditional flowers wich you all think are big part of our country together with that we all wear clugs -.-) But i just put it in my braid (picture of that tomorrow) And i found it look pretty <3. Now my damn fucked up teacher wasn't agreeing with me that i did that. i don't know why O.o. Now the class was... ermm not so sweet and neither was i. I was send out together with Rowena and Tess. I was send out because i said 'But sir' cause ermm Tess asked Kees to move a bit aside so she could see wat the teacher was doing during his explaining. Well that's a normal question i believe, and because she said that she was sended out, and because i thought it was unfair and i said 'But sir..' (Never got further then saying that) i was sended out after her. And i don't really know what rowena did XD.
But later at the end of the class i had a flower in my hair as i said before. The teacher asked me madly looking to pull it out, so i did -.-. But then when like class was almost over i put it back in. Then when he saw that, he grabbed my braid (my braid is only at one side -> the left) and like pulled out the flower with much violence. It hurted how he pulled my hair ;.;. He 'crumbeld' the flower and said 'THAT'S THE FUCKING LAST TIME MISSIE!' and i was like O.O dude chill out there... Though i was not such a good girl during class. I was like ermm more in the move more busier then useall. So he said to me 'What's going on with you? why are you so annoying?'
Me: 'I don't know just one of those days i guess'
Him 'Yeh but not in my class! You're disturbing class! And that annoys the others'
Me 'So?'
Him 'Not so! Listen here! Stop being so annoying and disturbing to the others!'
Me 'why me? The other ones are just as disturbing as i am, but only they don't disturb me nor the others. They disturb you sir.'
Then when i saw that look in his eyes of fury i just walked away saying ' You baka...'
Good thing he doesn't know what baka means XD.
Heh that's all ^^;l

Heya all, time for an update XD.
Since i do write but it's only like ermm shout outs XD. Anyhow. I got to walk to school everyday now >< And it's freezing cold ._. that's so mean ><. But i guess it's my own fault. Both bicycles have a flat tyre somewhere XD (my fav one has the forwheel and the other one the backone XD.) So that means i can't go to school by bike anymore ^^;;;. Though it's about 7/10 minutes walk. So you can make up out of this that my school is near ^^; Wich is XD.
Ermm further more, has everyone seen my new drawing? Cause it's for my sweet Sayuki <3 He's so cute! Kyaaaa! *Huggles Sayuki tightly* Squeeshy <3
I'm really into making photo's XD (as always but i was to laze to recharge the batteries XD) Though you all will see new photo's friday the 4th. Remember, i'm a sucky photographer XD. And if i make photo's of me in the snow with Buffy, be sure to only look at Buffy XD. My face will traumatize you for life XD.
Well this is about it again >.>. And again for Yvonne. Happy Birthday! <3 ->[Super Big]<- and the link to Sayuki's House <3 [Misuteriasu].
*grins*
I catched Sayuki's cold :D Yatta! *Huggies*
Muchos lovo's XD *tries to be intelligent*

EVERYONE SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTED FRIEND YVONNE!! LUF YOU GIRL!
[Super Big] She's 16 years old now!!! YAAAAAAAAY!!! She can buy alcohol now hahaha XD.
No seriously happy birthday sweetie!<3

My Sweet friend [Misuteriasu] joined today!!!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!
*Glomp*

I'm doing better i guess >.>. Still got some problems wich are hard but i think i can make it. Thoug... i got the feeling a guy who sexual intimidated me in 2003 has come back... It worries me. Since... i don't know it was scary >_<. But i can be wrong though ^^; I shouldn't worry to much about it. i mean, how high is the chance that he would come back? Really low >_>. Perhaps i'm just being paranoid or something like that. ^^;
Heh, i think i watched to many horror movies yesterday and today XD. though i only saw the end of scream 1 :'(. *sniff* Now that's mean! Cause i never watched 1, but i did saw 2 and 3 >_>. Tee hee <3 I'm not easily scared ^^. Thank god for that. I think it's because my dad made me.. ermm have a better resistance against it. Since when i was little he used to scare me a lot -.-. Like he went with me to something about bats (i was about 7) And i just love bats so there's nothing wrong with that.. exept for the fake vampire robot in the coffin!! It looked like he was breathing O_O I knew that he was a robot.. But it scared me anyway. I didn't dare to sleep much the days after ^^. I remember i watched the sun go down in my room and fear the darkness more and more XD.
but then again, i was 7 XD. Ah well i got over it. >_> And now this is the result ^^ And i'm happy wappy with it ^^. Watching scary movies without having nightmares <3. ...Though if i would watch a scary spider movie, i doubt if i will sleep okay XD.
Much love,
Shinobu,

