Making another Formspring... it's all good :)
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There's something about dancing in the rain that makes me feel so alive. If only my camera was waterproof, I could show you what I mean. Maybe one day, when I can afford one, I will buy a waterproof camera, and show you the magnificent wonder of dancing in the rain. Who knows... maybe if someday you come to visit, I will show you the magic of it myself.
OW. my ear hurts like helllll :(
To Bed! To Bed!
But parting sucks.......
I need to get some sleep....
To Bed! To Bed!
We just got two new cockatiels. The one we got yesterday, Abby is sooooooo sweet, however, the one we just got today (no name yet), is pretty much like me.... and sounds like she's posessed... but I love her though <3 That brings our grand total of birds to 10 (6 cockatiels and 4 parakeets.)
I have another new story idea, but this one is a bit foggy (which just makes it awesome for molding.)
This a group project I am working on. My roleplay friends, if you're interested, please send me a message. The more the merrier, but I need to make sure you have the skills I need in order to make this an awesome story :) <3 All I ask for is imagination, dynamic characters, and please, some writing skills.
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Catchy song :) I like it lol
Reconnecting with old friends makes me truely realise how much I have changed. I'm not the same little girl I used to be, and you know what, I'm happy that I'm not. I know how to have fun now, and I'm not so.... enclosed. It's nice to see a difference. I can look back, and I can proudly say that I am proud of who I have become.
Home and bored.......
Update on Nat. Guard: Gonna enlist next year, allow myself to get to the weight goal in a healthy way, instead of losing too much too quick. I only need to lose like 23 lbs, so I'm not too worried.
As for hanging out matters.... well, pretty much everyone cancelled out on me.... again. One cause of work, one cause she just doesn't want to hang, and then a no-show from the other one..... makes me wonder why I bother? Dunno, but whatever. Hill may be hanging out after work, but who knows. Then Tristan may be coming over about 7:30 - 8:00.... but who knows.
I get to go take my I.Q. test for pre admission for the National Guard :) Pretty sweet.
Hmmmm.... Criminal Justice? Since national guard isn't settling well with everyone.... Yeah... gonna study to be a cop.
I've decided on a course for my future, if I get accepted... Army National Guard. I know you all probably won't like it, but it's my life. Don't worry :) if you want me to keep in contact with you, just give me an address, and I'll make sure I have it. (This is all if I get accepted of course.)
FUCKING CUNT MS.ALLEN!!!
Fuck you! UGH!! Okay, so our night was pretty much fucked up by that fat piece of shit of a whale. Of course the lard can't fucking hear us, even though we repeated the money suituation 4 FUCKING TIMES!!!! Still manages to fuck it up, then screw me and Hill over. Well fuck you lady! I'm enjoying some wine, eating some food, then playing tennis.
I HOPE YOU CHOKE ON A CHICKEN BONE YOU FAT BITCH!!!!!
Talking to him as if nothing happened between us... it's killing me inside. But I still want to be friends, and I pray and hope that maybe, just maybe, something sparks between us and we can try again? I've never felt like this about any of my ex's... this one is just killing me slowly.
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
(Taste it on my tongue)
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you, oh, so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven't heard
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)
There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over
(Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey)
Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We're spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
(Stuck in black and white)
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I'm so broken that I can't get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)
There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over
All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab 'cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now I'm sober
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)
There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Now it's over, I still taste it on my tongue
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na
Now it's over
Done with Formspring. Sorry I am not "feminine" or "pretty" enough for you all, but I like myself, and the way I am. So you can all fuck off if you've got a problem.
My mask is my best friend,
it keeps me safe and warm.
Nothing can harm me while I'm in it's grasp.
I don't worry others,
so it's a win-win.
Let me be to my peace
of lonliness for eternity.
A heart so scarred it can't breathe
lives here in my chest of stone.
Lonliness for Eternity,
that sounds so sweet.
It's better than where I am now,
and where I ever was.
It's cold in here,
and it's my safe little haven
from all those who have betrayed me
I lay away, forever hiding.
"Nice guys always finish last"
A quote to seriously live by. I hate this so much, I was really falling for him, and he basically stomped on my heart as if it was a fire going out of control. "Pressured him"? He's the one that asked me out, I didn't pressure him into shit. I hate my life right now, and feel like I'm dying. I'm not good enough for anyone, and never will be. Love is seriously just a lie and an illusion.
I want you all to leave a part of a song that reminds you of me and explain why you chose it <3
NATE IS COMING OVER <3
Omg... okay, I'm cleaning for legit probably the first time in my life. For once, mom is helping ME clean, and you know what, it feels goooood <3