My mask is my best friend,
it keeps me safe and warm.
Nothing can harm me while I'm in it's grasp.
I don't worry others,
so it's a win-win.
Let me be to my peace
of lonliness for eternity.
A heart so scarred it can't breathe
lives here in my chest of stone.
Lonliness for Eternity,
that sounds so sweet.
It's better than where I am now,
and where I ever was.
It's cold in here,
and it's my safe little haven
from all those who have betrayed me
I lay away, forever hiding.

"Nice guys always finish last"
A quote to seriously live by. I hate this so much, I was really falling for him, and he basically stomped on my heart as if it was a fire going out of control. "Pressured him"? He's the one that asked me out, I didn't pressure him into shit. I hate my life right now, and feel like I'm dying. I'm not good enough for anyone, and never will be. Love is seriously just a lie and an illusion.

I want you all to leave a part of a song that reminds you of me and explain why you chose it <3

NATE IS COMING OVER <3

Omg... okay, I'm cleaning for legit probably the first time in my life. For once, mom is helping ME clean, and you know what, it feels goooood <3

Okay, so I was SUPPOSED to have a get together with one of my olddddd friends... from like 5 years ago........ and he's now a marine, and still hot as ever......

but now I might have to deal with my JACKASS UNCLE!!! >< Not looking forward to it if I have to, believe me. I wanted to see Nate sooo much more :'( It's a reconnecting thing right now, but I'm kinda hoping it becomes a little more to tell you the truth.... I haven't been this happy in a very long time.... I actually can think of him now and not cry, but look back with a smile on my face... I promised myself I wouldn't go out with anyone in the service ever again... but for Nate, I would really consider it.... and he doesn't even care about the fact that I dated his brother Todd(it was a two week not so serious type thing.... he dumped me out of the blue in front of all his friends, so I broke Todd's nose. Nate laughed about it :))

I really kinda hope it works out? I'm tired of being alone, and feeling envy everytime I see a couple hugging or sucking face.

http://www.formspring.me/MegHin3

Just in case any of you want to rant about me to my face, but put yourself as anonymous so I can't tell who you are. Hell... people are trying to insult me, and it's kind of funny to see what people truely think. I know who I am, and who my friends are, so what people post don't bother me. Have a go :) lol

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I need to figure out what the fuck I'm going to do lol

Woohoo hanging out with Dani and Magikarp later :D gonna be fun lol at least I hope. I have to totally take pictures for digital photography, so I will be trying to get those two to go with me. Wish me luck?

And oooo there is a freshman that flirted with me yesterday... it was kinda funny to tell you the truth. He's a cute kid. Heyyy jesse is coming up soon!!! :D (Not the one on here, my mom's friend that is near my age.)

Maybe I can get a chance with him? Idk... que sera sera at this point. Whatever will be will be and whatever won't be won't. HELL YEAH!!

I really hate this school now... 16 MORE DAYS!! Kinda dissapointed that they disected cats without me... damnit, I was looking so forward to that (It sucks.)

Buuuut I had a great time yesterday... so it's all good.

Staying home. Fuck it. It was supposed to be Senior Skip day, but it's probably changed AGAIN. I can't stop sneezing... i'm just gonna take it today..and stay home. I just wish I could stop sneezing!! :(

To bed... goodnight <3

http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/LillyFall925/541413/

CHAPTER ONE IS DOOOOOOOONEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D WHOOHOOO!!!!!

Now on to Chapter 2......

I will try to post this to Elftown later on for those who don't want to go to WritersCafe (though it isn't a bad site :( )

Working on my storryyyyyyyyy lol it's coming out great. You should all read it... (considering the prelude only has 2 views so far... and no reviews whatsoever. ) I'd appreciate the critisizm, and take it with dignity. I'm really working hard, getting all the kinks out. And damnit, I WILL FINISH THIS ONE!!!!!!!

http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/LillyFall925/539772/

A story I'm going to attempt to do myself. It's going swell so far, writing the first chapter and working on little sketches for the characters, so it's easier to describe them later.

Man.... the days have been going by so slow. But I'm not complaining. Yesterday was horrible, today is better. The idiot is back, but whatever, I'll deal with her and her stupidity. Life is pretty much swell. I'm actually enjoying being single, though I hope it doesn't last as long as it has for my aunt. I just find it harder... much more than I did before... he really hurt me, and it has made me a lot more closed off. Oh well... there's gotta be someone nearby that'll be good for me... but no more long distances...I can't do it.

"Give Me A Sign"

Dead star shine
Light up the sky
I'm all out of breath
My walls are closing in
Days go by
Give me a sign
Come back to the end
The shepherd of the damned

I can feel you falling away

No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever - and ever
the scars will remain
I'm falling apart
Leave me here forever in the dark

Daylight dies
Blackout the sky
Does anyone care?
Is anybody there?
Take this life
Empty inside
I'm already dead
I'll rise to fall again

I can feel you falling away

No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever - and ever
the scars will remain
I'm falling apart
Leave me here forever in the dark

God help me I've come undone
Out of the light of the sun
God help me I've come undone
Out of the light of the sun

I can feel you falling away

No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever - and ever
the scars will remain

Give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood
Just give me a sign
there's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood
Just give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood

Forever - and ever
The scars will remain

Yaaay :D Dani is over and we are going to the waterfront, then the beach to get some awesome photos :D I'm gonna jump in the water... that'll make for a funny profile pic. Love you all ♥

And for all my perverted friends on here: You'll get to see me wet XD lol

UGHHHH. Of course it's a beautiful day out, but my mom being so overprotective won't let me go alone. Of fucking course, no one can go with me. Hill is at work, Steff doesn't answer her phone, and Dani has a doctor's appointment. So as usual, I'm fucking STUCK INSIDE. FML.

Grrrr damn you Kathy... you've gotten me into Glee.....

Well, it's officially vacation my friends!! :D Gonna try to get/take a bunch of pictures this vacation. I need more pictures of myself, no matter how horrible they look. All my trials and errors will be posted up this time, I don't care anymore :P

Now... plans for after highschool... I think I've figured them out. I'm going to work a little, to earn the money for classes, then I'm going to take cosmotology and photography classes, so I can A) know how to style hair and make-up and B) so I can take photos for people. I know it will be hard, but I'm up for the challenge. Seeing that I'm 18, and most people live up to 75-80, I see it as I have a lot of years left to complete my dream. Nothing will get in my way, I won't allow it.

As for highschool, I'm ready to move on. It's going to be hard... this is technically my last vacation, but you know, it's okay. I know when I'm older, I'll be able to look back at what I've done, pat myself on the back, and say "Well done Megan, you earned it." and then smile one of my huge, stupid smiles.


On another note: OMG!!!!! Clash of the Titans was fucking AWESOOOOOMEE!!!! :D :D :D I recognised a prop from the original that automatically made me laugh my ass off. Makes me wonder about the 2012 theory... what if the Gods are going to get their revenge on us? Could be plausible, when you look at all the crap that is supposed to happen. Don't you think? Take a look, you'll see.

Thanks for tuning in, I haven't written one this long in a while. Peace! <3

WHAT IS WITH YAOI AND CATS!?

I see myself in a dream.
In a world I could never believe.
You're here with me, by my side.
Everything right, nothing to hide.
I look up to the sky and feel
something that no one could ever steal.
I'm happy, something brand new,
something that I never really knew.

But when I wake, it all goes
and I have to wake up and face my woes.
I will never touch this dream,
almost bursting out the seams.
I wake to a world so blind
Always looking for something I can never find.