CCCCCCCCBBBBBBBBBAAAAAAAAA. Work tomorrow. Really really cba. ARGH. I'm working 8 hour shifts 3 days in a row now which is something i really don't want to do >.< 2 8 hour shifts a week is enough for me, i don't need bloody three. And then wednesday i'm doing a 7 hour shift which is just as bad really.. GAYFACE. Ah well. Think of the money, think of the money, think of the money...

I've made a really big mistake with something too =/ and i'm not sure if it's possible to resolve it without someone getting hurt. And i don't want to hurt anyone, not again, i've done enough of that recently thank you very much. Soooo once again stuck in a vicious circle, and it's entirely my fault, and i know full well someone is going to end up getting hurt, and it's probably not going to be me, which in a way makes it worse *headdesk* why do i always get myself into these situations?? >.<

Had a huge blazing row with Carl over the phone earlier, which has really done nothing to lighten my already abysmal mood. I'll just avoid him for a while, i can't be doing with petty arguments.

I seem to be losing alot of friends recently =/ Maybe they're right, maybe i am changing... Ah well, maybe it's for the better too. It's not getting me down so it's nothing to worry about.

On a lighter note, been playing FFXII all day. Balthier = My future husband. Do i care that he's a computer animated character? No. No i really don't. :p

Off to bed now, early start tomorrow =___=;;

Nighty!

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Maaaaaaaaagh again XD I'm going to have a busy week this week. All i REALLY want to do is sit in my room and play Final Fantasy 12 until my eyes explode, buuuut i can't do that. I have relations that need to be maintained if i don't want to die a sad, lonely dorkazoid XD Soooooo, tonight after work i'm heading over to Gemma and Nathan's to have a mini-piss-up with those two, which should be fun. Then i'm coming home some time wednesday, getting myself looking semi not-hungover and going for my driving lesson at 6. THEN i'm going over to Amz's to sort out our next cosplay and i'm staying there wednesday night through thursday. Then FINALLY i can spend thursday night and friday day playing final fantasy till i drop XD ...Then i'm working at the weekend. DEPRESSING. Oh well.

Sooooo, those are my plans for this week. My plans for the week after: work monday, tuesday and wednesday, do bugger all for the rest of the week. Then i've got two more weeks to plan around but i'll do that when i get there. THEN it's back to school to start a new year (which will last 1 month, then i'm on summer break. Seems pointless, right? It is.) and THEN the Borders Anime Con, which is like the big black blob on the horizon of the next few months. The looming event of the year XD Good god, i don't think i'm going to get any rest until christmas the way things are going... AH WELL.

You see how much of a jerk i am? I've just realised, i'm making going to see my friends sound like a big chore. It's not, not really. Leaving the house is the big chore, once i'm in someone elses house and i can sit down again i'm ok XD It's just the inbetween preparation and movement that bothers me.

Laziest person in the world? Why yes, i think i am.

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Maaaaaaaaagh... Ok, i don't feel like i've written in here for ages... Despite the fact that it's only been like 4 days, i usually update 5 times a day XD So it's weird.. The reason for this is there's been alot of fighting and general shit-ness here and i just couldn't be bothered writing about depressing stuff. So i've waited for all that to boil over and disappear and now things are normal again i can write in my journal again.

I'm burning a CD at the moment. Something really amused me about 2 minutes ago and i'm still laughing. My cursor, for no reason whatsoever, turned into a banana when i was burning the CD. Anywhere else on the desktop my cursor was normal, boring old white pointer, but when i went to my burn list it turned into a wiggling banana XD really amused me..

Erm... Not much has been happening here recently apart from the fighting... I was in work yesterday, and Paul amused me with his invention of the word 'Piss-take-arettes', describing the thousands upon thousands of cigarettes me and him had to count XD Other than that work was dull as always. I made an elastic band ball.

