today was my girl freinds birthday and i feel like absolute shit that i wasnt there. i mean its not really like i had a choice. i had agreed to go to my grandparents house. the main part that makes me feel like shit is that i didnt even know that it was her birthday. but you cant really blame me for that. she's ben in a resedential home for the past four months. the reason that she was in there was beacause she tried to stab someone. she told me that she did it because he tried to rape her, but i dont know if i should trust her. i love her so damn much, but its not uncommon for her to lie.

    if you read this and have some advice for me, i would really appreciate it.