Hiya
We had a class field trip today >_>. To some garden stuff ^^; It was pretty cool, i had a lot of fun with [Super Big] XD. I want to thank her for feeding me ^O^
Thank you!!! <3

For the rest... ermm i'm pretty much saddish. I'm like between happy and sad. I got a huge headache =.= *le sigh* Oki i'm gettin depressed. I think i just need a good cry then i'll be all better.
Heh don't worry about me ^^ I'll be fine.

Good luck! (or they say Glay O.o)

Kiss kiss kissin’ noise
Lost lost lost my love
Kiss kiss kissin’ noise
Lost lost lost my love

Kiss kiss kissin’ noise
Lost lost lost my love
Kiss kiss kissin’ noise
Lost lost lost my love
Puraido wo sutete yaru sa
Ai no nai anata no tame ni
Sono kao no yasashisa wa uso darou
Good luck sabireta kage ga anata ga
Jerashii sae mo kizu tsuketa
Saigo made sono saigo no toki made wa
Futari wa totemo yurusenai kara

Return to our mother
Close my close my life
Urusai kiss
Nakushita ai sore mo jinsei
Return to our mother
Close my close my life
Urusai kiss
Nakushita ai sore mo jinsei

Motome au mono nani mo katarazu
Ooinaru kage ima wa sabirete
Sutereotaipu yoru ni dakareteru
Dakara
Puraido wo sutete yaru sa
Ai no nai anata no tame ni
Sono kao no yasashisa wa uso darou
Noise
Anata no kiss kara nogare
Noise
Itsuka ano basho ni kaeru
Noise darake
Karamawari shite itemo
Good luck sabireta kage ga anata ga
Jerashii sae mo kizu tsuketa
Saigo made sono saigo no toki made wa
Futari wa totemo yurusenai
I and love

Hiya i'm back!
You're proberbly wondering why i haven't been on in about 4 days. Well let me tell ya. This is from my 'diary'.

The update!
Seems like my life has it's ups and downs. It really does! Mom wants to kick me out of the house (again) if i don't finnish my job tomorrow!! She also took away the internet! That's sooo mean! I miss everyone so much. What a bitch she can be sometimes! That's just sick of her to do. She knows how much i love to talk to my friends.
Meanwhile, i saw Lenn today (i know him for about a year, he's awsome :P. Don't think i'm in love with him, he has a gf ((She's too nice! <3)) But Lenn is just a really good friend from me.) Anyway, i was so happy seeing him again! I hanged out with him and his friends for a while, so i made new friends XD. I'm so happy about that. And i'm happy about the new skatecourse behind my house of course, the people who skate there are really nice too. It's so awsome to watch them!
But still, it really bothers me that mom wants to kick me out again. I mean, i grew up there! I have so many precious memories about my house. Bad or good, they still are precious to me. I don't want to leave this place that i know so well. I'm so afraid that i will have to. Then i'll have to live at my dads, and i don't really want that. Cause then i'll be even more alone (also my dad works late, but with mom my friends are closer and the places where i hang out). I love this place so much. If i go, what can't i leave behind?
- Buffy ( if my sweet cat doesn't come along i'll get sick of missing him).
- Photo's (Yes memories)
- Books (i love to read, besides i can't leave behind my collection of manga's either.)
- my drawings (my own work)
- letters ( i always keep my letters i got from friends, with the stuff. Like the letters i got from Colin [Avatar] and Kadri [snow_sheep])
- clothes (of course, mainly my favorite)
- precious stuff ( like i got a stuffed cow ((Really cute!!)) from Lenn, my manga stuff, souvernirs, and so on. You know small stuff that you adore and have special meanings for you)
- underwear/socks (well this speaks for itself)
- cd's (can't be without music)
- Stuff needed (like my hairbrush, my toothbrush. you know that kinda stuff)
Hmm, i can cry easily now. This is so hard. Mom only get's more and more sick of me by the minute. It doesn't really matter what i do. Colin [Avatar] i tried everything i could! I used up your tips, all of them! They worked but for a really (really) short time. I'm afraid, that even if i do my job (finnishing it that is). I'll get kicked out for another reason...
Ever since Jara's and Dukkie's death, things only seemed to get worser. Though times. (Jara and Dukkie were a dog and a cat and really precious to us.)
All i do is try to stay positive. Try to see things the good way. But a part of me can't help but feeling sad about it.
If mom really wants me out, if that really is what makes her happy. Then i'll do it. For i no matter what my she does to me, i still want her to be happy. Cause i love her. Even if it would mean that she would be happy without me.
I'm going to sleep now, but not before i've cuddled buffy. He's the only one who really makes me smile in this house. He supports me by not leaving my side, he follows me to where-ever i go.
Please, do not worry about me. As long as you are here with me. All of you. I'll be fine and there will be no way things will go wrong. Cause all of you, all who i love and cherish so dearly. You give me hope.
Thank you so much for that. Thank you.
-Shinobu.