Also yesterday i got described as a likeable jerk by the dude who works in the shop in my village. I always stop for a chat when i'm there, I was up there buying cheese and we were talking. The conversation went something like this::

Me: It's really quiet in here lately..
Him: The summer heat brings nothing but insects.
Me:... Are you going to explain that or is it supposed to be one of those mysterious metaphors that makes you sound cool?
Him:...I mean that.. Oh nevermind.
Me: No, i'm interested now. Are you possibly suggesting that i'm an insect? Or maybe you're the insect, you're just in denial about being an insect so you accuse the rest of the world of being them. Is that it? Are you harbouring a secret lust for dragonflies?
Him: You're a jerk you know. A likeable jerk, but still a jerk.
Me: why thank you!

XD It amused me. So he's an insect and i'm a walking contradiction. What a pair o.o

Anyway, i've gotta go and clean my room and get a bag sorted and get ready for work. BLAAAAH. That is all.

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Soooo went into Cheshire Oaks today. I BOUGHT HOUSE SEASON 1 AND 2!!! Now i have 1, 2 + 3, so i'm happy XP House marathon ftw!! And FFXII came today so i'm gonna be up all night XP Me and Amz decided who we're cosplaying as for the next con.. DUN, DUN, DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUN!!! We're gonna be....... Dark and Daisuke from D.N Angel! Which should be fun XP Gay couple ftw o.o

We saw Shutter today. I wasn't that impressed by it to be honest. In fact, it was hilarious. I'm not gonna spoil it for anyone who hasn't seen it, but there was two bits in it that literally had me spazzing with laughter, to the point where Amz had to restrain me because i looked like a crazy person XP 

OOOOOOOOOOH and for anyone interested in any of my creative writings, spare a minute to look at The RWG Project, which is just a little creative experiment i'm doing :p

That is all.

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Still drawing Balthier.. OBSESSED!! He's sexy. EXAMS OVER NAOW!!!! HAPPYYYYYY!!!!! X3 I think i failed miserably, but i don't care, because they're over and i don't have to worry about them until August!!! I was meant to be going out celebrating with Amz tonight, but lo, my parents came up with some reason for me to stay home...

Me: Mum, i need a lift to Buckley.
Mum: What for?
Me: I'm going out drinking with Amz to celebrate end of exams.
Mum: No you're not. All you ever do is go out drinking. I'm sick of it, you're staying here.
Me: Whyyyyyy?!?!
Mum: Well, you have to clean the playroom, and you can do the washing, and feed the animals while i'm out, and hoover the landing and-
Me: OH MY GOD!!!
Mum: What??
Me: INVISIBLE CHORES!!!
Mum: ¬____¬ Get cleaning.

So i've been cleaning =____= No worries though, i've got a month off school now so there's plenty of time for going out and getting drunk ^.^ for now, i'll focus on finishing my invisible chores so i can go to Cheshire Oaks with Amz Lerd tomorrow =D

Oh, and when i got home today, my Vaan figure had fallen off his stand and faceplanted straight into Balthier's crotch. I nearly pissed myself laughing XD XD Wish i'd got a photo... Priceless moment :p

I'm such a nerd XD

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Aaaaah, the con was amazing!!! YAAAAARGH!!! X3 I've just been chatting to one of the AWESOME people i met there, which is what's inspired this journal entry to rant XD It was fricken awesome, i made a bunch of friends who i've added on DA! When we first got there i saw a Haruhi cosplayer and we literally just flew at eachother, it was the best thing ever XD And i gave ALL my roses out and had a bunch of people asking me for pictures, it was awesome!

AND I BOUGHT A VAAN!!! So now i have Balthier and Vaan and i am greatly amused by that XD And me and Amz found this manga, that is pretty much a yaoi version of Gojyo and Hakkai from Saiyuki, so naturally we were SCREAMING at the tops of our voices about that XD

And now i'm drawing Balthier, because i am totally, utterly, completely obsessed with his sexyness. I want to marry his sideburns XD

...And me and Amz are FORCING Skye to dress up as Balthier for the London con, because he would be a very sexy Balthier XD

That is all.

