[im the reason y ur still alive!!!]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2007-01-09
Written: (6527 days ago)

nothing ever gos right
you sit there trying to make sure that everything is perfect but it never happens everything just blows up in ur face like some kind of joke....as we all cry at night to let it all out and to try to get on....the visions haunt us...makes us fear for our lives as we dive into this so called life of ours....nothing seems right.....i let it go cuz its no longer worth it to me......as i take the blood pills....just to get threw it all....as people think im some sick person.....i dive in to my pain and sorrowness...and die peacfuly tonight....

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Written about Sunday 2006-12-31
Written: (6536 days ago)

the pain fills my life
like water fill a cup
nothing really left
but the blood in my head
soon to rush out
to let me be
nothing left to hold on to
nothing left to see
i know what you all think
but you dont know the story
the pain that lyes behinde the eyes
but the scares on the arm
i hold back the tears
as i say good bye to everyone
my life was short
but the memory was even shorter

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Written about Sunday 2006-12-10
Written: (6558 days ago)

in this empty house
i know where everything is
nothings changed
nothings here
sitting in the dark
all alone
nothing left here
nothing here
all u want is to leave
blood on the walls
bones in ur arms
tears down ur eyes
the devil in ur heart
just wait to get out
bursting in flames
ur ture self
just letting go
of this firey place
not to ever know
why this was
just to know
that i never knew
that i wasnt alone

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Written about Monday 2006-12-04
Written: (6563 days ago)

an empty soul takes my life
leaves me in the dark
all alone
no one to see
no one to cear for me
lets me die
and never excape
this horried place
i see your face
i know the truth
leave me behind
to die here
i wish i new
what to do
i wish i could leave
live this life
as i cry alone
i remember the past
i never new
why am i here
left to die
suffering
bleeding the pain away
knowing what to do
as this soul comes
i weaken
nothing left to live
nothing here for me
as my life drains away
i see the face
lat it burn
i soon relize
i was never alive


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Written about Tuesday 2006-11-14
Written: (6583 days ago)

day by day i think of you
not knowing what to do
should i tell yah
or should i hide it away
hide it like i do everything else
hide it in that deep dark hole i love so much
never letting go of anything
holding on to everything that dear in my life
as i see you everyday hiding this secrete
diving in my own pool of pain
noth knowing what to do wit you
wishing i could tell you
but as i think more of you
the bigger the whole gets
as i finaly let my self go wit this pain
i write a note
letting you know everything

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Written about Saturday 2006-09-16
Written: (6642 days ago)
Next in thread: 853511

heaven is sweet
love is crazy
life is wild
the world gos around
like nothing ever happens
but as life gos on
the wilder it gets
the more we want it
the more we need it
the crazyer love gets
the more we crave it
everything we see
everyone we meet
its just like heaven
and thats sweet

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Written about Sunday 2006-09-10
Written: (6648 days ago)

the night is so dark
the soul is deep
no were to run
no were to hide
i let it all out
just to let you know
but you still dont understand
how i feel
how the pain is always there
how the blood never stops
how youll wake up and find out it was to late

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Written about Thursday 2006-08-31
Written: (6658 days ago)

I GOT A BF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I GOT A BF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!IM LOVEABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LMAO

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Written about Wednesday 2006-08-30
Written: (6659 days ago)
Next in thread: 846462

god im so bored but i have been writing more....i might have aq bf but he hasnt asked me out i hope he does that would be so fucking awsome well here are some poems what do yah think????


the darkness comes to take over
to end this horried place
to set us free from you
to lock you up and make u suffer
just like you did to us
to trap you in all your apin
and to let you bleed
we smeel your frear
we love your pain
we need your sorrows
to let it all out
to let us bef ree
as you staed trap
as you scream
we live long
when you stay in pain
just like us

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Written about Saturday 2006-08-26
Written: (6663 days ago)

in the night sky thats so dark and grey we all sit alone no where to stay i wonder how we all got here why we all stayed to be here alone we all cry in fear and pain noone to love no one to live in the shadows of grey we all come together to be alone i sit and wonder is this true what will become of me i see all the empty faces and all the fears in ur eyes and know what ur thinking i know why ur hereto be alone like the rest of us

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Written about Thursday 2006-08-24
Written: (6665 days ago)

i see the fire and i see the rage ive seen what youve done and i know what you can do i see all the pain o know all the lies i watch you throw your life away peace by peace you let all your friends gos as if you dont cear i see the darkeness i know the truth but yet it lies inside no where to be foundi know what happend i knwo how it came about let yourself go let it all be done ill say my goodbyes one last time

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Written about Wednesday 2006-08-23
Written: (6666 days ago)

i sit alone no one to love me no one to cear i let my pain go threw me like a drug it never seems to go away and i cant do anything about it ur still here and i cant leave i try to go the only way i know how and u stop me u let me die in this house of pain not to be free im traped in here with everyone else not to be herd or seen i though u loved me i though u ceard but all i got are the scares everywhere u see me every day u know who i am but u never seem to cear or help u let me die and suffer here u let me be traped u let me suffer as i scream every night just to let it all out as u strap me down a put that neddle in me i drift away never to be seen or herd of again as i see the bars and i know i cant be free as i see u all walk pass me with out a cear as i scream inside trying to get out i let it all go no where to be found

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