Every day I open my eyes and I lay there for a moment longier than I should and I wouder if I should get out of bed....I have most the world telling me to moveon, telling me that I'm a talented person and not to waste it. I wish I could see what they see....I find it a challenge to go through this world......watching all the people go by going on about their happy and oh so good life.....and I ask myself "Why can't I have that?" and no one ever answers because no one ever hears me. I ask myself "Should I just end it all and get this pointless life done with?" but lately I have got to thinking. I'm here and even though I feel as if this life is pointless it really can't be.....I have to be here for a reason.....and if I'm really not then I'm going to make myself known some how. It should never be on your list of things to do, to kill yourself, I know in many ways more than others how it feel to go through the world and have pain surrounding me and pain all in your heart. Just remember that no one is here for NO reason....everyone has a reason....don't give up.......there is a saying that can help me a little bit and it is.......

"To the world your just one person but, to one person you could be the world."

Who is to say that you mean to the world to someone, you just don't know it yet....this is like a movie and though it may be lame in some parts....others can be exciting and the ending could supriseing......so stick around and lets find out together. :)

I love music and not for no reason......music can touch the soul and change your moods.....All you have to do is sit back and listen to the lyrics of the song. I love many songs and I love many types of music because if you skip a type of music because you say you don't like it......you could be missing out on hearing some great songs. Here is some lyrics to a song that I most resantly heard and started liking.....read and see if you like em too......


Band - Rascal Flatts
Song Name - What Hurts The Most


I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do