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Depressing. DEPRESSING!! I AM DEPRESSED!!! =____= i just finished watching my House box set. Now i'm at a total loss. I will never know what to do when i'm bored now. I'm going to have to buy all the other seasons just so i have something to watch XP House is amazing. If there is one person in the whole world i aspire to be like, it's him. Kinda sad considering he is constantly described as a jerk, but he's so cool XD

So yeah, i have nothing to do now so i'm going to add to my art. Because i'm upset because i have no more House. It is upsetting. UPSETTING!!!!! O____O 

And yes, as far as i'm concerned House owns Scrubs like WOAH. Yes it does.

That is all.

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Had an ok day today. Met up with Skye this morning and me him and Amz went for a drive around. We ended up half way up Moel Famau for no reason o.o Skye threw a bottle at a sheep and failed dramatically, and i stole his hat XP Then he had to drive us back to school so we could go and do our exaaaaaam. I'm taking a day off work incase you hadn't noticed lol. So anyway, exam went ok, don't think i failed, don't think i passed with flying colours either XD My 'go into the room and pretend to be House' thing worked well though, i felt like a genius even if i wasn't acting like one XP

So yeah, all in all, ok day. CBA writing anymore now. SHOWER BEFORE CON!

Oh yeah.

One more thing.

ANIME CON TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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IT'S. TOO. HOT.

I'm dying. I need a cold shower RIGHT. NOW!

*going to die*

My house is shit. When it's cold outside, my house goes into freezer mode. When it's hot outside, my house becomes a giant sauna.

GAY.

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I hope at least one other person finds this amusing.



Because i just had the biggest giggling fit ever over it XD

I <3 Miguel XP

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Bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh. Work again today. It went fast yesterday so i'm hoping it will today aswell. Then i'm going to Amz's tonight and i've gotta pull and all nighter to try and get this work done, or i'm buggered on monday. I think i might tell Miss B that i'm taking monday off time table to get all my art finished, or my marks are going to be horrific. I'm also going to sneak the projects out and add too them over the next week before they get properly sent off. Psychology exam on Tuesday which i'm dreading. Lot's of cramming on monday night after work. I'm considering taking monday off ill to be honest, because otherwise i'm just going to have no chance at all of passing this exam.

So yeah. Not really looking forward to work today. Got a migrane coming on, which is distressing. I might have a chat to Lindsay and ask if i can go home early, because my head is banging already and i'm not even there yet, and i've got a million other things to be doing right now. I've just decided i'm going to take monday off, i know i'll probably get fired, but i really need the time for my art, which at the moment is more important than my job.

So basically, i'm in a bad mood today.

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Blaaaaah, i still CBA with work today. It's ok cuz i dont have to go in till 11:30, but it's not ok because i have to stay there until 8pm. GHEY. Uber gay. And tomorrow it's 10 until 6:30, same hours but with an earlier start. It's massively depressing. I think i might just stay there a few more months, save up all my wages and then quit and look for a job that will actually keep me busy until it's time to go home. If there's one thing i cant stand about Makro, it's the standing there and doing nothing for near on 6 hours, then going out on to the shop floor and doing more nothing for another 2 hours. It is really, really boring.

Rant over, i've gotta go and get my stuff together now. And i'll be pulling an all nighter tonight to try and finish all my unfinished artwork as the deadline is monday. As well as revising for psychology. STRESS STRESS PANIC STRESS.

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AAAAAAAAAARGH.

I really really really really CBA with work tomorroooooooow!!!

It's just one of those days... i've had a really nice week, i've only been in work for one day, and i just don't feel like doing anything except lazing about in the sun and... that's it XD

BUT I HAVE TO STAND BEHIND A FECKING JEWELLERY COUNTER FOR 8 HOURS INSTEAD.

Because i'm being paid to do so.

GHEY.

