This ropes getting tighter
thanks god they invented nylon
its better on the skin
mines too sensitive

This is the worst pain iv'e ever felt...

its strange how things turn out =/

what a night...

I'm so sorry, for everything.
And believe me, if i had a gun i'd blow it all away.
But i'm too much of a coward to do it any other way

I am sorry.
I took the most important thing i've ever known for granted, and now it seems i've lost it.
Nothing less than i deserved, I never did deserve her.

I've forgotten this feeling, because happyness is all i've ever known these past few months
Best times of my life, without a doubt or its shadow...i never did get 'shadow of a doubt'

I'm lost really.
Numb.
It's still early aswell...only 20 to 8
I think i need a shower.

Im so so sorry
i always did screw things up as a kid, i guess i never changed.

I never ever meant to hurt you, ever. And i always l0ved you, and always will
please remember that. if nothing else.
No matter what.
xxx

i think i'l jus die on a rope
since im obviously no good around here

did you jus take a piss in my bloodshot eye?
metaphorically of course dear, its such a dark night, not dark enough, i can still see you
scattered away, when my number aint up, or maybe it is...
isnt it on
a ledge
i always got to follow, turn out the lights, so you cant see me cry, im feeling so hollow, they left me to this...its all so empty....its hard to swallow...but i know whats coming dear, so make it quick, obviously it cant be painless...but jesus fuck.

In a moment
i'l see it all end
i cant even get angry

times are gone for honest men...
heaven send me back to them...

And I Ask Myself:
What Have I Done?
Then I Realise The Answer:
Nothing.

Maybe Thats The Problem, Maybe I Don't Do Enough...