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Catchy song :) I like it lol
Reconnecting with old friends makes me truely realise how much I have changed. I'm not the same little girl I used to be, and you know what, I'm happy that I'm not. I know how to have fun now, and I'm not so.... enclosed. It's nice to see a difference. I can look back, and I can proudly say that I am proud of who I have become.
Home and bored.......
Update on Nat. Guard: Gonna enlist next year, allow myself to get to the weight goal in a healthy way, instead of losing too much too quick. I only need to lose like 23 lbs, so I'm not too worried.
As for hanging out matters.... well, pretty much everyone cancelled out on me.... again. One cause of work, one cause she just doesn't want to hang, and then a no-show from the other one..... makes me wonder why I bother? Dunno, but whatever. Hill may be hanging out after work, but who knows. Then Tristan may be coming over about 7:30 - 8:00.... but who knows.
I get to go take my I.Q. test for pre admission for the National Guard :) Pretty sweet.
Hmmmm.... Criminal Justice? Since national guard isn't settling well with everyone.... Yeah... gonna study to be a cop.
I've decided on a course for my future, if I get accepted... Army National Guard. I know you all probably won't like it, but it's my life. Don't worry :) if you want me to keep in contact with you, just give me an address, and I'll make sure I have it. (This is all if I get accepted of course.)
FUCKING CUNT MS.ALLEN!!!
Fuck you! UGH!! Okay, so our night was pretty much fucked up by that fat piece of shit of a whale. Of course the lard can't fucking hear us, even though we repeated the money suituation 4 FUCKING TIMES!!!! Still manages to fuck it up, then screw me and Hill over. Well fuck you lady! I'm enjoying some wine, eating some food, then playing tennis.
I HOPE YOU CHOKE ON A CHICKEN BONE YOU FAT BITCH!!!!!
Talking to him as if nothing happened between us... it's killing me inside. But I still want to be friends, and I pray and hope that maybe, just maybe, something sparks between us and we can try again? I've never felt like this about any of my ex's... this one is just killing me slowly.
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
(Taste it on my tongue)
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you, oh, so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven't heard
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)
There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over
(Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey)
Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We're spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
(Stuck in black and white)
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I'm so broken that I can't get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)
There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over
All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab 'cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now I'm sober
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)
There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Now it's over, I still taste it on my tongue
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na
Now it's over
Done with Formspring. Sorry I am not "feminine" or "pretty" enough for you all, but I like myself, and the way I am. So you can all fuck off if you've got a problem.
My mask is my best friend,
it keeps me safe and warm.
Nothing can harm me while I'm in it's grasp.
I don't worry others,
so it's a win-win.
Let me be to my peace
of lonliness for eternity.
A heart so scarred it can't breathe
lives here in my chest of stone.
Lonliness for Eternity,
that sounds so sweet.
It's better than where I am now,
and where I ever was.
It's cold in here,
and it's my safe little haven
from all those who have betrayed me
I lay away, forever hiding.
"Nice guys always finish last"
A quote to seriously live by. I hate this so much, I was really falling for him, and he basically stomped on my heart as if it was a fire going out of control. "Pressured him"? He's the one that asked me out, I didn't pressure him into shit. I hate my life right now, and feel like I'm dying. I'm not good enough for anyone, and never will be. Love is seriously just a lie and an illusion.
I want you all to leave a part of a song that reminds you of me and explain why you chose it <3
NATE IS COMING OVER <3
Omg... okay, I'm cleaning for legit probably the first time in my life. For once, mom is helping ME clean, and you know what, it feels goooood <3
Okay, so I was SUPPOSED to have a get together with one of my olddddd friends... from like 5 years ago........ and he's now a marine, and still hot as ever......
but now I might have to deal with my JACKASS UNCLE!!! >< Not looking forward to it if I have to, believe me. I wanted to see Nate sooo much more :'( It's a reconnecting thing right now, but I'm kinda hoping it becomes a little more to tell you the truth.... I haven't been this happy in a very long time.... I actually can think of him now and not cry, but look back with a smile on my face... I promised myself I wouldn't go out with anyone in the service ever again... but for Nate, I would really consider it.... and he doesn't even care about the fact that I dated his brother Todd(it was a two week not so serious type thing.... he dumped me out of the blue in front of all his friends, so I broke Todd's nose. Nate laughed about it :))
I really kinda hope it works out? I'm tired of being alone, and feeling envy everytime I see a couple hugging or sucking face.
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Just in case any of you want to rant about me to my face, but put yourself as anonymous so I can't tell who you are. Hell... people are trying to insult me, and it's kind of funny to see what people truely think. I know who I am, and who my friends are, so what people post don't bother me. Have a go :) lol
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I need to figure out what the fuck I'm going to do lol
Woohoo hanging out with Dani and Magikarp later :D gonna be fun lol at least I hope. I have to totally take pictures for digital photography, so I will be trying to get those two to go with me. Wish me luck?
And oooo there is a freshman that flirted with me yesterday... it was kinda funny to tell you the truth. He's a cute kid. Heyyy jesse is coming up soon!!! :D (Not the one on here, my mom's friend that is near my age.)
Maybe I can get a chance with him? Idk... que sera sera at this point. Whatever will be will be and whatever won't be won't. HELL YEAH!!
I really hate this school now... 16 MORE DAYS!! Kinda dissapointed that they disected cats without me... damnit, I was looking so forward to that (It sucks.)
Buuuut I had a great time yesterday... so it's all good.
Staying home. Fuck it. It was supposed to be Senior Skip day, but it's probably changed AGAIN. I can't stop sneezing... i'm just gonna take it today..and stay home. I just wish I could stop sneezing!! :(
To bed... goodnight <3