I'll believe all your lies~
Just pretend you love me~
Make believe close your eyes~
I'll be anything for you~

"Anything for You" -Evanescence
Currently listening to that, it's a fun song. Lyrics are a tad bit obsessive, but the music is danceable. So, I dance, and practice for my play thing. I have to move a lot in my character. I'm always in a wide stance, knees bent, head cocked all over the place, arms extended toward whatever I'm looking at, crosslegged whenever I'm sitting in some odd position... so dancing kind of helps.

And I have a cool picture up for the claim "Advertisement" on my home page. It's one of two. The other picture's going to be of another girl with a different ad, something along the lines of "Why but the expensive broken one when you can get her for so cheap? All she needs is lies and sex and she won't care what else you do!"

Skipped out on Nee's party. Dunno why, I just didn't feel like spending a bunch of time around a lot of people outside. And getting wet... I'm stupid and bought a strapless swimsuit on a whim, I'm just glad it came with attachable straps.

Long diary entry, huh? Well, there's nothing else to do, just rehearsals and computer. So... I think I'll go shower now... ta~
http://s7.invisionfree.com/secret_red_ink/

1:47 AM, Wednesday.
Reading a book.
Talking to a college student somewhere in the Northeast who know my name age and city.
My mom's out getting Wendy's after doing I-dont-wanna-know at Gerard's house.
I'm writing about a fictional character's twisted psychology with adults.
I want to call somebody. Anybody really. But it's so late.
... Yeah, this is a typical night.

What the fuck is wrong with humanity? More specifically, why do all the fucked up humans keep going to Danny Phantom forums!
http://z4.invisionfree.com/DannyPhantom/index.php?showtopic=6762&st=0last
That is only one instant where some puss-filled bastard has gone to DPO manipulating people. If you watch the video linked there, you see a crapload of people supporting these pedophiles just because they were banned too. "Oh, I don't like them, so I'm going to support little kids being taken advantage of over my morals" JESUS CHRIST! Seriously, Jesus Christ.
That's the crap my friend Destiny (Wolfz) has to go through. Porn addicts, bots, spam attacks, at leats 2-3 times a month. She's 17. WTF?!

Finallllly. New GrimJr/Minimandy. This comic actually makes me like the show :) I should show this to Luz... but no. She has this sick thought that Billy is among the hottest people alive. As well as Cartman, Dexter... I'll leave that as it is.
I want a Jawbreaker, but I discovered at the mall that they took them away. I was sad.
But I have pudding. And cranberry juice and a wine glass. Huzzah.

I'm bored. I can't sleep because soooooomebody weasled their way into my head. So what do I do?
I watch Phantom music videos on You Tube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ITyZIp7TldE&search=danny%20phantom%20valerie
I love Valerie, she fuxking rocks.
Also, I made a message board. Its black and red and sexy. Major kudos to LogicalInsanity for helping me out with graphics :D
http://z7.invisionfree.com/secret_red_ink
If you have poetry or anything, or pictures, you should join up. I want it to start well.

Fun day. X3 and Lansharx.
I hate my mom.
But, a really fun day.
Bruise on my hand and handprints on my ass.
But, a really fun day.
Walked down a street and got honked at like 8 times.
But, a really fun day.
Seriously. I haven't been this happy in a while.

I'm writing a lemon. For those of you who don't know the terminology, lemon = smut = sex story. It's by request. I wrote one for this girl a while back for her Quizilla story, but that was a long time ago. I've gotten decidedly better at writing since then. I think decidedly is my new word of the week or something.
But, yeah. That's my day.

Some things = decidedly better
Other things = decidedly same or... more troubling.
*shrug*
Stephen showed me a pretty fan-comic that I will love forever. Because it rocks.

Well, its summer. Yay. Can you say two months of sitting around doing absolutely nothing because everyone's going somewhere or doing something except you so all you can do is watch TV and hope someone wants to go see a new bad sequal with you?

Yeah, I don't like summer that much. At least during school I could talk to people in the courtyard. Meh.

-School
-Bio/Span Exams
-Boredom
-Afterschool, Bush's
-Mealy's house
--Elftown, Joecartoon, phone, boredom.
-Home
-Gerard's, boredom
-Boredom
-More internet
-Boredom

There is NOTHING to do anymore. I cannot wait to audition for the play...

OR



Only if you're my relative ^.^

If anyone would like to go see Over the Hedge, Da Vinci Code, or whatever the hell today, give me a message/call. I'm bored as sin and don't have tickets to the Saliva concert. Oh, yeah, Mealy's going with her boyfriend. She invited me but I don't want to be a third wheel. So, a movie is fine with me.

