did you jus take a piss in my bloodshot eye?
metaphorically of course dear, its such a dark night, not dark enough, i can still see you
scattered away, when my number aint up, or maybe it is...
isnt it on
a ledge
i always got to follow, turn out the lights, so you cant see me cry, im feeling so hollow, they left me to this...its all so empty....its hard to swallow...but i know whats coming dear, so make it quick, obviously it cant be painless...but jesus fuck.

In a moment
i'l see it all end
i cant even get angry

times are gone for honest men...
heaven send me back to them...

And I Ask Myself:
What Have I Done?
Then I Realise The Answer:
Nothing.

Maybe Thats The Problem, Maybe I Don't Do Enough...

Sir.
I'm Back.

Where to start...
i have no idea.
gah
i didnt expect that at all...
i should have, i mean it was bound to happen
+oh slightly different note: how ironic
couldnt help but laugh

anyway
back to the main event
argh it hurts jus thinkin bout it
geez
i can jus remember a year ago
everythin was so different
innocent
go away for a while and...BAM
a part of me wants to cry alot
not sure why
maybe because its made me realize
maybe because of something else...
but what a shock
and ya know
they were right what they said
and it didnt make me mad at them
but at myself
coz they were right
what a rip off
life is
way too short
but i have to figure out
how im gunna do this
alot of things have gotta change
and i have no time to do it in..
this will be my best masterpeice so far
if.
i can pull it off

enough to get by....
might as well have fun?

shit i forgot to switch it
what a bad land....
cats for cash

its really getting too much
what next?
i dread to think....
i really do
god bless the dead...
fuck it
there aint no god
so whos gunna bless em...

Shit!
its winter soon
i know what that means...
gah
how could i forget