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Wheee, i've had a good day today aye! Hung out with Amz for most of the day, and me her and Jem had a giggle in the library when Jem was on poppers XD

Jem: *giggling*
Amz: LOOOK!!!!! A DEAR!!! A FEMALE DEAR!!!!
Jem: *lol* i have a wide bum hole!

XD Then after school i bogged into Chester with Nath and Gemma, which was really fuuuuuun! We had a good time X3 I saw my Big Issue friend, and Snake who i haven't seen in ages. He walked out of Tesco with a bag full of stuff and all the alarms went off o.o but they just ignored him XD Lol, Snake rules. Aaanyway, then we went to Gamestation and there was a sale on Final Fantasy figures so i was like 'OMG BUYING BALTHIER!!!!!!11111ONE *FANGIRL SQUEEL*' ..So i did XD And Gemma got a Sephiroth and we made them make out in Pizza Hut which was highly amusing XD Sephiroth made a nose dive into my lap at one point, which was the funniest thing ever at the time XD XD

Good day! And i saw Dan Glass on the bus on the way home, wearing a name badge that said Steven o.o Yeeeeeeeah.

That is all.

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GAAAAAAAAAAH I gotz sunburrrrn :O Bastard hot weather, i want it to be cold and rainy again XP ...I'm naturally really REALLY pale, and i actually like being so white (mainly because i look a pillock with a tan), so sitting out in the sun for 2-3 hours a day without sun cream really isn't going to do me any good XD Oh well, it's cloudy today so hopefully i'll be ok.

I was soooooo tired last night. I was meant to be going out to Amz's, and i was nagging my mum to give me a lift. She said she would after tea, which i didnt want because id already eaten, so i went upstairs and had a lie down cuz my back was hurting. Then i fell asleep. And i woke up at 7 this morning feeling confused and disorientated o.o i hate falling asleep at stupid o'clock in the afternoon, it really messes with your head, AND i still feel tired... So bugger that...

The night BEFORE that i stayed at Gemma's, and ended up sitting up most of the night in the bathroom looking after Nathan (Gemma's housemate) because the stupid bugger had gone and got himself drunk and was throwing up. I go all mother hen whenever anyone's sick so i took it upon myself to make sure he was ok, get him some water and send him straight to bed when he was done emptying the contents of his stomach XD XD Then me and Gemma watched a bit of LotR before we crashed at about 1.30am.

And. The last of my news. I broke up with Josh. Well, technically we're on a break, but i think it's going to stay like this because i feel much happier single. I think, after 8 months, our relationship was becoming habit... Sooo, as harsh as all that sounds, I'm single again and i feel much better off for it ^.^ One less thing to stress about over exam time, eh? I'll worry about boys again when i'm not killing myself trying to get all my exam stuff done XD

That is all for the update today o.o

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LOL omg i'm being a diary whore but i just found a moth in my glass of milk, drowning away XD XD XD leaving a little trail of wing scales behind it. LOL that amuses me so much.

Did i mention that i absolutely can't stand moths and i have a huge phobia of them?

*sets fire to it*

Lol

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Listening to alot of Pendulum recently XP It's Miranda's fault. I'm in love with that music. That's all i have to say.

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Oh god Haz amused me in work today. He is such a loon, he makes going to work worth it XD

Me: Bleh, i need to lose weight.
Haz: Pff, no you don't, you have a nice figure.
Me: I don't, my hips are obscenely big.
Haz: Y'ALLZ GOT GEWD BIRTHIN' HIPS!!!!

He proper SCREAMED it in a hick-ish accent and i just pissed myself laughing, it was the funniest thing i've ever heard XD Work was alright tonight, it went quite fast and everyone was in an ok mood.

School was fun too, chilled in the park at dinner and fourth lesson. Yaaaaaaay.

