it has fallen to my attention that there is a number of things wrong in my life. one of them sticks out like a sore thumb. a freind of mine has gone missing and it has been left to me to find her because the police and her parents are incommpitont. i have a theory as to what has happened to her, if i am right then i fear that i have very little time left. this may be my last entry so i say to all my freinds and loved ones here, i am sorry. not so much that i mat never speak to you again, but more for the pain that i am causing you now. if i dont answer back your messages in the next week at the most, i am probably dead.

im so sorry.

today was my girl freinds birthday and i feel like absolute shit that i wasnt there. i mean its not really like i had a choice. i had agreed to go to my grandparents house. the main part that makes me feel like shit is that i didnt even know that it was her birthday. but you cant really blame me for that. she's ben in a resedential home for the past four months. the reason that she was in there was beacause she tried to stab someone. she told me that she did it because he tried to rape her, but i dont know if i should trust her. i love her so damn much, but its not uncommon for her to lie.

    if you read this and have some advice for me, i would really appreciate it.