PLEASE ALL BE SURE TO CHECK OUT MY POLL!!!
IT'S FOR MY SCHOOL ~~ AT LEAST MY PROJECT!
THANKS!!!
*RUNS AWAY BEFORE THE TEACHER BUSTS HER*
ALSO!
MY INTERNET IS TEMPORARLY DOWN y_y SORRY!
I'll be back asap

Hey
From yesterday on, my mom doesn't wants me back. When i called her she said to me that she didn't want me back. Today i'll be picking my stuff up, woa i never knew it would go like this T_T. It's so weird ><. It's like a part of my world has fallen apart. And i'm so selfish right now >< i'm asking everyone to support me Y_Y. that's so selfish of me><.
Ermm, this means i'll be on less, and study way more. And i have to go much further to school ><. Ah well, i wanna go to [Misuteriasu] ;o; and peri and meriyem ;.;. I WAS going today, with or without dads permission, but noooo because i have to pick up my stuff ><. *sighes sadly* Still i am going to them really soon. Thank god @_@
Ermm this is about it,
thanks for reading ._.
Bye

Hey, remember how i talked about how bad my mom is? Well yesterday eve the big bang came. I ran out of the house crying and went to my neighbours.
What happend?
Well it started with that i wanted to go to my dad and mom disagreed and such and yelled at me. I got so sick of it, she said i should go live at my dads house. So i thought 'well if you don't want me here you can have it your way' so i went upstairs and packed my stuff. But it was a lot. I had my schoolbag full and another bag and a little one. I could impossible carry all at once, they were way to heavy so i put one downstairs and went upstairs to get another one. When i cam down momy started pulling at my stuff. She told me that i had to leave my stuff and go away, i refused to leave my stuff behind so i said calmly no. Yes i stayed the whole time calm. Untilll... She started pulling and yelling more and more. I got sick of it, i dropped all and screamed 'i'm sick of it!' I ran out of the door slammed it and ran to the neighbours. I screamed on the street 'screw it all!!!' When the neighbours opend the door i started crying and ran into Marks arms. They comforted me and all.
This is not really everything into the details because i';m to lazy.
Bye

Heya all
MY MOM IS A HUGE BITCH!!!! Grrr ¬¬
I'm going to Meriyem if this keeps going on XD Meriyem is supersweet <3 i can go to her if i want to :D This also counts for my other friends. But i've never mett someone i know from the net irl so i think i would be going to her XD Besides, then i would also meet my idol Peri! <33333
You'll proberbly wondering why i hate my mom now...
Well remember how i told you that thanks to her i almost had to stay in detention? Well she asked me about it:
Mom: 'did you went to school today?'
me 'of course i did O.o'
Mom 'yeh okay, did you had first class free?'
Me 'yeh Science fell out'
Mom 'okay, well did you had to stay in detention today?'
Me 'nope :D'
Mom 'Why O.o'
Me 'the teacher felt really sorry for me'
Mom 'what a stupid school! Pffft!'*walks away yelling and all pissed off*
Me 'eh O_________O?'

I think she can't take it that i didn't had to stay in detention. Well i think it's fair! I WASS sick after all! Stupid bitch ¬¬
Also, i got my gradeslist today ._. i'm not proud of it, last week we had a HELL LOT of tests. And that week i was unbelievebly stressed, forgotfull, too many problems and worries, and a stupid mom ticking me off and yelling at me all the time. So my grades slipped ;_;. And i didn't had the time to bring them up again ;_;. But anyway, it's not really such a big deal. i can bring them up again :D
Also! Even so that it wasn't so good, my math went up!!!! That's my worst subject!!! From 36% to 53%!!! That's good for me <3.
Anyway, i'm scared of showing it to my mom ._. i'll do it tomorrow. If i don't go to my daddy XD. I'm planning on going to him since i haven't seen a friend of mine over there for quite a while. I'm planning to visit XD
Ah well
I love my kawaita!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Zutto!!!!
<3333333333333333333333
I dream of you every night <3
And i want to hold you tight <3
Come fly with me
To eternal skies high up
Where we can be together <3
XD XD XD
*kissu* For my Sayu <333333
Dada!
Ja~ne!

Also

I HATE MY MOM!!!
she's making my life miserable!!! >o<
Luckly i got sweet friends <333333333

I DIDN'T HAD TO STAY IN DETENTION AFTER ALL!!!
*long story, i had to stay in detention first because they said i was skipping school! While i wasn't, i was sick ;_;. But mom never signed me off *grrrr* And she claimed that i wasn't sick! HOW CAN YOU TELL YOU FUCKING BITCH YOU COME HOME LATE EVERYDAY!! So it's her fault that i almost had to stay in detention!*
But my teach felt sorry for me ToT
Anyway!
I won't be on as often anymore, cause i need to work hard at school! So i am going to do that! No computer for me before i'm done with my homework ^.^. And studies ofcourse >_>;;;
Anyway i'm going to hit the shower now!
Love you all!!!
[Misuteriasu] Specially luf yous!
check out my cu2 all yous dutch people out here!
www.cu2.nl/Sakura
and!
www.shinobu-san.deviantart.com
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Byes!