Lazy day tomorrow. Driving lesson then staying at [Pinup_princess]' place <3 <3 i love it there, i can be as slovenly as i like and no one cares XD i need a shower o.o *off to shower*

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Wheeeeeeeeee, it's official, i've poked a dead body XD XD Me and Amz went to see the dead body exhibit thing in Manchester and i poked one of the bodies and Amz LICKED one XD XD Sooo that was fun, and then we went to Affleks, which was buggering harder than you'd think XD XD we were wandering around Manchester for about an hour, and we walked past it about 3 times, but we eventually found it and it was well worth it XP we got served for poppers, which amused me greatly, and i bought a gothic lolita kimono, which made me very happy XP

Me and Amz had some poppers on the way home in the car and had the biggest spazz fit ever XP i was giggling like an idiot and i found everything hilarious, and Amz's vision went all blurry and she had a mini rave XP it was awesome! :p

And for those who don't know, poppers are a LEGAL high, nothing bad, just a bit of fun.

So a good day out (Y)

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LOL im sitting here with batteries up my nose o.O i only just realised how retarded that was ¬___¬;;

Aaaaanyway. I have had the BEST couple of days ever X3 Stayed at Amz's on Thursday night (which is becoming a regular thing o.O) and once again she covered me in blood for a photo shoot XD we got some awesome pics out of it though, which i'll put up here as soon as i work the camera out o.O *technologically retarded* so aaaaanyway. Me and Amz went to Jem's on friday night. I didn't really know Jem that well, i thought she was a bit quiet, but she is a-mazing when you get to know her a bit XP we had sooooo much fun! We went out to the pub and me and Jem danced like pillocks to Michael Jackson XP and then i made friends with some random guy with long hair and CHEEKBONES (<3) who was sitting around o.O some of the best quotes ever came from last night too, inculding:

"Have you seen my... One ring? *eyebrow wiggle*" aka, best chat up line ever.
"Jem, this is not your face. It has clothes on it." aka, Amz being LOL
"...EINSTEEEEEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIN!!!!" aka, just Jem XD

So yeah, goooooood night. Then me Amz and Jem went into Chester today and had a right old giggle ^.^ Best bit of the day when i pointed out to some guy that his hat looked like a condom XP we were on the bus waiting for it to leave, and he was walking past it when i caught his attention by waving frantically XD

Me: Your hat!
Guy: What? You starting??
Me: No, your hat looks like a condom!
Guy: You WHAT?!? *does that sticky-out-arm swagger thing*
Me: CONDOM HAT!!!
Guy: *struts over to side of bus with arms sticking out*
Me: *holds up peace-symbol*
Guy: WHAT?!?!
Me: Peace and love, dude!!
Amz+Jem: XD XD

And it was awesome XP

So basically, i've had looooooooads of fun the last couple of days, AND I WANNA DO IT AGAIN SOOOOOOON!!! Party at my place, and everyone's invited!!! XP

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Roite. I'm at Amz's now and im on her laptop. It's a wel known fact that i cant type on her laptop, so i'll be quick. Went to the doctors, had another gay ass blood test. Then got referred to the surgery's back-specialist or whatever. She checked out my back and it turns out that over the last 3 or so months my lower back muscles have been spasming and it's pulled my spine out of place. So basically i have an off-centre spine, and that's what's causing all the pain in my back and down my leg. Soooo, i've been put back on co-codamol and a course of anti-inflamatries which i'll be on for a few months, and i'm being referred to another physiotherapist aswell as my private one. The doctor's are contacting Makro to let them know what the situation is so that i'm not expected to do any heavy lifting and what have you. I can't over-work my back because this is my spine, not my muscles, so exercise won't actually help. If my spine gets pulled over to the left any further it could completely paralyse my left leg, so it's a good job they noticed this when they did.

That's basically it. It's not great news, but at least it's not cancer or kidney failure. It just means i'll probably be affected by this forever and it may be crippling in later life. But i wont worry about that now, what matters now is that i get through this course of painkillers and physiotherapy and pull through my exams XD I'll be ok, and i'll worry about paralysis when it actually happens :p

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