I bought four manga today.
-Confidential Confessions 6 (about a girl who breaks up with her abusive boyfriend, and he then begins to stalk her... so creepy)
- Legal Drug
- Glasswings
- x/1999 (CLAMP, which rules, and Destiny's reffered it to me so much)
Went with Mealy, who spent the night last night. Last night was terrible. My mom got a one-time-only catering job and wasn't back till 1. And my brother is just a horrible kid. I felt bad for making Mealy stay through it.
Today was considerably better, but I'm incredibly bored. There is nothing to do tomorrow except study. I can't call anyone... what would I say anyway?
Looking through old yearbooks passes the time... God, I hated my hair in 6th grade. Everyone looked funny. Renee, Meredith, Stephen, Carter... everyone xD
Still hating these days with a passion, yours truly,
Saramis

Last night, Google and I decided that we weren't human.
Why? Because humanity is either stupid, cruel, cowardly, cocky, or self-indulgent. To a fault. So, we refuse to call ourselves humans now. We're just... us. It's why I'm going to quit referring to myself as a Christian despite the fact that (for the most part) I believe in God.
Guilty by association, right?

I'm using this diary thing a LOT lately. Sucks to Xanga, eh?
I might go to a movie this weekend.
Had to opt out of a Teen Titans RP I was invited into. No time, really, and no earnestness.
It's apparent to me how even though several people at my school suck ass (probably literally), I've got a lot of good friends who wouldn't desert me. It's also apparent how several of the males would... yeah... shutting up now. I hate it when people like me like that, and I didn't back. Always have. It guilt-trips me. And that's not even factoring in recent events on my psyche.
I'm just starting to go insane, again, is all. Shizotypical tendencies, yey.
Poseidon looks awesome. Can't wait to see Over the Hedge next week, too.
Gotta shower.

Guess who's sick of embarrassing herself at school in the morning and having to yell at the inconsiderate sadistic dumbasses around her?
Moi.
Anyway, Maba showed me this. It's pretty effed up. But not surprising in the 21st century.
http://www.anomalies-unlimited.com/Disney.html
EVIL DISNEY! Maba hates Disney. I do too, now. Pretty interesting reads... and images.

Whoa. My picture's on the Elftown front page.
What's that row of pictures on the right for, anyways?
Sorry. Just thought that was kind of cool.
I made Production. I found out today. I'm excited. Mr. Lowe asked after my audition if I'd be willing to learn to waltz. You guys are gonna get to see me ballroom dancing on stage, I do believe! I only know a few basics of waltz. Onetwothree, onetwothree... heh.
I have about four different songs stuck in my head and I'm working on my project. Won't get it done in time, at least, the report won't be. *sigh* Ah well.
My own angst is too much to consume, so my motto of MUST COMSUME TEH ANGSTZ doesnt apply. I was about to write it xD "Ow. My angst." Love that.

*sigh*
...
What am I supposed to say?

Bored.
I had my AP exam today. Why in the gods' names do they let freshmen take AP courses? It's just... idiotic. Of course I'd want to take it, though. It really is a fun class in itself and I do pretty well. But the exam was unbelievable. I'd never even heard of the crap they wanted me to write an essay about. Can't say much more since I signed a contract to not disclose any specifics on the matter.
I saw United 93 on Saturday. Best damn documentary I will ever lay eyes on. So I snuck in with Stephen and we were the only people uunder 25 who were in there. It was absolutely stunning either way. I reccommend the movie to anyone over the age of 13. In reality, I had forgotten. I remember what happened, and that it was terrible. But I didn't remember how it felt. We all need a little reminding sometimes.
And my muse is back. Saramis is happy. Yes she is.

First entry. Yes.
Saramis Kismet~~ Your fading destiny

Things at school seem to be fixing themselves rather nicely... it's taken a while but as of late things are looking up. Right when I decide to stop trying to heal it myself, it goes off and makes itself work. Doesn't that just figure.
Whereas at my mom's house things just keep getting pushed further toward the back of the shelf. It's to the point where I have to scream to say anything important and when I scream my mom automatically tunes me out. *sigh* And because she wants to take a totally random vacation I get shunted over to my dad's house, where I haven't been in 3+ months. I stay quiet here, and avoid eye contact with most of them, and its actually more peaceful than my mom's house.
Not like I'll be staying here for long.

Maurius and I are doing allright. It's different not seeing each other quite as much as when it started, but I can live with it.

Going to Luz's house tomorrow to watch a shitload of movies. That should be fun.

*tunes out hip hop behind her and watches anime*