Here is my fotoshoot V.V


Ahww Shinobu hurt her finger >< There's a cut in it ;.;

Female Docter Evilish me <3

Bored as hell XD

Aha... UGLY

I watched too much Naruto ~~

Me's with Buffy-Cat, cute isn't he?

My sweet kitty cat i adore! He's so adorable! <3 Sayuki me made that movie for yous <3

Eww ugly me.

I'm copyrighted by [Misuteriasu]

Same story ^-^
My sign say's:
I'm Sayuki Copyrighted ^-^
[Misuteriasu] *houyou!*
So Don't Steal Me, Domo ^O^

Earlier at the 3th <3 i think..

It's so magical @_@

Enjoy ~~
All these pictures where taken yesterday accept the ones with my arm and the snow Those ones are about a week old, at least the arm. The snow ones where taken ermm 2th?

Ah remember how i talked about that teacher last night? Well turns out he really holds a grudge against me. I HATE him! When class started i got yelled at right away for my behaviour yesterday -.-. He grabbed my arm really hard and he looked seriously pissed off. He got mad at my friend Linda too! Cause when he pushed us inside saying 'C'mon hurry up all!!!' And she said 'Calm down' on a normal tone he freaked out! He said she was rude -.-
As if! She wasn't rude at all.
Then he took me under hands.
Teach: about your behaviour last day, i don't accept it! You're really rude and non caring! I don't want that behaviour in my class anymore.
Me: *has a big smile on her face cause she's proud on how she annoyed him* Yesh sure... w/e baka XD
Teach: Listen to me young lady! *grabs my arm hard*
Me: auch...
Teach: You're going to pay attention now or you can leave! I was too soft on you yesterday! If you're like that today you can go out!'
Me: *nods and walks away*
As if he was soft on me yesterday! Yelling at me pulling my hair and all that shit! What a jerk! I put on my test paper above 'Omae o korosu baka -_-'
If he reads that and asks me 'What does that mean?' I will say 'Why don't you go look it up'.
though i will tell you guys what it means, it means 'I'm going to kill you idiot.'
Ah well that's his problem. He made Linda cry too O.o In all the years that i know her i've never seen her cry! (accept for the time when someone dearly died) I told the teacher to leave her alone. What did he do? Well he still stood there and stuff! He said that he was soft on her cause he knew (not true) that stuff was going on at home -.-. I HATE that guy! Ugh i could just kill him -.-.
ah well enough about that.

Tonight new pictures will be there from me XD. Not that you would want to see that. On one of them you can see me acctually smile *She thought of all her friends on that one and her special person*
I hope you all will enjoy ^-^.
Much love,
Shinobu.

Go visit [Super Big] and [Misuteriasu] <3

Heya all, you must be wondering why my mood is like that XD.
Well let me tell you ^^;.

As you all know i'm in a school where i work with plants/flowers and animals. Now today i had flowerarringing. That's making like pieces with flowers in it. Ermm the kind ones in like cups? ._. Eermmm anyway stuff you find in a flowershop XD.
But to get to the point. I put a flower in my hair, a Tulp. (Yes that's one of Hollands traditional flowers wich you all think are big part of our country together with that we all wear clugs -.-) But i just put it in my braid (picture of that tomorrow) And i found it look pretty <3. Now my damn fucked up teacher wasn't agreeing with me that i did that. i don't know why O.o. Now the class was... ermm not so sweet and neither was i. I was send out together with Rowena and Tess. I was send out because i said 'But sir' cause ermm Tess asked Kees to move a bit aside so she could see wat the teacher was doing during his explaining. Well that's a normal question i believe, and because she said that she was sended out, and because i thought it was unfair and i said 'But sir..' (Never got further then saying that) i was sended out after her. And i don't really know what rowena did XD.
But later at the end of the class i had a flower in my hair as i said before. The teacher asked me madly looking to pull it out, so i did -.-. But then when like class was almost over i put it back in. Then when he saw that, he grabbed my braid (my braid is only at one side -> the left) and like pulled out the flower with much violence. It hurted how he pulled my hair ;.;. He 'crumbeld' the flower and said 'THAT'S THE FUCKING LAST TIME MISSIE!' and i was like O.O dude chill out there... Though i was not such a good girl during class. I was like ermm more in the move more busier then useall. So he said to me 'What's going on with you? why are you so annoying?'
Me: 'I don't know just one of those days i guess'
Him 'Yeh but not in my class! You're disturbing class! And that annoys the others'
Me 'So?'
Him 'Not so! Listen here! Stop being so annoying and disturbing to the others!'
Me 'why me? The other ones are just as disturbing as i am, but only they don't disturb me nor the others. They disturb you sir.'
Then when i saw that look in his eyes of fury i just walked away saying ' You baka...'
Good thing he doesn't know what baka means XD.
Heh that's all ^^;l