Yeh that's what i wrote. I already planned when i wrote it to put it here so that's why the thank you part is in it. Heh. Everything is getting better now. I think mom just is having a though time again. And as always she takes it out on me ^^;. Heh well this is about all ^^.
I love you!
-Shinobu

((Steve i miss you! ><))

*Has just realized that Steve might just be at school.*
Ermm i'm gonna go... Really i can't even stand normally. (Night before has been late too and she got up early)
Love yous all!
Cya tomorrow then Steve ^^
XxxxxxxX
Have sweet dreams yous all!

Damn you icetea! I <3 you!!
*is drinking icetea to keep herself awake. oh and her headache is gone*
*yawns*
an hour and half to go =_=. will i make it?... Doubting it now. Since i'm practally falling off from my chair. *already fell off from it 2 times* I'm gonna close my eyes for just a sec.

Oh ow... doom?
*is afraid mom will be friggin mad at her for being on at this time*
If i'm gone really sudden. That's then cause my mom told me to, (i'm sure she has some threat for me if i don't -.-)
Heh, headache is getting worser and worser by the minute btw. Steve i'm doing this for you!! <3
My limit is 2 o'clock over here though. that's 1 o'clock at the elftown clock.
So about 3 hours >_>. Heh ^^;

*is all alone and has no-one to talk to on msn anymore*
Zzzzz I'm soo tired. *is waiting for Steve to come online*
If i don't answer i fell asleep in the chair @_@. Could be that my mom would come downstairs furious at me for not being in bed >_>. Like i care -_-.
I'm so tired, and getting a headache so it seems. *is listening to music and leaning on the table*
I'm gonna sleep now on the table*
cya in a little while.

Muhhahahaha! I'm listening to music all day long! And the volume is very (VERY) high ^^
I'm all alone in the house ^^ (AGAIN!)
So i'm doing what i want ^^

Yayayay!!
Next week new photo's of meeeeeeee! (not that you want to see that but still XD) and for those who have msn. Come online and i'll send you a little movie (15 seconds) of me dancing or something :P
XxxX
-Shi

Don't you just hate it when you tell somone something. Something you want to tell someone else, and the person you told it first to you beats you to it?

FUN WITH SNOW! (this was this week on a monday ^^)

Buffy-Neko watching the snow out of my window with me's ^^.

You can see the neighbours car ^^ And my frontjard a lil bit.

Thee hee, accros my house. Again this is taken out of my window ^^.

This is right below my window ^^

Some random pictures! XD All by me!

Buffy-Kun soo cute! He's being pet by me ^^. He was purring XD.

[Hellcatje89] Coke-Can and [Super Big] Awsome Powerdrink. Cokecan was RED, and the stuff in the powerdrink was BLUE! XD

Me.. i guess >> SUCKS!

Buffy on my bed :D Soo cute! This was this morning ^^. Yesh my cat sleeps with me in my bed XD

Ain't he the cutest?! Don't mind my bed though, i mean, i got it from Greenpeace ^^. So i love it! X3

Soo smart ~.~

Hey you guy's! Hope ya all are doing good, I'm doing good myself ^^. but i won't be able to answer your messages before it's friday, sorry! My pc is toooo slow. sorry bout that. Talk to me on msn if you have it ^^.
Much love,
Shinobu

OMG!! My internet works!! Without it even being installed! O_o;;;; Scary... Ah well, i like it! :D