Well, my dad came over tonight to tell me that he and my step mom.. married just 2 months, are splitting up. He was crying and about throwing a fit saying how if it werent for me he would commit suicide... and I've never even seen my dad cry but once. I about lost it as well. You see, my real mom and I dont get along very well, though we have to live together, and my step mom was like, my escape... my friend, the mom I should've had. Even my best friend loved her...having hated and being hated my real mom. I've already been through one divorce, and that's enough for me. I cant deal with another one. I'm way too emotional and I get really schitzo-like when I get depressed... schitzoprenia runs in my family so there's a good chance I could have a bit of it somewhere in me.
So yeah, this isnt good and I'm depressed.
Listening to Evanescence Last Breath, and Imaginary a lot... Imaginary being my theme song for my life
-sigh- so difficult
mkay, I just saw Signs right? well.... I'm a terribly, and I mean TERRIBLY paranoid person, okies? I got freaked out, yesh I did. And.... I'm paranoid now. I have this odd desire to board up my windows, grab a bat and some tinfoil and a flash light... and.... stay the night at a friend's... Yeah, so.. what did you do? Bet it wasnt as fun as trapsing throgh a corn feild.... I did that before the movie... mind you... that was interesting.
Did I mention I'm not normal? Yeah, I think you already know by now.... anyway
yesh, well, mkay... am sitting on my couch listening to Evanescence again, with my best friend beside me... she wants to say something, yesh...
Jen: ummm.....hi
yay, anyway... not much to say, just wanted to do something stupid like that... toodles
dood... why on earth have I all of a sudden wanted to be a goth?! I dont get it! One day I start listening to Evanescence... the next, I'm wearing all black with heavy black makeup! Not like I do the whole wiccan, terribly depressed, usually thought of as a low life sort of Goth... not saying they all are... I just like the clothes, hair and makeup! I think it'd be cool to be one of those Goth Christians that all the other freaks think is cool because she's like them, but different. I dunno...rawr
Got attacked by bees last weekend o.o twasnt good!
Someone else asked me to illustrate a few things for her story, and I've got about 3 ppl to draw! Yay! cant wait to begin on them.
Just made myself a wire diadem and slave bracelet and they look lurvly. Might make another website and try to sell them. Ah well.
Never got to take my pictures from last weekend and so I'm going to try again very soon. Should be lurvly, yesh.
Well, toodles
Recently did two pictures for two different people... think they turned out lurvly! So far, the one who's written back as of now, seemed to have liked it as well! Quite happy, yesh.
Am about to go out in the woods next to my dad's house and take some pictures with chairs! How fun! lol. Should prove very interesting...
And I've been working on some logos and such for my online store (http://www.caf
Am listening to Enya's, The Celts, cd... lurvly. Just love Gaelic.. must learn more! Tis all for now