Heya all, time for an update XD.
Since i do write but it's only like ermm shout outs XD. Anyhow. I got to walk to school everyday now >< And it's freezing cold ._. that's so mean ><. But i guess it's my own fault. Both bicycles have a flat tyre somewhere XD (my fav one has the forwheel and the other one the backone XD.) So that means i can't go to school by bike anymore ^^;;;. Though it's about 7/10 minutes walk. So you can make up out of this that my school is near ^^; Wich is XD.
Ermm further more, has everyone seen my new drawing? Cause it's for my sweet Sayuki <3 He's so cute! Kyaaaa! *Huggles Sayuki tightly* Squeeshy <3
I'm really into making photo's XD (as always but i was to laze to recharge the batteries XD) Though you all will see new photo's friday the 4th. Remember, i'm a sucky photographer XD. And if i make photo's of me in the snow with Buffy, be sure to only look at Buffy XD. My face will traumatize you for life XD.
Well this is about it again >.>. And again for Yvonne. Happy Birthday! <3 ->[Super Big]<- and the link to Sayuki's House <3 [Misuteriasu].
*grins*
I catched Sayuki's cold :D Yatta! *Huggies*
Muchos lovo's XD *tries to be intelligent*

EVERYONE SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTED FRIEND YVONNE!! LUF YOU GIRL!
[Super Big] She's 16 years old now!!! YAAAAAAAAY!!! She can buy alcohol now hahaha XD.
No seriously happy birthday sweetie!<3

My Sweet friend [Misuteriasu] joined today!!!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!
*Glomp*

I'm doing better i guess >.>. Still got some problems wich are hard but i think i can make it. Thoug... i got the feeling a guy who sexual intimidated me in 2003 has come back... It worries me. Since... i don't know it was scary >_<. But i can be wrong though ^^; I shouldn't worry to much about it. i mean, how high is the chance that he would come back? Really low >_>. Perhaps i'm just being paranoid or something like that. ^^;
Heh, i think i watched to many horror movies yesterday and today XD. though i only saw the end of scream 1 :'(. *sniff* Now that's mean! Cause i never watched 1, but i did saw 2 and 3 >_>. Tee hee <3 I'm not easily scared ^^. Thank god for that. I think it's because my dad made me.. ermm have a better resistance against it. Since when i was little he used to scare me a lot -.-. Like he went with me to something about bats (i was about 7) And i just love bats so there's nothing wrong with that.. exept for the fake vampire robot in the coffin!! It looked like he was breathing O_O I knew that he was a robot.. But it scared me anyway. I didn't dare to sleep much the days after ^^. I remember i watched the sun go down in my room and fear the darkness more and more XD.
but then again, i was 7 XD. Ah well i got over it. >_> And now this is the result ^^ And i'm happy wappy with it ^^. Watching scary movies without having nightmares <3. ...Though if i would watch a scary spider movie, i doubt if i will sleep okay XD.
Much love,
Shinobu,

Hiya
We had a class field trip today >_>. To some garden stuff ^^; It was pretty cool, i had a lot of fun with [Super Big] XD. I want to thank her for feeding me ^O^
Thank you!!! <3

For the rest... ermm i'm pretty much saddish. I'm like between happy and sad. I got a huge headache =.= *le sigh* Oki i'm gettin depressed. I think i just need a good cry then i'll be all better.
Heh don't worry about me ^^ I'll be fine.

Good luck! (or they say Glay O.o)

Kiss kiss kissin’ noise
Lost lost lost my love
Kiss kiss kissin’ noise
Lost lost lost my love

Kiss kiss kissin’ noise
Lost lost lost my love
Kiss kiss kissin’ noise
Lost lost lost my love
Puraido wo sutete yaru sa
Ai no nai anata no tame ni
Sono kao no yasashisa wa uso darou
Good luck sabireta kage ga anata ga
Jerashii sae mo kizu tsuketa
Saigo made sono saigo no toki made wa
Futari wa totemo yurusenai kara

Return to our mother
Close my close my life
Urusai kiss
Nakushita ai sore mo jinsei
Return to our mother
Close my close my life
Urusai kiss
Nakushita ai sore mo jinsei

Motome au mono nani mo katarazu
Ooinaru kage ima wa sabirete
Sutereotaipu yoru ni dakareteru
Dakara
Puraido wo sutete yaru sa
Ai no nai anata no tame ni
Sono kao no yasashisa wa uso darou
Noise
Anata no kiss kara nogare
Noise
Itsuka ano basho ni kaeru
Noise darake
Karamawari shite itemo
Good luck sabireta kage ga anata ga
Jerashii sae mo kizu tsuketa
Saigo made sono saigo no toki made wa
Futari wa totemo yurusenai
I and love

Hiya i'm back!
You're proberbly wondering why i haven't been on in about 4 days. Well let me tell ya. This is from my 'diary'.

