dear diary....

why oh why do I always have such a bad timing...

when I was born I already had a bad timing... back then I already was a pain in the ass (probably) I also wanted things happen to early... (but I was mistaking)

When I was born they tought I came early but I wasn't...

When I was born I was laying in the wrong way... and right before I was born I turned... thank god

so yeah I'm weird, a pain in the ass, annoying and all the other stuff I forgot to mention...

so yeah :( talk to you later...

dear diary :D


yeahh I feel kinda ok atm to...


we feel the same way, somehow, someway we feel both ok


it didn't rain yesterday... for once...


and I'm in a good mood :) he still makes me feel great


I'm a bit bumbed out that I can only see him once a week :( but ok just have to live with that :) as long as I can continue meeting him.... its fine by me


lots of hugs and kisses my dear friend and companion

dear diary,

and yet again, it was a great day :) we went to the cinema and watched a movie (I saw abouw half of it....:P)

and uhm why does it always rains when he comes to see me??? its not fair! fucking weather....!

but the rain can't take my feelings away thats for sure...
no matter how cold it is, he makes me feel warm inside

I don't want to get to attached :( I want this to last forever but I don't know how he feels... I can't help myself... I already feel to much for him

yay I have turned myself sad again.... great!

stupid woman :(

dear diary,

omg :D today was fucking great... I met HIM :D he is soooooo sweet

he made me smile, he made me feel warm, he made me feel special, yeah well he just makes me feel good about myself...

I felt this way before... and I was with that guy for 1 year and 8 months... so uhm I wonder where this guy will bring me...

he is just so sweet :)

I will keep you updated sweety

dear diary....

omg omg omg :D
yup I like him, I like him alot :)
and in case he gets to read this...: I like you!

so there, now you know it (and I know you for 2 days :P)

*taking a deep breath*

I'll keep you updated sweet sweet diary (and yeah I'm in a good mood)

love you :D

dear diary,

Something went wrong at the administration from Hans Anders, so my contract begins at 15 May (in three days)
Although I already have worked some days I'm not official hired yet

but anyways I like working there :) My collegues are very nice (two guys hihihi) and uhm yeah I like the job :) I like to talk to people and help them out.

I've been working for a week now, but I am very tired (I guess that will be cause its my first real job :S) yeah well uhm it doesn't matter I'll get used to it I hope

My school sucks on the other hand... They give us soooo much homework to do, and all at the same time... so there will always be at least one teacher mad at me cause I didn't do my homework..

And then there is also my love life....(what love life :S) it seriously sucks...
I got nobody :'( everyone around me is being loved and stuff... and I just miss it :'( I need some arms around me and someone to stroke my hair and just to be there for me, someone to cuddle.
I just need some affenction...

yeah well ok now that is of my chest I can go on with my life.. to see if anything is going to change (or not)

I hope everything goes ok for you sweet diary

I love you xxxx

dear diary

from this day forward I officially got a job...
my contract starts from 1 may (today that is)

tomorrow on the other hand is my first real working day

I wonder how it will be

I'm going to work at Hans Anders Optician as a student optician.

I will work tuesday or wednesday, friday night and saterday

yay I'm going to make € ;)

I will let you know how my day was tomorrow

kisses me

dear diary,

yesterday I have been to a festival in belgium: "pestpop"
it was so cool!!! I have seen Epica, Sonata Arctica, Jon Oliva's Pain and some more bands... I really had a good time. A guy from belgium called Niels picked me and my sister up at our house and took us to the festival. Afterwards he returned us back home. Niels is very sweet :)

I hope me and my sister will go to another festival again soon, maybe also with niels.

I will wright again as soon as something interesting has happend.

for now this is it, so good day hosee.

kisses your loving skittels