The update!
Seems like my life has it's ups and downs. It really does! Mom wants to kick me out of the house (again) if i don't finnish my job tomorrow!! She also took away the internet! That's sooo mean! I miss everyone so much. What a bitch she can be sometimes! That's just sick of her to do. She knows how much i love to talk to my friends.
Meanwhile, i saw Lenn today (i know him for about a year, he's awsome :P. Don't think i'm in love with him, he has a gf ((She's too nice! <3)) But Lenn is just a really good friend from me.) Anyway, i was so happy seeing him again! I hanged out with him and his friends for a while, so i made new friends XD. I'm so happy about that. And i'm happy about the new skatecourse behind my house of course, the people who skate there are really nice too. It's so awsome to watch them!
But still, it really bothers me that mom wants to kick me out again. I mean, i grew up there! I have so many precious memories about my house. Bad or good, they still are precious to me. I don't want to leave this place that i know so well. I'm so afraid that i will have to. Then i'll have to live at my dads, and i don't really want that. Cause then i'll be even more alone (also my dad works late, but with mom my friends are closer and the places where i hang out). I love this place so much. If i go, what can't i leave behind?
- Buffy ( if my sweet cat doesn't come along i'll get sick of missing him).
- Photo's (Yes memories)
- Books (i love to read, besides i can't leave behind my collection of manga's either.)
- my drawings (my own work)
- letters ( i always keep my letters i got from friends, with the stuff. Like the letters i got from Colin [Avatar] and Kadri [snow_sheep])
- clothes (of course, mainly my favorite)
- precious stuff ( like i got a stuffed cow ((Really cute!!)) from Lenn, my manga stuff, souvernirs, and so on. You know small stuff that you adore and have special meanings for you)
- underwear/socks (well this speaks for itself)
- cd's (can't be without music)
- Stuff needed (like my hairbrush, my toothbrush. you know that kinda stuff)
Hmm, i can cry easily now. This is so hard. Mom only get's more and more sick of me by the minute. It doesn't really matter what i do. Colin [Avatar] i tried everything i could! I used up your tips, all of them! They worked but for a really (really) short time. I'm afraid, that even if i do my job (finnishing it that is). I'll get kicked out for another reason...
Ever since Jara's and Dukkie's death, things only seemed to get worser. Though times. (Jara and Dukkie were a dog and a cat and really precious to us.)
All i do is try to stay positive. Try to see things the good way. But a part of me can't help but feeling sad about it.
If mom really wants me out, if that really is what makes her happy. Then i'll do it. For i no matter what my she does to me, i still want her to be happy. Cause i love her. Even if it would mean that she would be happy without me.
I'm going to sleep now, but not before i've cuddled buffy. He's the only one who really makes me smile in this house. He supports me by not leaving my side, he follows me to where-ever i go.
Please, do not worry about me. As long as you are here with me. All of you. I'll be fine and there will be no way things will go wrong. Cause all of you, all who i love and cherish so dearly. You give me hope.
Thank you so much for that. Thank you.
-Shinobu.

Yeh that's what i wrote. I already planned when i wrote it to put it here so that's why the thank you part is in it. Heh. Everything is getting better now. I think mom just is having a though time again. And as always she takes it out on me ^^;. Heh well this is about all ^^.
I love you!
-Shinobu

((Steve i miss you! ><))

*Has just realized that Steve might just be at school.*
Ermm i'm gonna go... Really i can't even stand normally. (Night before has been late too and she got up early)
Love yous all!
Cya tomorrow then Steve ^^
XxxxxxxX
Have sweet dreams yous all!

Damn you icetea! I <3 you!!
*is drinking icetea to keep herself awake. oh and her headache is gone*
*yawns*
an hour and half to go =_=. will i make it?... Doubting it now. Since i'm practally falling off from my chair. *already fell off from it 2 times* I'm gonna close my eyes for just a sec.

Oh ow... doom?
*is afraid mom will be friggin mad at her for being on at this time*
If i'm gone really sudden. That's then cause my mom told me to, (i'm sure she has some threat for me if i don't -.-)
Heh, headache is getting worser and worser by the minute btw. Steve i'm doing this for you!! <3
My limit is 2 o'clock over here though. that's 1 o'clock at the elftown clock.
So about 3 hours >_>. Heh ^^;